TeenHelp - My new poem!

How do you get pleasure from my pain?
When just last Wednesday you were calling my name
And i know those things were wrong
But I shouldn't be sitting here writing about you like this in a song

Hey I've come a long way
Just to hear the words you've been dying to say
"Its all over
I'm sorry, but there's no room for your tears on my shoulder"

I couldn't wash away your love that was given to me
Because every September I let the memories bleed
I walked towards our goodbye
And you already know why

This Wednesday you sat there and smiled once you heard my voice
Because I sat next to him thinking i made the right choice
So I smiled too
Yet we can't get past what we've been through

I've been trying to move on
But you were too good of a friend to just be gone
I guess all I can do is to stop believing
Because this whole time you proved that I was only dreaming

I know you probably don't care
But could you please wake me up from this nightmare?
I'm extremely sorry for everything
I just can't have you disappearing

-Aw.... it has been a long time since I have posted any of my poems. Sorry for that you guys. As if today this poem doesn't have the meaning that it used to have. I have taken so long to write this poem. It took me about two weeks. I can nornally write a poem in about 3 hours. Or like two days. So i've really worked hard on this one. And this poem was written a week or so ago. So the Wednesdays and from June 13 and the Wednesday after that. So I really hope you guys like this one. Let me know your thoughts.