Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Celyn]

Help, I still don't quite get it?

If I had BPD, would it matter? What if it was like c-ptsd or something?

But what if I don't want it to end?

What does that mean? Are you ill?

Am I way over my head with this? Role play and group interviews?

[Celyn]

What's wrong with Me? What's my diagnosis?

[Celyn]

I don't know what I want anymore.

I'm scared.

And I don't want to go to court.

Part of me feels trapped and then another part just wants it to be and you.

I don't understand...what does it mean

But what if I want you?

[Celyn]

I feel sick.

[Celyn]

I feel sick. I don't want other people does that make me bad?

[Celyn]

I do but I'm scared...whose baby is it? I just wanted me and you and now feel bad for not wanting baby

[NeuroBeautiful]

I am so scared. What if i dont ever move out? What if i do but things still dont get better? Or it does get better till i self sabatoge?

Seriously, hiding the garlic grater and telling me it flew out the window? Get a life. Seriously, i wish you would find something woethwhile than to make your daughter's life miserable. You admitted to hiding it and then said you dont feel like getting up but you cant tell me where it is. So sick of your games.

If i die by suicide, know that i hate how you treat me and i dont forgive you because surprise you dont even apologize

[Celyn]

All of a sudd3n I'm really cold

[Celyn]

Pins and needles ouch

I don't want to sw8tch positions lol

[Tigereyes]

I know I'm not even worth the truth. I know I don't deserve to know if you're okay or not. I deserve this anxiety I feel as a result. I wish you could talk to me again, and I'm sorry I've ruined that.

[Storyteller.]

Yes, I did, but I haven't replied yet because I don't know what to say. I've tried to figure out why it's bothering me, thought of a hundred different ways to write back, and I'm still terrified to respond because what if it's the wrong thing? What if I use the wrong word or you read it the wrong way and we end up even worse off? I'm walking on eggshells and I absolutely hate it. Plus this last message is too casual, like you're acting as if nothing's changed. It has. Everything has. Why do you get to call the shots?

[Celyn]

[font="Palatino Linotype"]So in dunk and big off love and I want to know how you feel I want to say hi and happy birthday but I'm no performer which is why I like sleepy cuddles[/FONT

And what the offer? Breakfast; lunch; dinner, overnight, short term of long term?

[Lunar]

I wish you would act like a normal person. I'd love to have you in my life, but I just can't afford to put my daughter in danger.

[Celyn]

but I never know who to be adult o child and its had to choose...

I'm not gay

I domnt want grown up affection

[Lunar]

I wished you felt better. I love being with you and hanging out with you.

[Tigereyes]

I think you forget that anxiety is new to me, and so I haven't figured out how to deal with it yet. But I'm supposed to on my own. So once again, I feel drawn to alcohol

[Kate*]

You're welcome to throw a fit; it won't get you anywhere, but you're welcome to waste your energy.

I don't want her to come to brunch because I don't know what to say to her. I want to talk about what happened and I don't think I can do that with her there.

The truth is that I want you. I need you. But life is rarely as simple as that.

I wish you could understand why I have to be alone. For your sake and mine.

Just stay away from me. Leave me alone. Please.

[NeuroBeautiful]

It hurts that youre hurting but you are putting me as the one being responsible for your suicidal thoughts and it makes me feel like a murderer. Telling me you didnt sleep all night and "is this how you want me to feel?" gosh no, but it feels like a guilt trip

[Kate*]

I hope the 4 hour shifts are because you're paying me for my birthday and not bad sign.

[Lunar]

I love you, but you are the hardest person to get along with. It's so frustrating to have to deal with.

[Kate*]

She has a life and there was a call this morning, so let me guess... You know you can have a life too, and tell her NO without feeling guilty. On my birthday, I want you to myself no matter what she tries to pull!

[Lunar]

I really wish we never had to see you again.

You aren't a good person. I wish other people could see what I see. I know they won't and that's what makes everything uncomfortable.

[Gwynbleidd]

I won't say I love you, but I am so attracted to you. You're pretty, and fun. I wish we'd go do that thing we talked about earlier. Oh just leave for uni already so I can get over this infatuation please...

