Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[TheAtomicBlade]

I hate you. Just leave me alone, or I will break every single fucking bone in your body.
You are an evil bitch and just leave me alone!

[Kate*]

It's called being GRATEFUL when someone is kind enough to work around your supposed needs and bring you in food, even if you don't like it, you eat without complaining. I'm really starting to think this is an excuse more than a legitimate problem for you. I give up. Enabling you and trying to make you happy when it's impossible isn't worth my energy. As greatful as we are for everything you've done and given us, that doesn't equal an obligation to care for you while you act like a 2-year old.

If I ever reach out to you with this (which I probably won't), please don't assume it's a cry for help, sympathy, or attention. You're the last person I would want to do that to, so if it ever happens it's just evidence of how far gone I am. You remind me so much of him that I want to spare you his fate, but that's a conversation we can never have. This will haunt me for the rest of my life and most of the time I'd do anything to have what I wanted and worked so hard for.

I go between wanting to tell you everything and nothing. I think you care, but probably not as much as I thought. I've regretted contacting people, I've never regretted not doing it.

[Calaer]

I hate that you've done this, and that you've gone this far, but you've burnt this bridge, that's for sure. I don't want you here, I don't need you here, and I really don't want my child knowing you.

[Kate*]

I wish one of you would answer me, but you deserve a break; I know I'm a lot of work

I'm an adult, you can't force me to have a relationship with her and I do more for her than they do, it's NOT worth it and we always end up there longer than you say we will. I deal with her often enough.

You'll get to me eventually, right? I'm sorry, I have to relearn to trust. Even if you don't, I get it.

[Calaer]

I hate how you all treat her. I do. You yell, scream, act like you are above her. She brought you in to this world, and how do you repay her for your life? You treat her like garbage. Maybe you do this because this is how you feel about yourself, and instead of being angry at yourself for making the choices you make, you all direct it at her. She doesn't deserve this. You don't deserve her.

[Kate*]

I want to tell you everything and have you make it okay, but I know neither of those things can happen, EVER. Not everyone gets a happy ending; maybe I'm not meant to make it.

I'm pretty sure your offer of help was a courtesy, since the people who handled it in your place did a horrible job of it to the point of traumatizing me. I still want the closure I was told you would give me, but it can't happen.

[Zelyx]

I'm so sorry for everything. Yes I know it sounds cliche but i wish i could go back in time and never did the things i did. I genuinely like you, but i know you dont like me back. It's gonna take a long time to get over you. trust me.

[Storyteller.]

I want to apologise but I honestly can't find the words.

[Calaer]

I hate how you treat people, but then again I realize I can't change that. I just hope that you realize what you're doing before it's too late.

[Clarent]

Things some people bitch about are unfuckingbelieveable.

Or maybe it's just me, grown too cynical and bitter to accept everybody's different?

Eh, fuck this society.

[Chuuya]

I just want to sit down and talk to you about everything that's been going on.

But I know you're busy. I know you want nothing to do with me really. That's okay. I want nothing to do with me too.

[Calaer]

I forgive you.

[michelle86]

I love you so much it hurts.

[brighterdiscontent]

I'm sorry that I hurt you...and I'm sorry that I'm going to do it again.

[Rivière]

You really are a useless, patronising, demeaning 'work coach'. I have absolutely no idea how you managed to get your job but I sincerely hope you get fired. You do nothing for the community nor the unemployed. Your lack of a job would benefit us all.

[Pelumi]

I hate you our relationship is a mistake wish i could break up wit u

[Calaer]

I'm so thankful you are in my life. I know that it's hard for you to believe, but I assure you, that I have no idea how I would have gotten through this journey without you.

[blxrry]

to my best friend -
I'm in love with you, but I know you don't feel the same.

[Kate*]

Thank you for coming back to fix the plumbing for the third time in two months. Please tell me we'll be able to use the toilet while you're here for who knows how long.

