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i had 6 online relationships but i given up on it now. dont want to try again.so jamie,its normal. relax. :)

there goes my little secret... :hehe:
and why i broke up on 6 guys??
cause of looks and boardness.
well,its all about honesty anyway. and the topic.

dont be afraid to ask me for advice though,i experienced it all online.
but never real life. so your not alone.

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I was an idiot to think that medication would help me. Welcome to reality. I'm screwed just like everybody else.

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I'm afraid that the only reason I can be nice to anyone, even now, is the medication.

I'm afraid that I will always feel this hideous.

I'm afraid that I will go blind (hypochondria? probably, but understanding that logically does nothing to lessen my anxiety or insomnia).

I'm afraid that things won't change greatly and soon.

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I've actually started to enjoy sex now. Is it sick that I wish it was you?

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You're right. I'm so attracted by your insanity. I won't admit it to you though.

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I have an alcohol problem. I said I would never cheat on him again and I did, now I can't tell him and the guilt hurts.

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I'm still in love with her, though she will never want me back.
I'm addicted to cocaine..I od'd this year.
My step dad bats and rapes me.
I'm scared to me alone.
I never feel like I'm good enough.

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You really really hurt me, but if you came back today and said you where sorry I'd still take you back.

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i got up and left her because she was treating me like shit. but i cant help but wonder what people would say if she posted our story on here. all the shitty things they'll say about me. and i could argue all i want about them not really knowing shit. but i dont think it would really matter. because of the way shes tells it makes me look like shit. so now i hestiate whenever i think of giving advice on here. because i think about the other side of the story. how can i give advice to some random person online when i never have really heard the full story?

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i know...im just reflecting on how these sort of things always seem to end for me...guess it was kind of out of context

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i wish i hated food and ate like a rabit because i want to be skinny even though i know i will never be happy with how i look...im so fat...and im doomed to obesity neither of my parents were big when they were 19-20 then they gained wait and weigh around 200 or more lbs...every one except my sister is like this even though she's not tiny either...i wish i was thin and had some muscle i hate the way i look...


sometimes i wish i was a boy so i could dress like a boy and have my hair short the way i want without caring what people say...i wouldnt have to worry about boobs and bras and back problems or periods or getting pregnant one day...i wish i was a boy sometimes, too bad i like guys too much :S

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I am falling apart inside and am so close to giving in, as much as now is really not the time for me to be doing anything 'stupid' I dont know how much longer I can hold it in for.. =(
I'm scared of myself more then anyone.
I still miss you, is that ridiculous after this long, tbh I doubt you'd even remember me if you saw me.. Why cant I get you outta my head!

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I am so painfully boring to myself, and too cowardly to do anything about it.

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I've started cutting again

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sometimes I wish that I was pregnant with your child because then I would have a reason: to eat, to live, and to never sh again. Because then I wouldn't be so alone and I would have someone that would need me and love me no matter what

i feel bad for rejecting you so harshly. And I'm really sorry but I won't apologize because I don't want you to take it the wrong way. I wish that youvnever did any of those things so that I could at least give you a chance because I'm so alone but you have lost my trust

I show my friends her picture and it kills me when they say she's pretty because all I can think is if she is prettier than me and that's why you chose her instead. I look at her profile and find so many things that I have in common with her and it kills me 1. Because I'd be best friends with her if she wasn't dating you and 2. Because we are exactly the same but I don'tlive 3 hours away. We talked for hours everyday. Why wasnt I good enough?
they always say that the one worth crying for will never make you cry. Well the last one made me sh. And I want you to be worth it so badly that I refuse to cry no matter how much you hurt me.
I'm sorry for being such a horrible little sister. I still feel bad for everytime that I ruined your day. I wish that you didnt hate me and protected me like your supposed to. I still want to cry about never giving you that cookie when I was little. And I know that I ruin your time with mom by fighting with her and that it makes you anxious but I just can't help it. She makes things so difficult for me.

Mom... Meme was molested when she was my age. She told me a few weeks ago and I just don't know how to tell you because I cry just thinking about it. And she never told anyone not even Pepe. And I feel guilty and angry because even though I wasn't born yet I want to have stopped it. Because it's made her so scared of life that she never lived it. And it's made me scared too. And I'm angry for her friend knowingly bringing her into that situation. I'm also angry at Meme for not telling anyone and leaving those small children in that dangerous situation

hoe could someone do that to someone's baby?!

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I can't decide what feels worse. Knowing I don't stand a chance, or Knowing I don't stand a chance but continually kidding myself into hoping I do...

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Actually, I don't love you, I find you kinda boring. And there's this other guy that I've liked since November, even if I onle admitted it yesterday. Sorry.

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I kinda have a silly teenage girlie crush on the guy who sits across from me at work. He makes my day that bit brighter just by being there I dream naughty dreams about him. His accent makes me weak at the knees.
But I would never take it further, cos I'm very very happy in my relationship. I just had to confess somewhere and I figured it would be on TH.

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im not over you. it kills me to see you happy with him. i cant believe you left me for him. of all people. the biggest loser i know. fucking rich boy with all his troubles taken care of. after you said you just didnt want a relationship. you'd "changed". the new you wanted different things... i hate you.. your heart is made of stone... but i'd choose no other....

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please dont. theres always a better way! x

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I had a dream last night that I was pregnant... I could feel my baby kicking and I wanted nothing more than to stay in that moment forever... I woke up and looked in the mirror and cried because I don't have you inside me... That day I thought I was pregnant was the best day of my life...
I'm fourteen and have an ED but all I want is to have a baby inside me because for some strange reason I know that if I were pregnant I'd finally love my body.....

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I want to go home. :'(

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I still miss that person so much; it just feels like she was the only person in the world who actually heard me and cared.. even though she was being paid for it.. I know that should make the difference but tbh there isn\'t really anyone to compare to && since I\'ve been in adult services I\'ve realised how genuine that care was because just because there paid to do it doesn\'t always mean that they will.

I want to die so much but I\'m scared doing anything now will set back mum\'s recovery. I don\'t want it to be my fault when things go wrong.

I\'m scared that despite all our efforts she\'s going to die soon anyway, the Dr\'s can say what they like, if your body\'s trying to give up there\'s nothing you can do.. How many chances has she already used, how long does she have left?!