Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Calaer]

This means a lot to me, and you know that, but you refuse to do this for me. It's not like I'm asking you to move mountains, or that I'm asking you to change who you are, or go out of your way, I'm asking you for something small and tiny, and you aren't doing this for me, and I honestly can't tell you how broken my heart feels right now.

[Rivière]

Why do I even frigging bother. I try and be cheerful and be myself but when I do, whenever I joke around you either tell me I 'should be on stage' that I'd 'make a good actress' or you think I'm being sarcastic. Do you really think so low of me that I'd be constantly sarcastic like that? That really hurts. Maybe I'll stop bothering to be myself and walk around as some miserable thing parading around the house, then you'll not bother telling me how much you 'think I'd be good behind a camera' despite actually faking how I'm feeling, then have you ask me if I'm 'ok' all the time because I'm not being what you think I should be. I can't win.

[Clarent]

There's not a human being that I despise more than you. You just being around makes me anxious. And you're supposed to be a part of my family? What a joke.

[Calaer]

I have no idea why I let you ruin my day. Just the thought of you makes me upset, and I have no idea why I let you have that kind of power over me, but today it ends. I'm breaking this chain of aggravation and I'm putting you behind me. You no longer have that effect on me.

[Celyn]

Did you ever care about me, or was it all just in my head? I love you so much but feel like a silly little girl for not getting over you. Wish you would get back to me.

[Calaer]

You are the one who wanted to see her, and since I'm giving you that chance, you'd think you would put more effort in to it.

I am not okay. I am very, very far from okay.

I wish you hadn't done that. I wish you habe been an adult.

[Rivière]

I see your point, I really do, now you see mine.

[Bewiggedroom43]

You're a dick.

[Calaer]

I love you, and while I have absolute faith in God to help you through this, there is always a chance that his will isn't what we want it to be. In that instance, I worry, because you're my best friend, my little sister, my soul mate, and I have no idea how I'm going to get through life without you.

You're just as important to me as Ava, and I don't say that lightly. I don't want to do this without you. I can't.

[Kate*]

I don't want to share my story anymore (and it needs to be told) because of people like you. Comparisons on the spectrum are useless and your rants about someone other than your own child are pointless. So, YOU don't think this person has the disability because he can function where your child can't, SO WHAT?! You are not the disability police! Your son is watching by the way. I hope he doesn't develop the same attitude that only he has a right to be disabled because he's so much worse off than other people and that it's okay to tell them that and act entitled to pity. If the first words of your comment are, "please don't be offended by me saying this" you probably shouldn't say it. I've already had my life destroyed by something that doesn't exist. I don't need to keep hearing it, so my story won't be told.

That's what I get, I guess.

[Calaer]

This is me, trying. For the first time, I'm trying, and I want you to know that this is difficult for me, so don't take it lightly.

[Moxie.]

I'm so tired of missing you.

[Calaer]

Today is a good day, but like always, you find a way to creep in and ruin it. I have no idea why you are doing this to him. He loves you, and he does everything he can for you. I guess you are finally showing your true colors. I hope it gets you were you want to go, because I know for a fact it isn't helping you get this friendship back.

[Clarent]

I think I'm crushing on you. I really hope your recent bad mood wasn't caused by me...

[Kate*]

I'm not a child, I'm not your job anymore, there's nothing you can do, and I know you're the absolutely WRONG person for it (which is why I'm not going to act on this), but I am REALLY far out of ideas and I can't do what I know would and should be your only suggestion.

[Calaer]

I'm no longer going to allow you to stand in my way. This is my life, and I'm going to live it the way I want. I'm not going to let you or anyone else stand in my way from living the life I've always wanted.

[Rivière]

They don't live next to us anymore, you're still stalking them on the internet, you wonder why they called you crazy and then you get a bit peeved they found they called you crazy. Well that's what happens when you stalk people on the internet.

