Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Calaer]

I'm excited you've responded. I'm in hopes that you will make the travel to come here. I know that you don't work today, and I know you know exactly where those scriptures are.

I'm excited to see you. I'm in hopes it's a civil exchange.

I don't know why you ignore me now when you said you'd always be there for me. I miss talking to you. I don't have to talk about my problems if they bug you. I just want my friend back.

[Toxic Mermaid]

I'm sick of being your Plan B.

[Kate*]

If this is the way you get through the world, I feel sorry for you. At least I have neurology as my excuse and I still manage to be nice to people; you're just an a**

Statements like that are the reason stigma exists. I hope you're proud of yourself.

There are two things I don't understand about this: Since everyone is trained the same way, you know what ito feels like to be treated like that, and as professionals in that field, you know what that can do to a person. So, when did it change for you because you were like me once. And, WHY is the whole profession like that when every single one of you knows better?! "That's the way it is; if you don't like it, you can quit. WHY is it that way? I want to know!

[Calaer]

I love you, but sometimes I wish you weren't around.

[Storyteller.]

I would be disappointed if I'd thought for a single second that you meant what you said.

[Skyline]

I dont know if I'm in love with you -- whatever that even means -- but I do know that every day, I need you just a little more, I do know that my best imagined future is one with you in it, and I also know that it scares me shitless to think that you might not feel the same way about me.

[Kate*]

Sometimes I still want to go back because I want what I wish it had been like, not what it really was, but the fact that a disability makes it (and pretty much everything I ever planned) impossible makes it SO much harder to deal with. For the first time in 15 months I'm starting to feel like I can breathe again, but that never lasts. I want to maintain some of the connections, but I don't know how to do that. As much as I want to believe that everything is going to eventually be okay, nothing has ever really worked out so I can't trust anyone or anything. I want my life back with you in it in some way, but that won't happen.

I HATE this and you get to go on with life having NO IDEA what you've left me with. Some of it I understand, a lot of it I don't. The decision I get, the way I was treated and the fact that the entire profession is that way when every single one of you knows better, I will never understand. I was told you'd be willing to help me out, but I'll probably never ask because I've been lied to and jerked around so much that I don't know what to believe anymore. I admitted that I seriously screwed up, she never had to admit the same. She did me WAY wrong to get rid of me and got away with it.

I want everything I can never have and no one knows what to tell me. You only think I can make it because you don't know the whole story (and severely resist my efforts to explain what you're missing.) No one with this has ever survived it and been happy with what they've been left with.

You hurt me because you lied and you'll continue lying. You'll never be truthful about what happened. It's funny, really. I don't think you're a very good person. If you were you wouldn't have done what you did. But, then again I'm not a good person either. I guess we're pretty much even on that level.

[Calaer]

I love you, but you need to grow up and get over yourself. Realize that not everything is about you, and that things happen. Get over it. Lots of things are going to happen in this life time. You've got to learn to deal with it.

[Storyteller.]

I'm genuinely excited, and you just... you don't even care. You can't even pretend to care. If there's something on your mind please just say it; I shouldn't have to second-guess myself because of your reticence.

[Calaer]

I love you, but I just can't handle it anymore. I just need a break from all of this 'crap' that keeps getting thrown at me out of no where. I'm sure on any other day you'd understand and you would be able to relate, but I guess I just had high hopes for this situation.

You say move on. You're the one with someone who is cruel. It's funny how I can be hurt by someone but it's not okay for me to have emotions about it.

[hocus pocus]

I've asked you a million times not to bombard me with things when I first get up. I'm not a morning person. You don't listen. Also waking up feeling like there is no escape from this hell didn't make it any better.

[Calaer]

I hate how you act like you're more 'grown up' than me. You have no idea what's going on, you don't understand half the issue. You JUST turned 18 and you are planning to have a child, and live in a storage building. Tell me how that's the mature adult thing to do.

Just know that my life doesn't revolve around you, and you've got to start growing up now. I'm an adult, and I'm more than capable of making my own decisions. Thanks.

[Kate*]

You never have to talk yourself into a good idea. I'm not 100% convinced, so I probably won't do it and I'd likely just end up jealous of the people who actually get to apply it, even if I know I tried and I couldn't do it, or something is changing and I wouldn't want to. I just wish I could've had the career of my dreams like anyone else. I regret nothing. They needed to be confronted about the way they act and treat people. The hypocrisy and irony is sickening.

The next emotion on this misery train is shame. You can tell me that I didn't do anything wrong all you want, but even I don't know if I believe that and, like everything else, none of you could agree on that. By the way, the flashbacks and desire to return are back. I don't know if I can ever go back there without having a serious problem of a reaction. You did that to me, good job!

If you have such an amazing plan, why has losing the "wrong" thing felt and been so awful?! The plan was to give me a dream you knew I could never have and then allow my life to end up ruined while I chased it?!?! I get that it's not always easy, but after everything I've been through up to and including this, I can't understand why it's happening; other than that I deserve it all, and even the people who screwed me up and over the worst didn't believe that. Except for a chosen few and they're why I believe in your ability to serve up some serious Karma.

