Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Jess~]

Please. Freaking. Stop.
I hate it when you touch me. And the stupid excuses you have for it. When you held my hands for a "magic trick", but didn't do the same to anyone else. When you crept up behind me and grabbed my shoulders, and whispered in my ear. You were way too close. When you made fun of me, then hugged me and told me you were kidding. You let your hand fall to my hips, asshole. I've already been sexually abused/harassed. Every time you touch me, I remember everything, and I hate you. But I don't hate you. I hate you because I see him in you.
Please get away from me.
Don't ever touch me again.
Please.

[Azure.]

Can you just let me be alone? I don't deserve people like you in my life.

I'm sorry. I can't. I don't have the energy and everything hurts. I really am sorry. I should be more thankful and more respectful. Sometimes it's hard being perfect.

[mindflower]

Sometimes I wonder if I'm worth a damn fight at all.
I want to cut myself right now. No, no, things aren't bad at all, its just this itch and craving under my skin to feel desperate and beautiful and deep.
I want to tell you but I can't.
And sometimes I wish I was dying, maybe even by my own choice, and in the hospital, just so I could find out whether or not you'd come visit me.
I want to tell you but I can't.
And sometimes I want to tear my hair out and take up smoking hardcore, just to feel him again, because that is how bad he hurt me.
I want to tell you but I can't.
And sometimes I don't want to eat or sleep or breathe ever again because this world is too heavy on a little squirt like me.
I want to tell you but I can't.
And sometimes I wonder why you ever saved me to begin with.
I want to ask you.... but I can't.

[bitesize]

- Is it just me or does that all feel a bit surreal.....??
Also I can't believe you asked me if I used to cut myself. Bollocks. I hope I got out of that one okay. Also I felt grand earlier but I'm starting to worry that you didn't like this morning.

- Hello, little torn-up Bitesize of October 2013. I'm just here to tell you that it's six months in the future, you've been single for nearly seven weeks.... and you just had sex with Aaron. So yes, it is going to happen eventually. The chemistry was not in your head. And it will be grand, not amazing but fine. So calm your little head.

- Ah, I forgot how sexy you are and what gorgeous eyes you have. Last night was a little weird, but it was fine. Not really sure what's going on with you but at least you apologised. And at least there was no messiness in the web area of things.

- You're very vocal about the fact that you seem to find me attractive, which is flattering but makes me a bit unsure of how to respond. Hmm. Still you're great craic to go out with and I like talking to you a lot.

[Kate*]

I know I have a tenancy to be paranoid, but this seems REALLY suspicious and I would love for you to fix it now please. I've gone to him before and I'm not afraid to do it again.

[bitesize]

- We had sex yesterday. Still trying to get my head around that.

- Bitesize. You have eleven hours. Start that assignment.

[Kate*]

"That question was not useful" I think my "client" would disagree. Next time I won't admit why I'm asking the question and see if you say the same thing.
and from my calculations, I deserved the extra half point you took off. We both know I'm going to pass with the points, you can only mess me up so much. I'm fine not taking clients yet, but stop being such a jerk about this.

[LeRabatJoieFabuleux]

I hate you. I want to kill you and I want to do it methodically, slowly so you will feel the same pain. You're a selfish bastard and I will never forgive you. I hope you rot in hell with the rest of them.
That is all.

[Azure.]

Don't make me.

[Jovial.]

I really hope that you start making the changes in your life that need to happen to benefit you. You deserve all the best. I love you!

[Azure.]

Why can't you just look me in the eyes and listen? You act like you care about what I have to say, but you really don't. It's all about him just like it always has been and always will be.

[Jovial.]

If I can't have you, will I ever find someone like you?
I'm loud, and out there, and a little insane. Can people handle that?

[Kindred]

Can you just teach me a different unit I just feel so uneasy doing this one

[Ghost On The Highway]

You're going to regret talking shit about me behind my back

[Storyteller.]

I don't like the person you're turning into.

[blurryface]

-you are actually really annoying and i'm wondering when you're going to realize nobody fucking cares

-everyone wants to feel important. especially on their birthday. so yeah uh, you not calling like you always do made me feel like complete fucking shit. i cried for four hours last night cause of you. and all i got was a facebook message? i don't fucking think so. some fucking best friend you were.

