Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Calaer]

I hate being lied to. You know the rules, so why do you always choose to break them, and then ask for forgiveness? I'm not going to let you run all over me like that anymore. I'm taking a stand.

[Gwynbleidd]

Your work is absolute shit and i'm tired of it. You make us do all this bullshit yet you still berate us and then you don't even make it worth shit. and because other people didn't do it we all have to do homework? Man fuck the team! I don't know these people much less would work with them. I do it for myself. Because of your annoyance I say fuck the IB I've tasted this much and seen what comes next from my work tortured brother I want to vomit it back up. Need a metaphorical breath mint. Its not like the colleges give a shit about IB vs AP. Going to the naval academy or state then to the navy anyway.

[Calaer]

I really miss you.

[Kate*]

I'm trying not to take offense to that, believe me, if I had the choice not to be on it, I wouldn't be. And you basically repeated everything I said, so not much help, but this was your definition of trying and this is why I question whether to bother. And, do you not know that all professionals are trained in that and most, if not all will use it?!! I'm not offended, but this was a waste since it appears I know more than you.

I am NOT normal and it RUINED my life. STOP dismissing my significant challenges because YOU don't think it qualifies as a disability!!!!

[Calaer]

It's hard not to resent you when you have everything I want and you love to hold it above my head.

[Everglow.]

It's ok you go out and do things you'd never do if you hadn't been drinking. I'll shut up and not say a word about it. Enjoy.

[Kate*]

Since those comments end up in Google searches, I stopped posting them, however yours was so IGNORANT and ARROGANT and a ton of people agreed with you that I HAD to respond. Given the number of people who have backed me up, I don't regret it. Part of me hopes you learn your lesson, the rest of me knows better.

You had more control over your treatment of me than I had over my reaction to you, but somehow you're the professionals trained to treat the exact issues you inflicted on me, my life fell apart because of it, and none of it is your fault or your problem. HOW DOES THAT EVEN HAPPEN?! Oh, wait, it's me. It doesn't have to be normal and there doesn't have to be a reason; because on top of being royally SCREWED and apparently, deserving of borderline verbal/emotional abuse by 95% of my authority figures, I'm also lucky enough to defy reality. AWESOME!

I will never regret or apologize for the fact that something you couldn't identify, explain, or tell me how to fix, was nowhere near a good enough reason to walk away from my dream. Unfortunately, that also gives you license to say I did this to myself, even if the underlying reason wasn't my fault.

Back to square one we go. I'm out of ideas, I want everything I can never have, and nobody knows what to do with that, but expects me to figure it out for myself.

I think that was directed at her, not me, but if it was at me, I'd LOVE to see you do better with this than I'm doing and then talk smack.

If she can do this and I can't, I'm going to be PISSED. I'd be much better able to handle it and it doesn't get worse than that.

[Celyn]

I love you.

[Calaer]

I just want you to know that I love you, but I'm going insane here.

[Nightblood.]

I'm afraid he's going to tell me I have it. I'm more afraid that he'll tell me I don't.

[Moxie.]

They don't know you like I do.

[Calaer]

I love you, all of you, but I just cannot handle any of the drama, and the fighting anymore. I cannot handle going out of my way to help you. Not to sound selfish, but I'm losing time with my family. Time that could be spend playing with my daughter, and spending time with my husband, for nothing at all. You don't even say thank you.

I cannot handle the constant text messages where you call me names and then say you hate me, just for you to turn around a day later and ask me for help. If you hate me so much, then why not stay away? I just cannot handle any of you anymore.

If you aren't going to be supportive of me saying no for once, or for me taking care of myself and my family for once, then clearly you don't deserve to be in my life in the first place, so please, just go away.

[EMOKId420]

I still love you Brittney

[Kate*]

[size="2"]I stood up to you, not the most respectful post and I really don't have to defend myself to you (or anyone), but I wasn't letting that one go because it's the exact opposite of help. I'll probably get hell for it, but I'm not sorry I did it. I still don't understand why everyone can vent there except me. You'll offer help to anyone else, but I get told to "help yourself" when you have no idea what I'm doing if it's not posted on Facebook. I will not engage you, I'm not even going to read what you said. You've ruined enough of my last 2 days, I'm not giving you any more.