[Kate*]

You say you want me to be happy, and it would be perfectly fine if that's where it ended; but instead you're convinced I won't be happy unless my life looks exactly the way you think it should. That means that whenever I interact with you, it's non stop criticism and judgment because I''m never enough or right for you. So, I limit contact for my own peace of mind, especially as my life is literally falling apart around me, because you are the last thing I need, and instead of listening when I try to explain this, you get offended and continue to tear me apart. I can accept that I'm never going to please you and that that is your problem, not mine. I can stop worrying about what you think and stop desperately seeking approval I know will never come, but when you're in my space and I'm trapped in the car or out in public with you, it's much harder not to let you get to me. I also know that you do this to everybody, so it's definitely not me, but still. And I know you'll never get it, and because I don't want to completely remove you from my life, I'll be putting up with you for a very long time.

I'm better than you. Doesn't mean I'm perfect, but unlike you I was victimized through no fault of my own, and I SURVIVED. You play victim, refuse to help yourself and do nothing but complain then wonder why no one wants to be around you. When I was in the hell that was created for me by others and life circumstances outside of my control, I was jealous because everyone bent over backwards to deal with your BS while telling me to "get over" mine. Now I'm so over dealing with you, I don't even care anymore. I'm a survivor and you aren't, so I can't deal with you anymore.

[Lunar]

I'm done. I just can't do this anymore. I don't want you in my life. I want you far away from me and my family.

[Tigereyes]

Truth is, I don't want to be sober anymore.

[Starseeker]

I wish you could just tell me what the fuck you're doing all that for. Do you like me or what? Can't you just tell me? And if you hate me, you could just fucking tell me anyways instead of all those games

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

I swear to god next time you want to flip my hand away from comfort, you better watch it. I've been nothing but a friend and I tried to put up with your crap and lies, but you keep hitting me and yanking my hair and call it 'playing'. You wanna run away to our friend's house? You'll get caught. I'm done caring about what is up with you because you obviously don't give two sh!ts about me

[Kate*]

I like you because you seem to leave me alone, but the fact that you're management and having a bad day doesn't mean you can take it out on us. And unless you're trying for a promotion, you don't have to follow your superiors around like a lost puppy.

Please don't leave me?

[Kate*]

This is what happens when you give me 4 hour shifts, on a Saturday, and leave the cart where I don't see it. Somebody better be there tomorrow before me who can manage to get it back under control.

[Starseeker]

geez why don't you all just love me

It's true, I do like life without you here. No one's interrupting us; you're not vying for her time. No one but me gets her time and that's really nice. I like the focus attention and it gets taken away every time you say "knock knock" and ask to come in (and of course I don't feel like I can say no because I have no real reason to, other than not wanting you around). It's nice to not have to worry about that. It's nice not to have to worry about being so obvious we're having sex because we close the door; I don't have to be embarrassed that you know we're being intimate. But most of all it's nice to not have negative thoughts about you. Out of sight, out of mind. It's a relief not to find myself judging you for every little thing. It takes such a toll on me to feel so negative and for that reason I don't really want you to come back yet. Just give it a few more days.

But yes, I did miss you. I love you, after all, negative thoughts be damned. Your presence enriches my life, and I felt an absence without it. When I said "why wouldn't I miss you," it hurt for you to just say "idk, reasons." I wish you'd be honest with me and tell me what you're feeling, why you're holding back. I believe we can work this out. One of us just needs to make the first move to try and I don't want it to be me. I have too much anger over things that have happened to trust myself to stay calm when initiating that conversation. So it needs to be you.

I wish we could just be friendly metas, inside and out, but I guess that's not meant to be right now.

[Lunar]

I'm glad I no longer have to worry about it. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'm so ready to just get on with my life and not have to worry about you being there when you shouldn't.

[Tigereyes]

Can't you see that I need you now?

[Kate*]

Yes, ignore the fact that I've been there MONTHS longer than you, that I looked literally EVERYWHERE for them, that I know how to do my job and wouldn't leave it like that if we had more to fill it, and that it was also left empty by two of my co workers for at least 3 DAYS, and just fuss at me for the fact that it's empty and imply that I don't know how to do my job before finally telling me what you would like me to do with it.

Then I come in today and find that a different manager had my coworker REDO it! So, not only did you bitch at me and piss me off over something stupid, but you wasted my time. I officially dislike you.

[Mercredi.the.giant]

(no way i'm putting his name)
if you saw you the way i see you
you'd have the biggest ego of anyone
if you could laugh a real laugh just one more time
That day would be a day well spent
If you knew how much you meant to me
You wouldn't leave me anymore
I know it looks like you hung the moon
But all i need to believe is the hook and the ladder.