[Kate*]

--Because it's you I can forgive this, but I don't trust easily, I was in a fragile state, I reached out like everybody keeps telling me to, after it got so bad I lost it in public which I swore I would never let happen again and you kind of blew me off. I completely understand why, but when I was in that state it hurt. Thanks for seeing me, it means more than it probably should. At least you read the story, answered me, didn't blame me, and you're the first one in a year and a half not to threaten me.

-- I deserve to pass, I know that was bad, but every professional has one bad session. I delayed myself because I know I'm not ready, but you'd better pass me.

[bitesize]

- Cute. I like when you snapchat me but how do I know it's just meant for me and it's not going to everybody?? Are you snapcheating??

- It made me so happy to see you guys last night, I'm so in love with everyone I used to work with. I miss you all so much. <3

[bitesize]

...Let's have sex again. Please.

[Kate*]

-- You have no idea how much respect I have for you and how much trust I'm placing in you. I don't trust easily, but you've always respected me and been understanding and you've never steered me wrong. I had turst issues before I got here, but after everything I've been put through I've learned not to trust anyone but you. You said you have more faith in them than I do and that you think they will go for that if it comes down to it, but I need you to realize that you are not allowed to be wrong because if you are i will be let down in the worst way and I will stop trusting, period.

-- You give me every reason to beat myself up and then get on me for beating myself up like you don't understand where it's coming from. You're the professionals here, you can't tell me that this doesn't make sense to you

-- My experience with you and your class is not exactly what I wanted, but I'm glad i got it at all. I know it's my fault because I trusted you with too much and you needed to distance yourself from it. I need you to see me at least one more time. It sounds stupid, but I need closure every time I get a person who doesn't treat me like crap. I know I probably won't get it with you, but I need you to see me one more time.

[bitesize]

I have kind of a thing for you, which is weird, because you're really tall and you smoke and you seem kind of grumpy and you are just NOT the kind of person I usually go for. Weird.

[Rivière]

I get that maybe this girl is a complete prat but saying comments behind her back and practically bullying her the way you are does you no justice. Just because she's done or said stupid things doesn't mean you have to follow up on them by calling her names or commenting on how she looks. People are different, people say things, people have egos, are vain, people are people. Accept her for her and move on. Geez.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

This is the most stupidest idea you have ever had.

I wish you would come have dinner with me Monday. I know you won't, but it would mean the world to me.

[Astrophile.]

You had no right to friend request me on Facebook. None at all. Thanks for starting up the nightmares and shit again. Really appreciate it.

[Kate*]

This is why I keep track for myself. I'm having someone else double check my math and give you a chance to fix it before i throw a fit, but don't think this means that I am excusing this or taking it lying down.

This is COMPLETE CRAP and we both know it. Prepare for an earful because I am throwing a fit.

[bitesize]

I feel a bit weird after yesterday. I've realised I'm not massively attracted to you anymore, which is a bit annoying (but less stressful in a way.) But the sex was fun. I just found you a bit confusing...the way you were acting really into me and telling me how you couldn't believe I was with someone like you, etc... and then kind of wanting me to go. (I haven't quite figured that out yet....maybe you just need your own space in the mornings??That makes the most sense...) And we haven't texted since then, which is okay as it's not like I've been waiting by my phone but it seems a little odd doesn't it?? Ah well. I'm just not sure how I feel about the whole situation.

[bitesize]

-It was ridiculously good to see you on Saturday night. I love you. When we were talking it didn't feel like we'd broken up, didn't feel like we hadn't seen each other in six weeks, we just naturally fell into the way we usually chat, but our chat was a little smaller than usual. It wasn't a negative experience at all, it just made me miss you soso much afterwards.

-First you try to fucking kiss me, then you casually tell me you've replaced me...what....?? And you keep going on about how much you're earning and how much you're a supervisor... look, I love you, but I think you need to start looking at our friendship..

I am not going to satisfy your thirst for drama. If you want drama, watch Grey's Anatomy.