Dude, I've been in this group just over 24 hours and I'm already ready to block you for being annoying/posting too much. I've already made up my mind that I didn't want to be "that person"

[Calaer]

I know you've been his friend for awhile, but I wish you didn't have to come over so often. We don't need you here. I don't want you here.

[Everglow.]

Honestly this family is a joke. Deleting us from facebook? Really? Like I'm losing something when you havent spoken to any of us in over a year anyway. Going on about how family doesnt have to be blood. What exactly have we done? You can have the other lot. The non blood family. Enjoy them. They're back stabbing liars who are welcome to you if you really think they're better people than those who have helped you and your mother through a lot of crap. Let's hope you never need anything because you sure as hell wont be getting it from your 'fake' family.

Cousins are your best friends my ass.

I'm better then that.

[Nightblood.]

I am Amelia and I need a Charlotte.

[Storyteller.]

You're making this wayy harder than it needs to be.

[Calaer]

I love you, I just wish I wasn't put in the kind of situations where I would have to shove you out of my life. I don't understand why you can't grow up and act your age. I'm not your mom. You're supposed to be my Mom. Start acting like it.

[Everglow.]

One by one you all disappear.
I have wonderful friends, and the rest of my family (the ones who haven't dropped off the face of the earth or stopped talking to me like many other people have) are incredible. I love them and I know that they love me. I'm actually happy. Genuinely. I smile every day, and if I don't I have people I know I can turn to. I feel wanted most of the time and needed a lot of the time. I have a job which isn't too bad. I have people I can laugh with at work, and I have money coming in that keeps me out of trouble. I'm at university - making something of my self.
I am becoming a person I'm proud of being. I love my course and I work god damn hard to make my way. I have aspirations and optimism and things I look forward to. Goals. Dreams. Ambitions. I'm a god damn lovely person. I have worked really bloody hard to get to where I am right now, with or without people like you.
You're not the first people to walk out of my life and I can tell you right now you won't be the last. Family are nothing if they don't care for each other. People have done nothing but care for you in the times you've needed them. If this is what WE get, then I'm better off without you anyway.
I'm learning to love who I am. I don't need you to love me for that to be a good thing.
I'm doing things you will never do. Things you wouldnt even try to achieve. I am a better person by miles.

[Calaer]

I really wish you were more supportive.

Hey, we used to hate one another and this is wicked crazy.
We kind of get along now, so be my friend maybe?

[Calaer]

I wish that I felt more comfortable around you, but I simply don't. I wish I could become closer to you in a way that I felt comfortable with you being around, but I don't. I'm sorry.

I hate people that lie.

[Storyteller.]

Because god forbid you step out of your comfort zone.

[Toxic Mermaid]

Yeah, it probably would be shitty. But it's not like it'd be the first shitty thing you did. I'm SO glad you can see when you're being shitty to him but not to me.

[Eternal]

Being with you terrifies me and excites me in equal measure.

Lying hurts. I don't know. I want you to realize that but I don't think you ever will.

[Calaer]

I love you, and I wish you weren't so stubborn. I would love for you to be here with me right now, where I know you're safe and warm, but rather I have no idea where you are or what you're doing.

[Toxic Mermaid]

I just met her and I already trust her more than you.

[Kate*]

I need to know that everything is going to work out and be okay, and as much as I want you to be a part of that realization, it can't happen, and I'm not sure you could provide it anymore. If only you were available and meant that. I want the help you offered me, even if it wasn't that much.

[Calaer]

I love you, and I wish you were here with us, warm, and safe from the weather outside, and from the environment around you that is toxic. I'm sorry I've let you down.

[hocus pocus]

Your death is eating away at me again and I don't know why. I have to try not to think about it.

[Calaer]

I really hope you're staying safe. Even if you do 'hate' me. I love you, and I always will. You're my little sister, and my best friend.

[whimsalot]

i know both of us can be insensitive and bad at friendships and scared of commitment. i know we're not really as close as we were. but after this school year, i'm never gonna see you again. and no matter what, i love you. you're my best friend. and i know it's hard a lot of the time. trust me, i know. but it's gonna get better. so please continue to exist.

[Calaer]

I love you, and I know you have the potential to do the most amazing things in your life time. I also know that you have lost your way, and that saddens me, when the 'straight and narrow' path is still obtainable if you'd just reach across the isle before it's too late.

You need to hold on and have faith, because I'm not going to give up on you, and I know that he isn't either.

[Kate*]

You know, she offered and I turned her down. In case I came back to you one day for a favor, I didn't want to make it weird for either of us. Now that I'm thinking about contacting you again, just to keep the connection up, I'm wondering... if it's still going on, she'd probably still be willing. And, YES you earned it.

I can't imagine that you would ever tell me to leave you alone or that you've forgotten me since it's only/already been a year. This is taking more for me to do than you realize, please at least eventually respond, and do so kindly. I've been through hell; but I think you have too.