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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
December 17th 2010, 07:35 PM
You're so annoying. I know it's bitchy of me because you haven't had much sleep but now I'm going to be annoyed at you for the next five days, until I see you. I've just been feeling paranoid this week and I felt like seeing you would have made it better. I don't want to be bitchy, or clingy, but at the same time I'm terrified of being taken advantage of. I know you're tired and it makes logical sense for you to sleep. I just wish you had planned ahead or something or let me know. Or slept after your exams. I really wanted to see you. I'm not going to say that to you becaue I'm aware it's selfish and stupid, but I can't help being irritated by you. I wish you had fallen asleep instead of texting back so I had a reason to be annoyed at you. Plus why did you take like five hours to write back today?? And what the hell is this 'I had to turn down town as well'?? Uh..I thought we had plans, no?? Fuck off.
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago
.....
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
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December 17th 2010, 08:59 PM
Urgh, that's what I meant!! I'm obviously not going to town if I have a fucking exam on Monday am I?? I said a couple of hours and I meant a couple of hours, why did you think seeing me was going to take the whole night?? I thought I had said I wasn't going out tonight?? I can literally only spare a couple of hours, and I had planned it so that I could use that time to see YOU, because in case you haven't noticed, we've seen each other for less than half an hour in the past two weeks, and that was when we basically had sex for two minutes and then you had to go. I mean come on, how fucking irresponsible do I seem?? Why would I go out on the piss and come home at five if I'm stressing over a stupid Italian literature exam in two days??I'm obviously not meeting up with you now, you said you were tired, it's ten at night and I have to get up early to study. Don't fucking pity me. Fuck you. I actually don't think I've ever been this annoyed at you. You won't see me now til Wednesday, which will barely even count. And the way you've been annoying me over the past couple of weeks is probably going to make me all distant with you when I do see you, ebcause thats the way I am, because I've been taken for granted in a relationship before and it is never going to happen again so I back off completely as soon as I get the slightest bad feeling. Just fuck you, it's your own fucking fault. Whatever. See you in five days I suppose.
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago
.....
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
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December 17th 2010, 10:37 PM
Okay for starters, purposely going out of your way to hurt me like that. OUT OF ORDER. Now I'm sat here 24/7 reeling, and no matter what else I say to you, you won't take me back.
I told you, I'd do ANYTHING for you back, I just want you and the baby.
But it didn't make a difference. I feel like telling you to jog on and sod off to Afgan! But I can't, I love you.
Now you're speaking to me on facebook as if you still want to be friends, despite what you tell you're slag of a girlfriend. She's a whore, slut, bitch, cow.. and a lot more words I don't want to say on here.
I love you. I want you. I fucking need you. Take me back?
But this time SAY YES!
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December 17th 2010, 10:39 PM
OH AND ,
I do fucking listen to you STUPID!
I did nothing but listen. It's just hard for it to sink in with a 'so-called decent guy' when all I've had is dick after dick, being treat like a stupid little whore.
Okay?! Do one.
I wanted to move on, now you're throwing everything back at me and I can't be bothered with it. I'm too mentally fucked up at the minute to deal with you.
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December 19th 2010, 06:06 AM
I wish I could make you see the truth. Instead I am just going to respect you and walk away.
I am sorry that I have been isolating so much lately but I don't want to be around him. I can't stand seeing you and him together and being reminded of what a third wheel I am. I deserve more than that.
I wish you were less insensitive. I wish you were more of a mother. I know you try and I know that should be good enough but sometimes all I want is you to understand and say all the right words.
I hope you know how much I have come to love you and how much all of this pains me.
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December 19th 2010, 11:41 AM
No, I'm not okay. I'm only "happy" when I'm drunk. I could care less about school. I don't like where I live. I haven't had a real friend since I was 11. I want to hurt myself, but can't because I promised someone. I don't know where I'm going, what I want to do, or how I'm going to survive. I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me back. I didn't forget my lunch or my money, I just don't want to eat. I spend most nights either drunk or crying, but rarely ever sleeping. And someday I'm fairly certain I'll just lay down and never get up. Death by broken heart, it does happen ya know.
And I won't tell you this. I won't let you in. I won't let you be my friend because every friend I've ever had before has ended up screwing me over or just stopped caring. I don't believe in love. And I don't believe in friends. I'm sorry.
-Let the Music Play-
"There's no way to explain why life is filled with so much pain. But do the flowers ever grow in the places it don't rain?"
"But the unfortunate truth is that, while being different from everyone else can be exciting at first, ultimately it can get a little lonely."
"The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no further."
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December 19th 2010, 07:16 PM
i know you said that there is no reason to be sorry or to hate myself.
but... i just can't seem to forgive myself for it... :/
every time i think about it... i end up bringing myself to tears...
Last edited by facade; December 20th 2010 at 03:41 AM.
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December 19th 2010, 11:13 PM
I can't believe you. We're meant to be close friends and you just lied to me, something you said you'd never do. It hurt a lot more then the truth would have.