Oh, and I found a lovely picture of you!


So.... have a good day. HUMMMMMMMMM

[mindflower]

Your hair cut doesn't look good and I hope you hate it too. You need to shut up and get a prom date and stop shutting out your friends. You need to stop randomly texting me sad and sweet things trying to get me back because usually when you do, its the times I'm okay without you. I'm safe and perfect with Matthew, hear me now, I'm not taking you back. You hurt me and you do this to other girls and I'm so angry at you. I hate that I still kind of have feelings for you but really, could you fuck off again so I can forget you and all the ways you pained me?

Shut up, okay? You're fucking perfect and your life is handed to you on a silver platter. You don't know the pain of having to worry day and night that my boyfriend of almost two months, still loves you more. I rip out my hair and stomp my feet and scar for that boy, just like I have for how many years. And please, if you know me so well, would you mind realizing how ruined I am?

Shut up.

Shut up too.

Fuck the FUCK off.

I love you.

[Kate*]

Fine, don't answer me, you're the one it makes look bad. I am pissed and I have every right to be. Don't think you're going to get away with this without a REALLY GOOD explanation. I'm also refusing to sign that, also for valid reasons.

If it comes to that I want to know who let me keep going while making me believe that it was possible when it wasn't. I want names.

I suspected he had something to do with it when you answered so fast last time. I know that now because I e-mailed you again and... Nothing, last time you got back to me the next day and then replied twice in the same day.

If I walk in there and it's both of you, I will not be happy. There are valid reasons I don't want to try that again, not the least of which being how the last one went!

[Azure.]

I really miss spending time with you and I'm really happy we'll get to hang out for a while tonight.

"You sound sad." Wow, I'm surprised that you noticed. I'm not at all surprised that you believed my "Oh, I'm fine" answer though.

[Forging Galaxies]

1st person... I hope you're okay, I need you physically well... Loves to you.

2nd person... and I really want you to get out of that shitty life... I'll be there to help you.

3rd person... The hell is wrong with you?!

(If anyone confused by my post, I wanted it to be for three people instead of one)

[EmisaurusRex]

newsflash--being a lesbian doesn't change the person i am. i am still the person you used to give a shit about. thanks for discarding me. i really appreciate it.

* I'm sorry. You'll never know why, but I am. It's just that I realized how much it hurt me that I am unable to feel anything for anyone right now. I just wanted to feel something, for an instant. But that's not why I am sorry. I am sorry that you have to deal with this. I know you aren't, I know you want to know all of me, and I love you for that. But I am sorry, because what I have with you is something I've wanted for years, and I am worried this is a sign that what I believed was true: I am not cut out to be anyone's.

God, I had hoped I was wrong. I hope I am. Because you're one of the best people to come into my life in a while. And you're the first one of them who actually seems to be able to "manage" me, for lack of a better word, without it compromising you.

I love you. Even if it's hard for me to tell you right now, to reach out to you, I do. I am not scared to say it anymore. I just can't seem to fight through this fog to tell you.

* I'm sorry I haven't really talked to you since Friday. I know you must be worried sick. It's just that I don't want to talk to lots of people. I want to see you tomorrow, too, but I don't think you'll understand. I cannot afford for us to get into a fight right now; I will lose my shit so fast you won't know what hit you. I fidget and get agitated easy right now. Basically, I am going to be on edge and you may not be a good person to be around when I am on edge.

[i]WARNING: Rant with some strong language

You really f**king hurt my feelings Friday. I mean, I was distraught (and almost never, ever am, not like this) and all you can ask is "Why?" WHY? I don't know, sweetheart, why were YOU depressed for three months? The answer is you just were, so you know how this works. So suddenly if it's not something you can't fix you say "Well, sorry, I am hanging out with 'A' today, but you'll be okay." Okay? OKAY?! First of all, every time "A" has had one of her minor little emotional "emergencies" you drop stuff with me to go rescue her because she's just so "helpless." Newsflash, baby: A is a grown-ass woman. She is almost thirty. If you keep rescuing her she is never going to get better. "S" and I have stopped rescuing her, so get with the program or else she will never change. The sooner you realize that, the easier EVERYONE'S lives in this relationship will be.

