Say something you wish you could say to their face.

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I don't know if you truly understand how serious this is for me. I truly am not very stable.

[Kate*]

Well, I get my first one tomorrow, so I REALLY hope you don't rip me apart again. Consulting them was your idea, so contacting them for it is your responsibility if you still choose to do so.

[bitesize]

I don't have words for how disappointed I am in you.



Actually I do and I'm putting them in my blog. Here isn't enough.

[ElsatheDepressionSlayer]

I am so freaking excited for you to come back, because you're the best thing in my life right now. But it's still early in the relationship, and I don't want to be overbearing and scare you off. I'm just horrible at communicating only through text and I know it'll be so much better when we can see each other in person. I'm just having irrational fears that it won't be and I just won't know how to do a relationship. Aaaaahhhhh, just overthinking it.

[rosepetal]

I fucking hate you, (I think). I doubt you're aware how much you've caused me, how bad you've made me feel whilst it doesn't seem to affect you at all and you can just keep going and even laugh whilst I'm finally alone/away from you trying not to cry and feeling so many intense things and trying not to hurt myself and trying not to burst. It just doesn't feel fair. And then I don't even know, disliking you and hating you is hard and confusing too and I don't know if I'm too harsh although its understandable or if you deserve it (no?) or if its right. And then I feel like a bad person. Why can't you just be a 'normal' good kind loving etc dad.

[Kate*]

I accidentally hit the wrong button, it's not that big a deal. I did the best I could and for the first time, I'm NOT beating myself up. I've done everything else they've told me to do over 2 YEARS, but of course you have to focus on the one time that I didn't. I saw it coming so I'm not as mad as I probably should be, but I have my reasons and you obviously don't care what they are.

It didn't go as well as I hoped and I'm afraid I'm not going to pass now. I already know the major mistakes I made, please don't yell at me or threaten me over them

Thank God I see you tomorrow, I need to get this off my chest before I go home.

[bitesize]

I don't get why you'd say 'I hope you haven't forgotten about me' when you're the one who didn't write back.... oh well.

Will you call me back??

[Kate*]

I guess growth is supposed to hurt at least a little, but this was the first time that that almost happened with you and I have no idea why. If I hadn't seen you today I would've made a mistake, what you're saying makes more sense now.

[bitesize]

Oh my God that felt so good, so good. Unbelievably good to talk to you. Even if it just made me miss you more. I miss you so much. I hope you're doing okay today and keeping busy and that you're not feeling too down... God, I want to be with you so badly it hurts, but you know that. The hope in your 'Really!?' when I said I was hoping to come back to Chicago was so lovely. You know that he would be so proud of you right now, there's absolutely no doubt about that. You're brilliant and so ridiculously talented and everyone loves you, you need to know that. I'm sending all my love your way today (even when it's tomorrow for me and it's still today for you.)

[Twinge]

Just be careful this time.
Please.

I understand that my being injured like this is an inconvenience, but you don't have to make it so apparently obvious that it's a hassle. It makes me feel like shit. It's not something that can really be helped at this point, so please stop acting like it's a pain every time it comes up. Let's just get it fixed, okay?

[rosepetal]

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. This isn't how it should be at all and I'm fucking up your birthday. I'm sorry. It's not fair and you deserve so much more than this. You're much greater and important to me than I can articulate. It keeps upsetting me that i havent made your birthday wonderful, because you so deserve it. I wrote you a letter but it sounded stupid. I'm sorry I'm like this especially when it's your birthday
I think i feel off today because I felt like a burden last night and (I cried silently for ages and I just wanted so strongly to hurt myself. I felt so bad and it was my fault. But I couldn't say that)
I wish I could say what I want to say, but often the words just won't get out of my mouth.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Thanks. I'm well aware that it's 2:45 in the morning. I can't sleep. You didn't need to come in and spaz at me. My music wasn't even playing out loud. I have my headphones in. There is no way that you can hear it over your movie..gosh you're a bitch sometimes

[bitesize]

I miss lying so close to you that I could feel you smile.

[Kate*]

--I shouldn't have to tell either of you that that REALLY isn't funny.

-- I'm afraid of supervision now. I know you don't expect me to be perfect, but I'm already under a microscope and I know I made some MAJOR mistakes. Please pay attention to the good stuff too.

- Everything is much easier when you're here. I am glad you are getting to visit out there for a few weeks, but I can't help but want you here with me. I hope that's not selfish.

- I know you were trying to be helpful, but it really didn't come off that way.

- So were you lying to me, or have things just slipped away from you? That was a promise I was counting on. It was the only thing that made it bearable for me.

[Kate*]

-- I ended up doing what you wanted, if you still want to go off on me for it, that's your choice

-- Please tell me if I'm going to fail while I still have enough time to save myself. I doubt you can determine that based on 3 clients and a no-show, but I bet you're going to try.

-- I know I'm not your first priority and that half the time you forget about me, but of all the times for you to go on sabbatical. I know I'm going to need you and you're not going to be here and you won't be here for that either and i NEEDED you to be. I know I'm becoming dependent on you, but you're just so amazing with everything. Plus I get myself into the kind of messes that only you can get me out of.

[Twinge]

...did you just stare at me? I was curious to know.

