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Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 19th 2009, 11:38 PM
- I gave in..and i dont regret it..I loved the release it gave..I missed the way i felt the blood against my skin.. i want to do it again and again and again...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 19th 2009, 11:42 PM
I like guys but I sometimes find myself attracted to girls. But I don't know if I'm bisexual.
Yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers
But everything that lives is born to die
And so I say to you that nothing really matters
And all you do is stand and cry.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 20th 2009, 02:06 AM
I can't tell you how I feel. I can't tell you anything.
"You've just been B-Wildered." -Brian Wilson <3
Trumpet love; Tenderlips.
"Where there is love there is life."- Mahatma Gandhi
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
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February 20th 2009, 07:03 PM
So I have this new friend, and he's a real laugh. Always keeps me in a good mood at college and he's always nice. Thing is..I cant look at him. I cant look at him because I find him SO unattractive and I feel bad because he's nice. When I talk to him i'm always talking to his feet.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 22nd 2009, 02:00 AM
I thrive off of being praised. But I never am when I try my hardest. Now I fail so often that I'm praised simply for not failing, or trying to not fail.
~Where death is I am not, where I am death is not, so we never meet~
I'd rather die terrified
than live forever.
We will all die so gloriously, that having ever lived will seem like folly.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 26th 2009, 02:29 AM
I'm starting to doubt this whole.. major thing. =/
"You've just been B-Wildered." -Brian Wilson <3
Trumpet love; Tenderlips.
"Where there is love there is life."- Mahatma Gandhi
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 26th 2009, 02:37 AM
sometimes i hate the people that i love
sometimes i just want to end it
sometimes i wish we had never met
sometimes i wish you had never liked me
sometimes i wish i could live in my music
sometimes i wish i could wake up one morning and not remember my past because it hurts too much
sometimes i want to cut just so you'll have to care
I need you Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
el rescate no es un mito
Last edited by rescueisnotamyth; February 26th 2009 at 02:45 AM.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 1st 2009, 07:13 AM
I wet the bed until I was 13
I wish I could live in my dreams and sleep forever.
I think I am going to be alone forever because I can't bring myself to trust.
I hate myself. So much.
Yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers
But everything that lives is born to die
And so I say to you that nothing really matters
And all you do is stand and cry.
I'm gay.
I've finally come to terms with it, and I love the person I am now.
I've come out to almost everyone.
But I don't think I can come out to you.
Still, I expected that it would be harder to tell the person one is in love with (and really shouldn't be).
You know what? The next time I see you, in three weeks, will probably be the last time I am ever going to see you.
I'm going to tell you I love you. You should know that I do, with all my heart, even if you don't reciprocate.
Last edited by eunoia; March 1st 2009 at 09:10 PM.
Reason: Double posts.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 1st 2009, 12:46 PM
For years now, i always have doubts about my life, theres always been something missing... I spend money to forget that...
How can one love themselves, when they love absolutely nothing?
Do something that is interesting. If it is not interesting, find out why it is not interesting.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 1st 2009, 07:01 PM
I want to tell someone so bad that i cut, someone who could help me get better and be happy.
But at the same time i dont want someone to take away the biggest part of me.
Lauren
"The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."
"But in the ruins there is still a canvas. There is still beauty in your brokenness. The faded scars show healing reminding me that even though I’ve been in dark places, I’ve survived and learned and become stronger".
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 1st 2009, 10:00 PM
The only reason I know I am sane is because I have doubts about how sane I actually am. I'm so stressed right now, and I'm trying my hardest to hold onto the little bit of sanity I have left. Sometimes I wish I had some sort of mental illness so that I could be more unaware of things that were going on in my life.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 3rd 2009, 05:11 AM
I miss the girl I used to be: strong and optimistic, who had dreams she believed she could reach. But she's gone and now whenever I look in the mirror, I want nothing more than to disappear.
I wish I could go back in time and change everything, fix everything.
Yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers
But everything that lives is born to die
And so I say to you that nothing really matters
And all you do is stand and cry.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 4th 2009, 11:50 AM
~I think I love you. And I shouldn't. And it's wrong. And I already feel horrible for it. So, you can't ever know.
~I really would rather you in the hospital mom. After the heart attack, you just don't seem better. Not to the degree where you should come home! I know, you're stubborn, but I can't stop you from smoking here. Having you here, forgetting everything, it's too much for me to watch. You used to remember. I just want to know you're somewhere you can be safe.
~I completely blame myself for the heart attack too.
~Later today, I have an appointment with my psychologist and I hope she agrees that I need pills for my depression, panic and anxiety. I just, want to try it. And no one will listen. They think I can wait a little longer.
01 // 10 // 11
Baby stand tall. You can have it all.
Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine..
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 6th 2009, 04:16 PM
I hate being me. I think I have mild depression, I'm not ever really very happy any more. sometimes i think nobody would notice if i died. i'm so confused about who i am. I skipped breakfast today. I might as well be invisible. I feel fat and ugly, and then i berate myself for thinking that, and it just makes things worse. I don't know what to do. Oh, and yeah I am bisexual.
There's always light at the end of a tunnel, even if you have to pass a few bends to see it.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 6th 2009, 07:46 PM
Sometimes.. I think I just want to move farrrr away and start over. And when I was almost able to.. I chickened out and didn't want to leave my family and friends and work. In all honesty, I would love to live in Seattle.
"You've just been B-Wildered." -Brian Wilson <3
Trumpet love; Tenderlips.
"Where there is love there is life."- Mahatma Gandhi
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 6th 2009, 08:42 PM
i try to push everyone away because im so afraid of loseing them
i refuse to believe in love b/c its a state of happy i know ill never reach...
when i was little i felt like being destructive so i carved my brothers name in the back of a rocking chair and my parents yell at him for it, he was only 2 and didnt know how to write yet
i have sex with random strangers when i get drunk...and idk why....
my brother is my hero...and hes 4 years younger then me
"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to god if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming"
"Settle, precious, I know what you're going through
Just ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too"
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March 7th 2009, 03:01 PM
I hate my life i don't know how much longer i can go on.
My soul is lost, no one cares thats not on this website.
My mate killed herself this week im confused as to why.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im dieing in side and religion (christanity) only thing keepin me here
LIZ
"Casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
"For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." 2 Timothy 1:7
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 7th 2009, 08:46 PM
I'm worried the hallucinations werent because of the drugs
I think im the reason so many of my friends have problems
Im to afraid to be honest with my psycologist
and i pretend to be thicker than I am for too many reasons to list
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
March 7th 2009, 09:10 PM
For the first time in about 7 months i felt to urge to cut yesterday ( i used dbt skills so i didnt)
I didnt love him.
I did love her.
I never like being alone with God, it scares me.
I think i am falling for my bff...
I secertly wish i had an eating disorder...so i could be skinny.