But A's unhealthy coping habits and manipulative behavior aside, I really needed you, it was your day off, and you could have spared more than two minutes on the phone. But you didn't. I haven't called you in that level of emotional distress in about a year now and in my moment of need you tell me that "it'll be okay." You may as well have said "there, there," and patted me on my proverbial head. It was really insensitive. I love you, but sometimes you are really insensitive.

And that's why I am worried about tomorrow. I don't want "this" kind of stuff to come spilling out at you. I can't take the stress of a fight. I just can't go down that path with you right now.

[Kate*]

--You don't have to be afraid to give me feedback, but you need to understand how I perceive it and why I've become that way. To understand that you have to care enough to find out and make me trust you enough to tell you.

Once you know that, you have to give it in a way that I can hear, (no threats about not belonging in the profession, or program and nothing about how I won't get a job in the field etc.)

And when you give me something negative, tell me how to fix it because chances are I don't know and give me something positive too because it feels unbalanced at times.

-- None of you are perfect, stop expecting me to be. And yes, I know you'll deny that that's what you want, but we know it's true and you aren't the first ones to do it to me I'm coping with it the only way I know how. Excuse me for being human.

[bitesize]

- I don't understand you. I'm angry at you in a slightly nauseous way. Why did you casually suggest that I've been replaced...?? I just don't get it..?? How could you have possibly assumed that that wouldn't hurt me?? It's as if we were going out and then you casually mention at a table of four of us 'Oh, by the way, I've met someone else.'

I know us singing together is just a little thing for fun but it means a lot to me and I have really fragile confidence and the fact that you feel it's ok, despite our friendship, to just drop me like that, is really really hurtful, and I'm actually kind of amazed at how someone I love so much could be so horribly selfish. I can understand that maybe this girl at work who wants to sing with you is probably someone hot that you want to get stuck in with and that's grand - good for you sure - but the fact that you'd drop a best friend like that...?? Not nice.

This coming after the way you tried to kiss me last month and we haven't talked about it since is making me rethink a lot of things about our friendship, which is just fucking crap.

[abitor]

If I could say anything to anyone I think I would say "DON'T YOU DARE ASK ME WHAT'S WRONG! I'm sure everything is okay, It's my life. It's not my job to make you FEEL BETTER AND I DON'T HAVE TO BE HAPPY ALL OF THE TIME... Just leave me alone and I'll be fine."

[Beautiful_Mess]

I wish you'd get the fuck outta my freaking mind!!!! I want you to be erased from my mind and life permanently...I don't want to remember you or the times we had..I don't want to keep seeing you in my head at certain times of the day or night. I've got rid of your things...I've pretty much erased you from my life..but you always find away to creep back in my thoughts...You haven't called me in a week...but now today you decide to call!!....that shows me that you never really cared about me...becuz you forgot bout me sooo easily...I want to forget you sooo bad...I want to forget I ever loved you. Becuz deep down I know I don't...Theres no way I could love someone like you....I don't understand..how I possibly could....GET OUT OF MY LIFE.!!!

[nycto]

I love you in the most innocent way and in the most evil way, and I don't know how that can be. I know you shouldn't feel this way for me, and I shouldn't feel this way for you either, but you changed my life. I can't forget that so don't try to make me.

And it's pitiful, but sometimes I think the only reason I don't give up is because I know how much you said it would hurt you. You mean more to me than I ever wanted you to and I hate that, and sometimes I try to make you hate me so you can feel as bad as I feel. Sometimes I want you to be jealous and sometimes I want you to worry that I will kill myself...all because I get so childish. You should know this, though. I'm not as old as you are and I was really vulnerable. You can't just expect me to reveal myself and not get attached! Why did you think I could handle this?

I'm really sorry. I'm sorry for bringing you into my mess and I'm sorry for making you sad for me. I don't know how to stop wishing you were with me or looking for your face in a crowd that you're obviously not in, but I really am trying. There's not a day that goes by where I don't want to talk to you, and I already miss you.

I love you no matter how many times I say I don't. Just know that.