[Calaer]

I am so proud of you. Truly. I watched you grow from a young child, to an amazing young women. You have strength in amazing places, and your faith in God is just one of them. You are so awe inspiring and seeing you when your beautiful baby girl for the first time is a blessing in itself. You are going to be a beautiful and amazing mother. I'm truly so proud to be able to call you my sister. I love you so much, and I'm so thankful for you. You and your husband and of course little Zoey are such an adorable family, and I know God has great things in store for you. Never let go of your faith. Much love~

[Storyteller.]

That (over)reaction was way out of proportion, and I think you really need to evaluate how you respond to perceived "threats". Because your response was not only incredibly demeaning and disrespectful, but showed a fundamental lack of empathy and understanding - not to mention it was deliberately inflammatory and accusatory. Maybe before you blow up like that again you could consider the fact that the way you interpret something is not necessarily the way it was intended, and possibly give the other person the benefit of the doubt instead of just assuming that everybody's out to get you. These are your issues, not mine, and you need to stop trying to get me to take responsibility for your insecurities.

[Kate*]

I can't take any more pain.

Was it really supposed to happen this way, and what do I do with the left over consequences?

If either of us had a "choice", it was you. The fact that my involuntary neurologically-based shut down caused you to run out of the room for his help in a panic proves that.

She had more control over herself than I had over myself and I still treated her better than she treated me, yet I'm the one who doesn't belong. You can never explain that in a way that makes sense. And the fact that all the rules were different for me is just as bad, if not worse because you put blame on me that I didn't deserve for everything that happened to and was said by everyone else including you.

I'm done taking blame for what others have done to me.

I know no one can fix this, but I really wish you could.

We could both be doing things we're not to make our lives better. The difference is that I only vent to those willing to listen and I don't use my illness to manipulate people into giving me what I want. You're an adult; start acting like one.

[Calaer]

Sometimes, I need a little more help from you.

[Nightblood.]

My room is not a fucking bed and breakfast. I don't want people sleeping in my bed when I'm not home. And it doesn't fucking matter if you ask permission because if I say no you'll do it anyway although apparently you're skipping the asking part now.

[Calaer]

I just don't want you in my life anymore.

[Nightblood.]

Please keep your "alternative medicine" and "all natural remedies" to yourself. More than likely, someone with a chronic illness has already tried natural remedies. Probably already tried everything you could possibly suggest. So kindly shut your fucking mouth. Medicine isn't evil and telling someone that x natural thing or lifestyle change will cure them is literally the same as saying it's their fault they're sick.

[SelfHarming]

Dear Cora,
Did you know how much of a fucking Bitch you are? You ruined my fucking life more than it fucking was! Just because you're my fucking cousin doesn't mean that we have to be fucking best friends anymore you know what Bitch were not even fucking friends anymore! You should really blame yourself for this one and not me this time. Just because you're fucking depressed doesn't mean that you have to make me fucking depressed too. I dare you to pull the trigger like you always wanted to. I dare you to tie the rope to you and the and jump. I dare you to. You said that's what you wanted to do for so long so just do it. You are the reason I cut. You are the reason I cry myself to sleep at night. YOU ARE A FUCKING HATE YOU BITCH!!! I can never forgive you for what you did to me. Goodbye.

[Kate*]

I know I'm over thinking, but I can't tell if you responded in record time because you actually care like you said, to appease me so I'll leave you alone because I'm just an annoying hassle who doesn't need anything from you(at least not that you can give me), or if you just have less to do so you managed to respond sooner. Since I'm considering this again, I'd like to know, but it's not like I can ask. You responded and it wasn't generic. That should be enough. I wish this hadn't destroyed what was left of my trust.

How much of this was really my fault, how much of it was me, but not my fault, and how much of it was you being a bunch of hypocrites? I guess I'll never know. Why is it that I can do everything right and end up being the only one who gets screwed? It's not like I deserve it, even I know better than that.

I understand your denial, but if that's what this is, your denial helps no one.

[Kate*]

Disability changes things. My life didn't fall apart because I expected it to; it fell apart because of my disability and I learned to expect it to because that's what kept happening. There's a big difference there. What if I try it your way and it still doesn't work? Are you going to say I self-imposed that too?