I just had an epiphany slap me in the face. If that's how I was coming across, I'm glad you spared them what these people are putting me through because of the same thing. Now I get it from your side easier, but I don't think you'll ever be off the hook for that or the mess it left me in because you knew better and could've ended it sooner than you did and saved me at least some of it. And I know from dealing with them that I'm not as impaired as they are, but I definitely am. I don't think this changes anything though. If I'm capable of a 3.7 at the master's level, I don't want to waste that, but there's very little I can do with this, it's incompatible with success, it seems./SIZE]

[Kate*]

As hard as I'm trying to forgive, as often as I say I would never wish this on my worst enemy, and as wrong as I know it is to say this: I seriously hope my situation HAUNTS some of you. It ruined my life for a LONG time, and you get to go on like nothing happened. If you cared as much as you said you did, this hurt you at least a little and I'm glad you felt something.

That is absolutely INSANE! Isn't overseeing, preventing and dealing with that kind of crap part of your job?! This program is more messed up than I thought, but at least she has her degree, even if she doesn't use it.

[Lotus Eater]

I'm sorry. I sincerely hope you're happy. You certainly deserve to be.

[jamdoughnut]

JUST FUCKING TALK TO ME!

[Kate*]

I don't know if I can ever go back there for anything or trust any other program. I do know that I can't trust most of you.

I don't know if I will ever believe that it would've been impossible, but I do know that what you put me through was not okay.

[Skyline]

I'm starting to think that maybe you were a bit of a jerk... Although I wouldn't call you one. We were both on different pages, and we can both find someone who will suit our needs better.

[Calaer]

Sometimes I miss you so much that I'll be on my knees crying until my lungs burn and my throat is so raw that sound doesn't escape from my mouth.

Sometimes, I don't miss you at all.

[Kate*]

There were two things that I absolutely could not stand:

Having it explained to me like I was a 5-year old (the only thing you did that ever pissed me off)

Being told I "lack" and need to "learn" it, when it was clear to everyone I had more than the person who said that (and the fact that she got a PhD. and I got a dismissal)

It's becoming clearer to me that you lied when you said you cared. I'm obviously not the only one who doesn't belong there, regardless of the reason you got rid of me. I'm not convinced it's impossible, but I don't know how much of it was the disorder (me, but not my fault), you screwing me over (YOU making it my fault), and me standing up to you for treating me like less than human (me only your fault and I'd do it again.) Either way it ruined my life for the foreseeable future, and possibly forever. This is the kind of stuff people don't recover from and you get to go on with your life like nothing happened while claiming you "felt terrible" like that makes it all okay and changes anything.

And you, I would LOVE to know what you're doing up there.

I get that you're a professional in this and I can never be one, but I also live first-hand with this and you never will. STOP pushing IEPs so hard! "Special" accommodations and treatment aren't the solution to everything that this causes. Plus, she said right there HE DOESN'T WANT IT. Even I know you deal with that instead of pushing it on someone who doesn't want it.

Sometimes I realize the gift that adult diagnosis really was. I can function without anything "special", know when and how to pick battles, the difference between need and want, and never developed the sense of entitlement or expectation of help and support because life and most people probably won't bend over backwards for you and you should never expect them to even if others have before.

[Calaer]

I'm here, I've always been here, just give me a chance.

[Skyline]

I really enjoy talking to you Although we've been speaking for such a short time, I can definitely feel some sort of chemistry. I hope you do too, and I hope that you're taking me seriously and that you would be willing to properly meet up one day. Basically, I like you so much because you seem like the kind of person I could be silly with.

[Kate*]

It's becoming more and more clear that you're becoming like them; and I never thought you would.

I'f that person is "whining" which you spelled wrong by the way, then you're a condescending b***ch.

[Calaer]

I wish you would treat me with more respect.

[MyVisionIsDying]

When I said I was going to shoot you a message to see how you're doing it was a half lie, because the thought would rise and tick constantly for me to actually do it but then I'd forget again.

Sorry I didn't tell you that I still talk to one of our friends. Sorry that I didn't tell you that we get each other, that we relate to each other more and I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I consider her my best friend more now because I didn't want to upset you or anything. But in a way I'm glad.

In fact, I'm glad I didn't tell you that I'm still a fucked up person because you'd probably go off on one about how I need to get help still- I have a therapist, I'm trying to get better but I didn't want to tell you that I think I'm getting worse.

