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Why do you have to keep trying to split up me and my BESTFRIEND? It's not gonna happen... Yeah, I do love her, she's saved my life more times than I can count..

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I love you, and I know you are confused but don't feel that way about me.
I'm your best friend, and you're mine.
I'd never be the same without you.
I don't know what happened between you and my sister, but why do my parents have to separate us?
You're just a normal girl, struggling to make friends after your move.
Why does your dad have to be in the military?
When you talk about the men you're attracted to, my heart crumbles. I cry.

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My sister: What happened between you and her? Why do you hate her so much? When you call me a dyke, it hurts. I laugh it off. You think we're dating, and I wish we were. But we aren't. Why does everyone assume it? She broke my heart, but she's still my best friend. So please stop talking bad about her. I'd tell this to you if you weren't suffering from depression. I don't understand it when you're angry, when you lash out at me. When I see you lie to my parents. And I'm trying to help you, I try to talk to you calmly, because I want to understand. Don't lie to me when I'm trying.


Your parents (of the person from the last post): you think we're dating, but we're not. Why aren't you letting me talk to her? You said you'd accept her if she's gay, and because you think we're dating, you're forcing her to be with a guy she doesn't even like. Just because she's texting me constantly, doesn't mean we're like that. I'm just the only person who talks to her anymore. The rest of her friends don't really think she needs to be texted or helped. You don't even know how bad it is. Stop reading her texts. Stop reading her emails. Her facebook. Stop forcing her to date, and let her love when she wants to. You're making it worse...

Her dad: Please stop drinking, stop doing tobacco. You're hurting her... she loves you, even when you can be hard on her. Why can't you see it? [weight figure removed] isn't fat, so stop yelling at her for being fat. She's not, and she's trying to lose whatever it was you wanted her to lose.

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Finally you got in touch with me for once, rather than it having to be the other way round, and thanks for that, but remember how I told you I hate it when you just stop replying? Well, surprise surprise hey, it's still the same old story - just reply again... please.

Is this all just because you heard what I said New Years Eve?

Do you still think of me?....:sad:

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It's really nice to see that I don't need you now.

I want to be with you every second of every day. I have never felt the feelings I did the other night. My heart was so comfortable.

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Thankyou for reminding me how much I'm eating. Thank you for telling me what a disappointment I am.
Thank you for giving me an excuse to hate you.

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You promised you wouldnt...what do you call that?? You said it was a "momet of weakness"...I duno what to think now..

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i really wished that you and i had something more
and id be willing to take that risk......
IF i knew that you'd be there with me.
IF i knew you really cared
you've told me before... but how much does that really mean?

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Homewrecker! Stay the fuck away from my husband! 'KayThanksBye!

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If anything will break us.... It will be distance, and it is already pushing me to the edge.

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I'M NOT PERFECT!! i make mistakes and so do u! maybe my mistake was big but I forgive you for all the little ones...why cant you forgive me for the one big one? i try so hard to be the friend ive always wanted....and i messed up...i still need u guys...more then ever....='(

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YES I\'M STILL IGNORING YOU, BITCH.
YES I\'M STILL IGNORING YOU, HOMOPHOBE.
YES I\'M STILL IGNORING YOU, OBNOXIOUS.
YES I MISS BEING FRIENDS WITH YOU.
NO I DON\'T FORGIVE YOU.
FUCK YOU.

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I don\'t care how petty I sound, but I don\'t want to be your friend anymore. All you do is lie, and ignore me, until you need something from me, and then I\'m your best friend again. You desrcibe our friendship as us being there for each other whenever we need each other, I describe it as you treating me as a doormat and I\'m totally sick of it. You\'re just like ******, in every way, the lying, the using, the total disregard for everyones feelings except your own, and what makes it worse is you\'re completely oblivious to the fact that you do any of this, and when I try and talk to you about this, you flip this on me and blame it on me. You cross the line with everyone, and I\'m so sick of you talking crap about my friends, the ones who are actually there for me, just because they want nothing to do with you because they see how you treat me and everyone in your life. It\'s your fault they aren\'t around anymore, you stopped speaking to them for over a year, and then acted shocked when you took your head our of your own little world for long enough to realise they no longer invited you to anything, or had any contact with you anymore. Oh, and about the crossing the line thing? With my mum, you went so far over the line, that it\'s like you dropped 10,000 bombs on it. Funny thing is, I don\'t think anyone has ever come close to being able to cross the line with her, so I guess that says something pretty bad about you.

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how could you do this? :/

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argghhhh it really really really gets to me.... you know what, i know you do.
you have suggested that its because of that and you were right.
i just cant admit it to you and make an excuse everytime because hearing it out loud makes me cry.
it really gets to me so much.
thats exactly why i cant concentrate right now, its exactly why im not working right now.
i cant do anything about it and you know it and your still nice to me.
and im just so embarrassed of the whole thing.
because you was never anything like this, youve had the whole opposite experience of what im going through.
you have no idea what its like and thats why i cant talk to you about it honestly.
i hint at it but i just want to scream it out loud but the thought of it makes me cry.
i really cant keep doing it anymore, i know you try to help me but its not enough because im getting nowhere :( i want you to tell me what to do but i cant even talk to you about it properly, im too ashamed of how stupid it sounds to someone who has so many amazing things to say.
and all i have to say is... everything was shit and i havent made up for it at all.

