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...i lied to you...

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sometimes i wish my parents would get divorced so that i could just live with my dad and get away from my mum
every day i find myself wondering what it would be like if i just ended it all for me
quite often i worry about my weight, eating habits and anorexia
i hate a group i'm a part of but at the same time i dont want to quit because i know i'm a part of it
i nearly went out with this guy who i knew had a girlfriend
i just found out that my ex raped his cousin *feels sick and gets a lump in throat at the thought of it*

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I just want to yell at my mom sometimes. She's always either constantly pissed off and bitching about SOMETHING or she's really hyper-ish and doesnt know when to shut up. Stop joking about my suicide attempt, YOU'RE NOT FUNNY.

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It's been 8 months since i last cut, but im still feeling just as bad, but i still think my parents would not care how i feel, so im still continuing to struggle on.

I have sex with random boys, just because i want to feel loved.

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I regret every bad thought, every time I got mad at him but most of all I regret not calling him when he cared. He'll never know that now.
Sometimes in class I just imagine what it would be like if certain people found out I self-harmed
I should feel horrible lying to her for more than a year, possibly two. I don't.

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I get to see you tomorrow.
And it's all I've been thinking about lately.



...iloveyou:].

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i slept with two people behind your back.

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i honestly cant imagine my self dying as an old man i think that i am probably gonna die young like in my 30's or 40's id be okay with that.

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im not seeing P!nk for 2 weeks but im already losing sleep cos im so excited

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I'm scared...scared it'll happen and scared it won't.

I don't know what to think.

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I've made my plans.
And I've never been so happy.

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you don't mean nothing.
i don't want you.
i don't need you.
never loved you.
you're a nobody.

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Ive made my plans.


&& Im scared of it not working.


Im scared of people finding me still alive. Im scared of being put into hospital.
Im scared of losing control. Im scared that I will never be normal.
Im scared of losing you. Im scared of being forced into things I dont want.
Im so scared of THEM finding me. Im so scared of living that its more then I can bear.

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I cant stop wondering.. 'What if I am ill'

How'd you know.. Whats the difference between reality and not.
How can you tell. How could I tell??

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i feel like keeping myself miserable will always keep me from ever being like them- the girls that i see at school, laughing with their friends and joking around and being so shallow and not seeing the realities in life. if i keep my misery fresh, i'll never be like them. i guess then i'll never be happy.

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i just can't get you off my mind

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I don't want to believe you did that. How could someone do something like that?
I trusted you...too much. I fell for it and now because of this I don't know how to trust again. How do you trust people when you find out that someone you talked to daily isn't that person?

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I hurt. So much. I can't stand people using me as a doormat anymore. I'd rather be completely alone than be everyones back up, the person everyone dumps everything on. I'm sick of just getting thrown away when I'm not needed anymore. I can't take it. I love helping people, but I can't take me being there for everyone, me giving everything I can to help, and no one being there for me, everyone always taking. I wish I could disappear, and see if anyone would notice. Or care.

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i was afraid he would fall out of love with me when he realized how much of a loser i am and dump me. i made him hate me so i wouldn't have to deal with the pain of having to face the knowledge that i was unacceptable in his eyes and now that i got what i wanted i have to face the pain of how i threw away the love of my life. my dirty little secret is that i miss him so much. but to the world i'm completely okay. and so i shall stay that way stuck in lies, the pain getting worse with each day.

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