[bitesize]

- You are such a love. Seriously. You've always been such a lovely kind person and a wonderful workmate and I'm so glad we've stayed in touch. <3

- Awh love, I hope you find something soon, I hate the thought of you getting desperate. Keep the chin up. I'm sending thoughts your way. <3

[Doodle.]

You're an idiot. Sort your life out.

[Most Likely]

Way to end a night, duh...

[Kate*]

I think I did better, but I'll have to see. Tomorrow is going to SUCK and then it should get easier.

You do know I'm coming tomorrow, right? You said you would contact me and then I never heard again.

[Pirouette]

Sometimes I wish I had never met you..otherwise I wouldn't have fell for you. I wish I could tell you how I feel but I won't, hopefully you'll find out someday. But since you are moving on, I will also move on but once I leave, I am never coming back...end of story.

[rosepetal]

I don't know how to express/explain this.. There's no way you guys would get it. Can you just fuck off?? The thing is I know you're asking out of concern for me, with good intention.. But it's just so .. Annoying and frustrating. And like, you just said all these things and built up a case of what you don't like about her, and she's my closest friend. You really don't seem to get that it's of course much more complicated than you make it out to be. Also like we've already discussed this (!) I thought we could have established by now that WE SAW THAT DIFFERENTLY and it did not get to me/upset me/hurt me/or anything (!!!!!!!!!) also don't you see how great she is ?!? Don't you see how much she's given me, and means to me, and does for me and helps me !?? Do you really think I'm going to discuss (let alone happily) this with you, who doesn't even like or get along with her??!!! I shouldn't have said anything ..

Back off.

[Twinge]

I guess I'll stop hurting myself when I know things are for certain. Then I will stop for the moment because I don't want you to see the way things really are inside me. As long as the surface is okay in your presence, yeah, I won't care.

[bitesize]

Why will you not just give me the ticket? You've said you don't know who the band are, have never heard any of their songs, aren't planning to listen to them before tomorrow, I'm offering you FORTY euro which is more than I can afford and a ten euro PROFIT for you and you're still set on going. I love this band and have fought tooth and nail to try and go, may get in trouble with work for coming in late, and have told you I'm desperate....and you still won't budge. WHY?????????

[Kate*]

-- I know I made the WORST first impression possible, I'm not normally that scattered, I promise

-- There's a notes section in there for a reason, if you used it, I could've fixed everything yesterday when I had the whole day there instead of waiting until Tuesday and having to write it all down.

[Evanesco]

I hate you but i'm terrified of you

[Azure.]

I wish you would have stayed.

[Kate*]

-- I know you told me that telling her how to interact with me was a bad idea, but I asked her to point out the good things I do for a reason. As I suspected, she has yet to do so even ONCE. You don't blame me for asking now, do you?

-- When I asked you to point out the things I did right, I DID NOT mean never to tell me what I did wrong. I want one thing that I did right. You're the one who said there's good in every session. I asked you to point it out to me because I don't ever get any. And as I suspected, the pattern is repeating. I have had 5 sessions and you have yet to point out even ONE thing I did RIGHT.

[Most Likely]

Should I keep believing?

[Twinge]

My answer is no, now leave me alone...

[bitesize]

God I feel so blue and I miss you so much. How are you? Why won't you talk to me? Do you still miss me too? I want to see you again so much.

[rosepetal]

I saw thingy's arm .. and the marks/scars on it ... I'd always kinda wondered since I'd seen small other marks but.. arh. How was she so confident. Anyway I don't know if I should say anything about it to you .. Maybe you already know, and it feels not the greatest to talk about that sort of thing about someone else. It really got to me gah I just wanted to give her a hug. I couldn't stop thinking of it

[Twinge]

What if you disappeared...

- I'm sorry. I feel like I'm ruining everything and you're seeing only the absolute worst sides of me. I hope I don't scare you away, because I really like you and see a lot of potential

- I wish things could have been different. How cruel is it that love cannot be enough. You held me in your arms as I was dying. That's fucking love. You were my whole world back then; I couldn't imagine living without you. Just three years later I could no longer imagine a future with you. No, love isn't enough. But God knows these days I wish it could've been.

- I feel like I am completely and utterly failing you. Please tell me I am wrong. Please tell me you still love me, as imperfect as I am. Please tell me you aren't going to give up on me.

- Help me. I don't want to drag you back into this, but I can't do it alone.

[bitesize]

- Much as I am selfishly sad for me because I don't want to work there if you're not there, I'm so so so happy for you that you've handed in your notice. It made me so happy to see you yesterday when you were noticeably more smiley and outgoing and I could tell a huge weight had been lifted off your shoulders. You're so much better than that place. On to better things

[bitesize]

- The only person I want to hear from right now is you, but I know I won't hear from you for a while.

- Why do you keep being so suggestive and talking about your free house?? Um, I'm not going to have sex with you...?? I wasn't even planning on kissing you. These were supposed to just be catch-up drinks?? But you're putting me more and more off them...

- Ugh I knew you were going to ask me out and I'm just not.., ugh.

[bitesize]

- We had good sex but remember the time we went back to your house after that Saturday night and I was so not attracted to you, didn't want to even kiss you, didn't want to have sex you. I felt weird and didn't want to be around you.