[Calaer]

When I think of you, it isn't the same as it used to be. It's not that heart breaking, drowning in a puddle, gasping for air feeling anymore. It's a soft dull ache, it's bitter sweet. I still love you, but I don't think I'm in love with you anymore. And I'm okay with that.

[Elision]

Fucking reply. Or at least read it. Tell me you don't want to talk. I don't care. Just give me closure. Fuck you

[Kate*]

-- Believe me, I HATE this more than you do, if you were whispering in the kitchen (I could hear you, but could't tell what you were saying) about what a horrible person I am, you may as well respect me enough to tell me to my face. It's not like I haven't been through enough or that I'm not doing worse to myself. If you were whispering about her so she wouldn't hear you, then never mind.

-- Is nothing sacred? As nice as it is to know you're on my side here, you didn't have to go tell her everything I said (which I assumed sparked the conversation that I assumed was about me) I probably won't tell you much anymore since I know you're just going to go behind my back to her and bash me in whispered tones. NOBODY has a CLUE what I'm dealing with and they aren't exactly receptive to having it explained. Either offer real help, or BACK OFF!

I've been thinking about reaching out to you again for a complete lack of someone better. I originally told myself that I would limit contact to twice a year at the most (so August or February would be the next time), but things are haunting me that probably shouldn't be and I don't know what else to do; or I do know what I should do and know it's not really an option. You said to let you know if I needed anything, but you always say that, so I don't think you mean it and my trust is so shot I can't even trust you with this. I think I want you to save me, but I know you can't.

"Demanding, disrespectful, and unprofessional" I could turn at least 2 of those back on you, but mine is the life that got ruined while you got to go on like it never happened. Not everyone agreed with you so that means something also and the only thing I ever "demanded" was to be treated like a human being with feelings, not get unnecessarily screwed over, and not to get blamed by people I expected the complete opposite from.

[Storyteller.]

It's interesting how often insecurity and identity intersect.

[Calaer]

I'm giving you this chance, so take it. Don't shove it on a back burner, and just forget about it. This is the last chance you're going to get to try and redeem yourself, I don't have the time to keep coming back when you think you're ready to try again, when there are people who are actively doing their best to be here and to make differences.

[Kate*]

I realize I probably scared you off, but you asked, and I'm in no position to turn that down. I've learned to trust that you'll probably eventually answer me and if you don't it's probably not because you're offended.

THIS is EXACTLY what I was talking about; and not because I'm jealous, but I'd be SHOCKED. Especially after what happened to me.

I'm not okay right now and considering that it wasn't just me and it was all a bunch of corruption that's still happening, I wonder if I could've done it had I gone somewhere else. I do find comfort in the fact that you left/were gone 3 months later. I can't help but think the two are related. Maybe I'm just overestimating my influence on these people. At least I know at the core that it wasn't my fault. Now I'm dealing with the fact that I was taken advantage of, and it wasn't just my money we invested. I wish I could give my grandma and my mom their money back, but given the perpetual minimum wage jobs I'm stuck with and my own debt from it, I can never afford to.

Please restore my life.

I'm sorry it's happening because I know what it's like, but maybe this will teach you that you can't always "choose to be happy" and why it's so offensive to be told that.

[Calaer]

I'm trusting you here, so please don't make me regret this decision.

I know we can't be together but I really wish you were here.

[Clarent]

Good God, am I restless today.

But is it much different from any other day?

[Kate*]

This is inevitable, get that through your head and GO ALREADY! Stop lying, stop whining, stop threatening to "shut down", HELP YOURSELF, and ACCEPT THIS. I know no one really wants it, but, it's bad enough that you shouldn't have a choice. I can't F***ING TAKE it anymore. I feel as bad if not worse than you do, but I don't go around whining about it and expecting to be taken care of. I vent non stop to a select few, sure, but they're willing and able to support me; and, I'm extremely APPRECIATIVE of what others do for me, rather than complaining that it's never enough and making excuses about why I can't do things for myself when I can. GROW UP, GET HELP, HELP YOURSELF, and GET ON WITH IT!!!!