Did I blow the amazing opportunity you gave me, or was it never the plan? And if it wasn't the plan, then why did it happen the way it did? Why not me too?

I know I can't rely on you to make me okay. At the same time, if you suggested I try that again, I'd probably do it, but my trust is shot and I'm afraid it will backfire and make it even worse. I need someone to tell me it's okay. I know it shouldn't be you, but I wish it was.

Why do I want to tell you that? So you won't bother to, or at least understand, when you suggest it? Because I want what I know you can't give me, or just because I don't want to let go of you with the rest of it. Maybe I'm that far out of options, or I think you'll understand, I don't know. And, yes, I realize I'm over thinking and making it weird. Can you really help, and if you could, would you? UGH

[Calaer]

I love you, and I'm always going to be here to support you. I'm sorry about they way they treat you. I know it isn't fair. <3

[Kate*]

The more I think about mentioning it to you in an update like last time, the better I feel about it. I'm hoping for at least a little insight as a professional who knows me and my situation well, but who isn't my professional. The only thing I'm expecting is a response of some kind and only because you've always given me one. I'm not making it your job to fix this, but anything I get from you will be appreciated.

I'm torn between wanting the life I had planned and was supposed to have, and wishing none of this had ever happened. I want to go back to life before the debt, before the damage, and at times, before the diagnosis. I want those years of my life back or I want them to be worth it with something to show for it other than pain that haunts me when this was supposed to be a dream come true. I want to give everyone their money back or go back to before they spent it, wasted it on something we didn't know I couldn't have. But I can't. The perfect storm shattered my dreams and I may not be able to build any new ones.

I knew that if it happened, this was how it was going to be; and I always knew how it would end too.

Now that I have the version of it that you'll never see, it matters less to me that I send it. I'm doing it to maintain the connection, so you'll get something from me relatively soon, but I realize how awkward this is. Or maybe I'm just making it that way.

[Calaer]

I love you, and I care about you, and I'm so sorry you're being mistreated. I wish there was more I could do for you, and I hope you know that if there was, I would. I'd do anything.

I thought we were trying to move on from the drama of our past. We were becoming freinds again...finally i felt happy. but then u wont stop mentioning the mistakes ive made and remind me how sorry i am from the selfish way i was. cant u move on too? cant u stop telling me the things i did wrong?
i know u never meant to hurt me. i know it was supposed to be a joke but that just made my heart sink every time i remember the things i im sorry for.
please stop telling me about my flaws. i dont need to be reminded.

[Calaer]

Why do you think you have a right to judge me biased on my religion? If I were to comment on your lack there of, you know you would freak out. You don't even know anything about my religion! Just leave me be and let me do my thing. I'm not hurting you or anyone else.

[Kintsukuroi.]

That's cool. Thanks.

[Calaer]

I love you, and I know you mean well, but I wish you were more in-tune with your family. We want to spend more time with you, and you always want to spend more time alone. It makes us really sad. :\

[Aisyle Gnouy]

I hate you mom. You made my life a living hell, and you hurt me so bad I STILL haven't recovered. I don't want anything to do with you, so stay the HELL out of my life.

[Coffee.]

Meet me in Montauk

[Ambedo.]

Your memory has been haunting me far too much lately.

[Kate*]

Part of me needs to know the real breakdown of responsibility, but I probably never will and I guess it doesn't matter since it's over regardless. But, if it's not for the reasons you told me, what did you ruin my life for? And, no amount of feeling bad on your part makes any of this okay. My life is still destroyed.

Yes, I realize unhealthy attachment that I have to get rid of. It's for positive reasons, but I still don't like it. I know exactly why. I'm guessing you can tell, but hopefully not the full extent of it and, the lack of closure didn't help. At least I recognize it, know why, and I'm careful with the boundaries.

Not everyone can "deal with it", I am irreparably broken, and you are gone from me. You have no idea what I've been through and no right to find out.