Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Storyteller.]

That wasn't your secret to tell. I know you didn't mean anything by it and I'm so appreciative of the intent behind it, but you've put me in a really weird position and now I feel super uncomfortable. This is all new to me and I'm not sure how to handle it.

"I can tell you've gained weight, but you look healthy now."
why didn't you lie and say you couldn't tell i've gained weight? this is all i'm going to think about now. i gained too much. i gained too damn much. i have to lose it again because i can't exist at X.

[Kate*]

When you give me a random weekend day off, you DON'T CHANGE YOUR MIND without talking to me first. I'm tempted to ask for it back or request a random one off out of spite!

I am so tired of being walked all over. Cool deal. Fuck you all.

This weekend is going to be bull crap.

[Storyteller.]

Gee, you're welcome. And hey, can I expect that apology anytime soon?

You offer me so much and I still don't know if it's enough.
Sometimes I think "What if..."

[Kate*]

When you're gone we'll finally get out lives back. We'd try now, but you'd just ruin it.

[Svisttt]

Ohhh my god, take the goddamn hint. I don't want anything to do with you. Screw off and stop emailing me.

[Lunar]

I wish that you were a nicer person, and that you understood what your actions do to others.

[Svisttt]

I wish you'd say you'd miss me. I don't want to be alone again.

[Lunar]

I love you. I know sometimes I don't show it very well, but I do. You're the best. <3

[Storyteller.]

Food for thought: your actions have consequences. How you interact with people has a direct effect on how those people feel, and in particular how they feel about you. It wouldn't hurt to be more careful with your words, if you can.

[Kate*]

I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt, but it appears you are not interested in recovery, personal responsibility, or victim blaming.

[Lunar]

I love you, but you do annoy the hell out of me.

[Svisttt]

please take a minute and listen to me

I'm not trying to lie to you about my health but I'm afraid to tell you the full truth. I mention things off-handedly so you're aware because you're so invested in my recovery that it wouldn't be fair to not mention these things to you. I want you to know, but I don't want you to feel responsible for my health - I am taking full responsibility for what does or doesn't happen to me. You know a lot more about the medical field than I do, which is why I asked you those initial questions. But now I'm getting into a doctor and I can ask the PA questions. I don't want to burden you, but I want to let you know how I am health-wise. Please don't interpret this as me wanting you to take care of me or be my doctor, I truly was asking for clarification on various issues I was facing because my internet searches weren't giving me consistent results and I wasn't connected to a professional. I'm sorry that this feels like manipulation, at least it does from my side. I'm sorry that I've dragged you into this. I'm so sorry.

You've put off grocery shopping for two days. Get your ass off the phone and do some actual work around here.

[Lunar]

I'm really sorry you feel the way you do, but at the end of the day you're making this harder than it has to be. You're immature. I'm not going to say sorry over my opinion.

[Tigereyes]

You're really not meeting my emotional needs right now. I know you're trying to look out for you. But who's looking out for me now? I've never felt so alone, and it kills me that I feel this way when you're physically by my side. You're there, but there's so much distance between us. I'm losing myself now. I've tried to hold on for you, but if I'm on my own to cope with this, I'm about out of options. Looks like harm reduction is the best I can manage. I'm sorry.

[Lunar]

You are immature. Don't get me wrong. I understand how you feel, but you don't have to treat people the way you do over something so minor.

[Kate*]

Good thing I stopped needing outside validation. Too bad I can't share that because you don't like it.

[Lunar]

I wish you weren't as immature as you are. You're annoying, and I wish I never had met you.

[Tigereyes]

Are you lying to me again? Keeping secrets again? I want to trust you, but you keep breaking that trust, and I know you don't mean to or want to, but it keeps happening and it's forever changed me and how I think and feel. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't admit the truth. I don't know what's even happened this past week that it's been so bad. I'm sorry. I want to help you. You say to help myself. But I don't want to help myself. I hate myself. Only reason I want to help myself is to help you. But now you're distant.. And I don't want to anymore.

You deserve better.

I think you kind of know this but:

I hate that I fell in love and led to bring vulnerable and led to the chance of heartbreak. I know everyone searches for that and there were times that I wanted it too...but I also tried to avoid it and I did so well until you.

I hate that I fell in love because I feel I'm going to end up hurt. There are no guarantees in life and I know losing you will break me... Even though I try and pretend I'd be fine.

I fucking hate that I allowed myself to fall in love when I was able to avoid it for ages.

Like, I wouldn't go back and re do things necessarily but I just hate this feeling sometimes. Knowing I have something beautiful and amazing and knowing I could very well lose it.

[Kate*]

I'll give it to you that on your extremely rare loudest day, your quieter than they ever were, but for the love of God SHUT UP!

[Lunar]

I love you, but it hurts my feelings when you ask me to do something, and then turn around and let someone else do it. I look forward to spending time with you, and it always feels like you shut me out.

[Storyteller.]

Don't ask me to go back there. I won't. I can't.

[Lunar]

I'm trying to over come this. It's best for the both of us. Trust me. Just move on already.

[Kate*]

[SIZE="2"8 hours on a Saturday is just evil, but while we're at it, you're going to teach me how to do the rest of my job before then, right? Because otherwise, I'm going to be really bored![/size]

[Mirabelle]

The amount of time I'm having to wait for a reply on another site, I could have walked the dog, visited a pizzeria, necked a couple of beers and returned home.

[Storyteller.]

So you're just... not going to reply? That seems a little strange.

[Lunar]

I wish things were better between us. I miss you.

[Mirabelle]

When someone scales our 8ft walls, crosses our lawn and taps on the window don't expect me to be kindhearted towards your chief of security. Not noticing unauthorized people access my home and you're all fired.

[Storyteller.]

Just so we're clear, when I say family, I absolutely do not mean you.

I didn't eat all of my food tonight at dinner. When you all left the table and told me to keep eating. I got rid of it and act like I ate it.

[Mirabelle]

You ought to be hung up with the washing and left to dry.

[Lunar]

I'm beyond happy that you are at least trying to reach out and help me, to understand what's going on in my world. I love you beyond measure and this just makes things so much easier.

[Mirabelle]

Sometimes I'm so tired that chatting takes effort I can't cope with.

I’m not okay and I’m lying straight to your face. I’m relapsing. I need to be skinny again.