Okay, lack of empathy; but not really though because there's a difference between not understanding, and not being frustrated. Empathy doesn't mean my emotions and reactions aren't valid, plus there's a reason you don't treat family and I'm guessing this is it.

You're supposed to have the bad jobs first so you have a way out of them; I have no way out. Plus I've felt completely off and one day/hour ahead all week for no reason.

At least you get to go on like it never happened and pretend I never existed. I get to completely rebuild my life from nothing, with less than nothing.

I've lost so much of my gum on this one tooth, I'm seriously afraid I'll eventually lose it.

I miss you.

[Kate*]

Why do I still care about you? It's not like it goes both ways. Maybe I just want this to haunt you like it does me. Or maybe I just can't let go.

[Clarent]

The way you suddenly seemingly softened towards each other repulses me to my very core. It seethes with insincerity. I'm beginning to despise you.

[Wesley]

Just say anything you could say to their face mean or nice just express yourself

I miss you so much, I thought we were friends, one minute we were so close and we just stopped talking to eachother, what have I done? Is it me? We are like strangers, you clearly have more important things on your mind and i obviously not one of them even if i am dying on the inside. Its weird you cant recognise this.

[Calaer]

It was fun. I mean, being hateful to each other for no reason, and fighting over something so stupid was great, but now it's time to more forward. I don't hate you, even if you decide to believe otherwise. I don't hate you, and I'm just over this. I'm tired of fighting. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to keep playing this game anymore.

[Coffee.]

Lol you're such a coward, it's hilarious. Bye.

[Kate*]

Please tell me you just moved those, that they're sitting in the other room because as much as I know they don't belong where they were, some of that was important, even if I can never use it again, you had no right to throw it away without me knowing. If I end up having to apply for that, I could use that form as evidence unless it no longer exists.

TOUGH LOVE is the answer here, but you'll never do it and getting everybody on the same page is just impossible. I think you know what to do, you just won't do it. If she "shuts down" and throws tantrums at least she'll be doing it in a safe environment where she'll be taken care of while she's acting like a 2-year old. There's a difference between having depression and threatening to "shut down" if she doesn't get her way. I have it too, but I don't threaten crap to your face every 5 minutes to emotionally manipulate you into giving me what I want. I keep it to myself around you so you don't have to deal with it. I've found other people to vent to. You would never let me get away with that, but you let her drive you up the wall with it. I don't get it.

I really want your advice here, but I don't want to depend on you to keep me afloat, especially since you can't do anything; plus you don't advise, which you know drives me nuts. I need to be careful with this.

[Calaer]

I feel so angry right now. All you guys do is cause drama and turmoil. Why can't you just take a breath and calm down? Not everything has to be a fight or argument. I can't handle all the negative crap that comes from being around you all. Please just go away, and leave me to be happy and peaceful!~

[Kate*]

I will never be okay again. I need you to get that, but I guess it doesn't really matter since I can't go back. I want help from you that I know you can't give me and I want to tell you something that I know I never can. I hope this isn't as weird as it feels to me. I over think everything. Here I am again wondering if I blew it or if it was never meant to be. She said I had the perfect storm and I agree, but sometimes that doesn't really help.

Maybe you really are going to work it out.

I want to live where my brain won't even let me visit.

I regret nothing, but I wish it hadn't all been wasted and the fact that I would do almost everything exactly the same, doesn't mean it doesn't haunt me like hell; and now it's going to hurt. I want my old life back so bad it kills me sometimes.

[Calaer]

I just don't understand you anymore. I don't know why I keep trying to impress you. You clearly don't have any respect for me. Just go away. I don't want to have to deal with this drama and crap anymore.

[~anongirl~]

it hurts when you hit me. It hurts when you laugh at me when I am crying or in pain. It hurts when you call me fat, ugly, worthless.....................

I used to love you.
I thought you loved me, too.

I don't know what I ever did to you, mom.