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Im not who you want me to be and im happy that way
Id rather be me forever than this shell you turned me into im sorry

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I wish you would get the hint. If I don\'t text you back, please don\'t text me to point that out to me. I KNOW. I\'M TRYING TO LET YOU GET THE MESSAGE.

I\'m just not into you anymore, and I don\'t know why I feel so guilty because we\'ve only been on three dates!!! Arghs. I don\'t want to seee youuu again...you just don\'t interest me very much, and I have a feeling you were just a rebound meet thing. You\'re nice, but I want someone who will actually entertain me.

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dear mine,
im really, really, really sorry.
i never meant to hurt you like that.
i love you to bits and pieces.
and i cant wait to see you <3

in general.
a little high isnt always bad.
i mean its not smoking.
soo idk.
i just dont want you to be mad.

dear me,
cooool you\'re cutting again.
fuck yourself.

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I won\'t leave you.
I will marry you.
I do love you.
Okay?

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I just really needed a hug yesterday.
And I just really need a hug today.
I really hope I have one tomorrow but I might not even see you.

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I don\'t want to let you see me naked in the light because I have scars, and I\'m worried about what you will think. It\'s easy to pass off one, but when there\'s a group of them it\'s a little more obvious what they are, and you\'re a smart guy. I\'m just not really ready to have to explain that to anyone new just yet. That\'s why I asked you to turn the light off, not because I\'m shy about my body.
Speaking of which, don\'t mess me around. You seem pretty decent, but I don\'t want to trust you too much. Please don\'t screw it up though.

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I tried so hard to be honest with you. I really did but when it came down to it I thought why be totally honest unless the worst case senario does happen... you don\'t need unneccessary strain and upset you have enough to focus on right now and I know you are really trying with me.
I\'m terrified that when I come out of hospital I won\'t have your support, I\'m going to need someone other than family to lean on.
I need someone for emotional support, I\'m enough of a wreck already. I just want to know you\'re not going to see the state I am in and run away and be scared by that. I\'ve been honest with you and you\'ve known for ages about my operation, I told you because I feel you need to know what you\'re getting yourself in for for the time being. There are going to be times when I\'m weak and all I can do is lay and speak to you, I might even end up falling asleep while you\'re with me but I hope you can forgive me for it and be there, even if it is just to cuddle and let me know it\'s all going to be okay.
I don\'t want you to go on Friday, I know the time before my operation is precisous and I want to spend it with my friends and you. You always seem to be somewhere else and for once I need to be selfish. I know I told you I wanted you to go and have fun but what you don\'t realise is a precious hour or two here and there is a little bit less than I need. I need you there for a whole day instead of worrying about your social life. I know all your parties are important to you, but if you are as caring as I think you are you\'ll drop a couple just to spend time with me and cheer me up. You know how I feel about you and you\'re amazing, I just think sometimes you try and spread yourself too thin and try and be in too many places. Have you ever thought about calming it down? You complain about not having time to relax, it\'s because you\'re rarely at home and when you are you barely have a chance to unwind. I just want you to be here because you care not because you feel you should be or you feel guilty for not being there.
I need you to depend upon... otherwise I may aswell be on my own. There is going to come a time when I am really down and feeling weak and my boyfriend is going to be the only person to cheer me up. Yeah sure you\'ll text me or phone me but it\'s not the same as you actually being with me. Your mind will be in other places when you\'re texting me, you\'ll be doing something whilst I\'m laying in bed.
I just need some support and need to know this is all going to be okay and you don\'t care about the outcome. I just need a little reasurance, most importantly reasurance from YOU.

You make out like we\'re best friends in the world but you barely know about what is going on with me right now. You know about everything coming up but you have no idea how I feel and I know you don\'t care.
Your mind is wapped... he is so in your head you can\'t see it. You was the last person I would ever expect to get like this over a guy. You are the kind of sad act who will purposely wait home for him to call, and it\'s all on his terms and at his convience. You have the front to tell me where I\'m going wrong in my relationships and you need to see the way you\'re going wrong, you\'re staying with someone who buys your affections and treats you unfairly... and somehow you always seem to blame yourself. You need to stick to your guns and be a little bit more pro-active. He is treading all over you.
You\'re not the same person, you\'re so... I don\'t even know how to explain. You used to be bubbly, out going and always game for a laugh but you\'re becoming like him. He\'s only going to continue worming his way into your head more until he\'s through with you and seeing as we\'re \'bestest friends\' I\'ll be expected to pick up the pieces again and I can\'t do that... sorry I can\'t. I can\'t pick up the pieces when you\'re not here to do the same when I\'m feeling sad, alone or down.
You need to get a reality check. I\'m exhausted to trying to make you see. Eventually when you do see, I won\'t be here.

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You say that you hate knowing that i\'m in so much pain and that it should never happen to me.
You caused it.

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Sadly
i
feel
as
if
i
could
love
you.
But
i
would
always
feel
as
if
you
wouldnt
care.
I Love You. <333

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Dad... if you had made a small effort we would probably still be speaking.
i still love you even after what you have put me through and even though you are still hurting me.

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If you make my boyfriend take this job, neither of us will be very happy at all. Its hard enough already doing long distance without putting another 50 miles on it. He didnt apply for it so please dont make him take it cos I physically dont know how both of us would cope with being further away. Its hard enough right now.:(

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