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I think I'm going to pretend I'm happy again. Just like I did for so many years. Then when I finally told a few people, all except one didn't understand why I'd never told anyone before that I was depressed. In truth, I didn't know it at the time, but now I do, and things were so much better before they wanted to "help" me. I never should have said anything.
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
i don't wanna be strong anymore.
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My secret:
I'm not gay but my first sex experiance was. |
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I want laxatives more than anything.
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i'm back to lying all the time
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
I suppose I feel guilty for things I shouldn't feel guilty for. Plus, I hate change, I enjoy the same old silly routines. Oh, and some days I dream of horrific deaths.
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
I'm scared of myself.
I'm tired of pretending I'm fine. I wish they didn't believe my obvious lie. I'm about ready to give up. I don't know how much more I can take before I do something I will probably regret. I might be suicidal if I wasn't so afraid of dying. |
Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
I can't let anyone know when I self-harm because if I do then my step-mom will drink and if my step-mom drinks then my dad will kick her out and I will be all alone again. I need her, she needs me. If he kicks her out I know that I will attempt again and if it doesn't work I will end up back in the hospital.
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
All I can think about is running away...to where? Haven't a clue. Why? Because my gut is telling me to. I don't belong.
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Eh. I consider myself firmly in recovery. Yet over 50% of the music on my ipod is borderline pro ana :/ The music is familiar and comforting. It reminds me of a bad period in my life, but a period where I felt so irrationally safe and secure.
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I drive myself crazy asking "why not me?" all the time.
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It's been 102 days... I don't know if I can be strong anymore. I want to give up.
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I'm not even trying any more.
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Re: Dirty Little Secrets.
I sometimes wonder if there's something wrong with me, but then I remember I eat too much because I'm fat.
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I just want to binge and binge and binge and binge.
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I've got strong feelings for a boy who has a girlfriend. >.<
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I just wish this would end. I don't want to live anymore.
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its like im afraid
afraid to find what lies inside i dont want anyone to see the real me the broken damaged my just the perfect me i create on the outside to scared to let go of the past and whats happened to me if someone sees if they know will i be an out cast?? |
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im broken
see me as i am or watch me as i go <3 you know my name not my story so shut the hell up |
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I've been listening to songs, watching videos/movies, and reading books that I know will trigger me, but honestly I don't really care. I kind of want it to trigger me because if it makes me self-harm then I will get relief, quick.
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I spend all my money on food, and half of it I don't even eat.
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I can't believe I'm seriously considering sleeping with him. He's made it clear that's only what he's after, do I have ANY respect for myself left at all?
Feels nice to be wanted |
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I'm a bit hungry, but it's too late to go eat anything >.<
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I could have obtained this certification over a year ago. It's not entirely my fault but I still feel like a slacker.
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I just wish my pain would end, either by you coming back to me or the final end. Im hurting that much i just dont care anymore
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I've already started planning.
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I'm jealous of all of them.
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Once again, I've taken on more than I can handle.
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I've been having really dirty dreams, and my boyfriend hasn't been in any of them.
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I like to plan and carry out murders in my head.
For real. :dem: |
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Sometimes I still want to run away
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The only friends I have are the ones that are in my head and my imagination isn't what it used to be :-/
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1. I'm an asshole and everybody knows it.
2. I can't do anything right and continue to prove it to everybody I know. 3. I'm very close to giving up because I know that everybody would be better off. |
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Smiling and pretending to be fine Hurts.
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I gave a guy a blow job when I was 9! I feel like a total whore but he threatened me and I didn't want to and then he undressed me and licked me out and -shudders- then forced me to suck his, his cock. I feel totally gross and nobody knows. So when the rumours that I gave a guy head spun back to me it made me feel on edge :( I don\'t want to live with this secret anymore
Jay. |
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i have a plan. i don\'t feel safe
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I did it again. I didn\'t want to, but I gave in, just like always. I feel so disgusting and no, I do not think it\'s "normal".
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I miss you...
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I feel so ugly :(
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I\'m damaged goods and anyone who dates me in the future will realise that pretty quickly
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