And I'm happy for you about your big life decision, it's going to be a great experience, I believe you on that one. But a big part of me is screaming inside, trying to get out and warn you that it's not going to be good if the worst happens- which considering this day and age, might not be far off. I don't know if you know what our government is like and if you get into the sort of stuff then I don't want to lose you or have you lose a part of yourself and have to go through a lot of shit because of it. I don't want you to be rendered to someone you're not, I don't want you to be incapable of hardly living through the day without problems seeping in. Don't become someone like me, please be careful when you make that actual leap.

[Kate*]

The more I learn, the more relieved I am that I'm out of that; however, I will NOT carry any more guilt just because you think I should. I feel bad enough. It was clear from the beginning that my favorite phrase "unless it's me" and other versions of it never applied more. You'll never have consequences, but you know what you did was wrong and I hope it haunts you.

[MyVisionIsDying]

Honestly, I've missed our Twitter conversations, they were a riot. I'm glad we're back at it again with them.

Sometimes I miss you but ultimately I am glad we broke up. If we hadn't I never would have had some of the opportunities I've had in the last couple of years. I probably never would have met her, either, and she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Honestly my life is better now that you aren't in it, and I could never admit that until now. So, thank you. I wish you well.

[Storyteller.]

Let me clarify something that seems to have gone over your head. We are not friends. I do not trust you. I needed someone and you were the only one available, and I appreciate that, but it doesn't change what you did or how I feel about it. Unless you grow up and unconditionally acknowledge what you did, I don't think this is going to work.

[Moxie.]

I don't know where your head is right now, but I'll wait. I'll wait as long as you need me to while you figure all of this out.

It's totally a comparison.

[Kate*]

I survived day one, but if the decision were made today, I wouldn't be kept, and at this point I'd be okay with that. It would save me from being irresponsible and quitting.

- I'm prettier than you are but who cares. None of that matters. Prettier or not you're still with him and I'm not. I wonder what he's told you about me. Did he rewrite history? Did he tell you I was a mistake, that four years with me meant nothing? Is he happier with you than he was with me? I swear I'm not bitter; I moved on. I'm with the girl of my dreams now and I'm happy. Yet I still wonder about him, about us. About what would have happened if I'd stayed, if I hadn't tried to change him. Would he have still met you, come to love you? Or would that never have happened? Better question: would I have met her? Because if I wouldn't have met her otherwise then all this pain was worth it. She treats me better than he ever did. So you can have him. I hope you two are very happy together. You look happy together.

- I saw a picture of you and her together today. You look happy. I'm glad. I wish you hadn't lied to me, though. You said we'd stay friends and we didn't. I'll get the occasional "like" on Facebook but other than that there's no communication between us. I don't understand. You wanted to marry me. You wanted to be with me the rest of your life. And now that means nothing? Now we're essentially strangers? I talk to people I went to college with for a few months more than I talk to you and we were together for four years. I just wish you hadn't gotten my hopes up, that's all. Sometimes I wonder if you still love me because I know deep down a part of me still loves you, too.

[Storyteller.]

Just once, I wish you would think about how alienating this is.

[Moxie.]

You have every piece of me. You always will.

[Kate*]

I never thought I'd be this grateful for part-time minimum wage, but I will never apologize for wanting more for myself than that; especially considering what I was forced to give up. You know how much I'm willing to fight for what I want against the odds of never having it. It feels like a total waste that ruined my life. I need someone to tell me it wasn't.

It would be perfect if you weren't there. You're driving people to quit, I guarantee it

I know I read the schedule right because I checked it 3 times, but another 8 hour shift with you will be bad enough, but 4 of them... Yeah. I doubt I'll stay hired. If he keeps me I have to take it, but if you're going to be there for the entirety of every shift, I'll either turn it down or quit. Minimum wage isn't worth being yelled at 8 hours straight for doing nothing other than walking in the door.

[Evanesco]

no, you don't feel the same way. you dont experience the same things as me. stop minimalising my disorder. stop invalidating my feelings

[ThePyroDood]

I love you both so much, but it hurts more than I'll ever show to see you together. Every little bit you bring me closer twists the knife a little bit deeper.

I know you say I made the right choice but I'm not sure I did. I'm suffering for it now and it hurts something awful. In the end I'm not sure it was worth it.

I'm lying to you.