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December 21st 2010, 03:16 AM
I cant live like this. You are my sister. My little sister. And not living at home anymore is breaking my heart. Not talking to you in three days is making me a mess. Why? Please. I dont understand. You dont even care. I love you. Paige, I fucking love you. Dont do this to us. At least dont do this to me. I need you in my life. You are the ONLY reason I am alive today. Please. I love you.
I need you. to help me.
"It's all about where your mind's at" -Kelly Slater
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December 21st 2010, 02:15 PM
I love talking to you but how this is right now is just messing me up. I worry too much about you because I know you still care. You made a promise to your parents to stop talking to me just so that they could trust you again, even though you dont want to. But I think I will be able to sort my life a lot better without you speaking to me, even though I hate not speaking. If we do that then I hope you can remember how we were and try again when time passes.
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December 22nd 2010, 02:16 AM
I don't get it... at all.
You keep me on AIM, you haven't blocked me on anything, yet you've called me "cancer" in the past... and on top of all this confusion, you still have pictures of us from 2006... either you don't care enough to update, or you seriously need to figure your shit out.
I can't stand seeing your name, but I don't want to ruin the possibility of a friendship. Maybe when you can stop being such a pompous douche bag, we will actually talk one day... because weather you care or not, I do hope your life is going in the direction you want it to. I know mine is.
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December 22nd 2010, 05:22 AM
i went crazy looking for your letter, then i finally found it, in the one place it would make sense..in my favorite journal entry of you.
then i went to text you something along the lines of, "fuck you. you have been ruining my thoughts for the past nine months, and yes you would think it would stop, but it doesn't. and i bet, you never even think of me."
but, your phone was off.
something in the way you love me just won't let me be;
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December 25th 2010, 01:34 AM
I don't understand why you don't care enough to just leave his sorry ass. The screaming, the violence, the names, the drugs, the money issues. How is all of that not enough motivation for you to take us and leave? If you only knew the things he did to me.. Now will you leave him? NOW? And how the hell do you not notice..
You're lucky I love you. Otherwise you'd just be another receiver of my suppressed hatred.
We all need somebody to lean on <3
~I will survive, I will endure.
When the going's rough, you can be sure;
I'll tough it out, I won't give in. When I'm knocked down I'll get up again.
As long as my dream's alive, I Will Survive~
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December 26th 2010, 04:03 AM
You have no idea but long sleeved shirts were on my Christmas list for a reason...Why? Because then I won't have to hide my arms when I'm not wearing a sweater. Sadly...I'm not even talking about marks that are already there...it was more planning for future ones.
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December 27th 2010, 04:15 AM
You seriously don't know how much I care. How big of a heart I have and it includes you...and you, and you, and you. There's too many that are included, I can not list them all. But, YOU hold the biggest part of my heart...and it kills me that you don't know that.
I miss you <3
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December 28th 2010, 12:00 PM
Just get the fuck out of my life.
I'm still alive.
Must have been a miracle
It's been one hell of a ride
Destination still unkown
It's a fact of life: If you make one wrong move with a gun to your head
You better walk the line or you'll be left for dead.
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December 28th 2010, 09:44 PM
I want you so much but im afraid you don't like me. Brother says you do but you don't answer when I call, and you won't message me on facebook...for this i hate you...but why do i love you. You irratate me so much when you call me StrawberryShortcake, when you say im cute when im mad, or how you love it when i wear you shirt...Do you really like me Jessie or are you just a flirt thats toying with my heart like all the others before you...
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December 29th 2010, 12:10 AM
G - I can't stop dreaming about you. You left me, so please leave my thoughts too. I can't deal with needing you when there's no way i can have you.
T - I hate you. I hate you so fucking much. You are pure evil. Yet i still love you. This is what you've done to me.
D - You're too nice to me. I'm not used to nice. You're making me fall in love with you. Please stop. Please stop. You won't love me back.
P - I'm terrified I'm doing to you, what she did to me. I don't mean to. I just repeat her words without realising. Don't let me hurt you, you're too good to me.
L - Don't fall for me. Whatever you do, don't fall for me. We didn't work then, we won't work now. Friends is good enough for both of us.
E - We're both struggling aren't we? Neither of us will let on that we are though. I don't know how to reach out to you. I feel like I'm attention seeking when i release my problems to you.
DEAR GOD I CANT THINK STRAIGHT
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December 29th 2010, 12:54 AM
I know this sounds silly, but your opinions actually mean a lot to me. I'm not going to lie ~ you intimidate me, but I really value your comments and your input, so thankyou.
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago
.....
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
December 29th 2010, 09:36 AM
Why did your friends do that? :/ it made me think you were the one doing it and then I text you, I'm sorry if I sounded angry.. I didnt mean too
Please don't fall out with me.. You're one of my best friends...
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December 29th 2010, 05:51 PM
I loved you. I took such good care of you. I was the one person who was there when no one else was... why couldn't I have been the only girl in your life? Was I not pretty enough?
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December 30th 2010, 10:38 PM
Your such a tease its rediculus, I wish I could do that with you
But I wished it was back to when you hated me (even though that wasnt true) as it makes forgetting you so much easier. That being said.. I dont really want to even though its the right thing to do.