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April 23rd 2010, 12:48 AM
I felt comfortable during our walk, I never feel comfortable. I can't believe a guy like you is actually interested in me. We barely even spoke before last night but I wanted to lean in and kiss you before you left, I stoppped myself.
When all your friends have come and gone,
And the sun no longer shines,
And the happiness for which you long is washed away like an ocean's tide,
When all the hard times outweigh the good,
And all your words are misunderstood,
When the day seems lost from the start
You must follow your heart,
You must follow your heart.
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April 23rd 2010, 10:33 AM
I don't know if I want to stop harming..ever.
Im secretly wanting to starve to death
"Friends are like stars; you don't always see them but you know they are always there" 
"It gives me hope. I love you so much. You give me a reason to breathe. Its something for me to not kill myself for" >>> means so much :')
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April 24th 2010, 12:08 AM
I just wana lose my fucking mind again and go crazy. At least il feel alive then, despite all the other shit that'd come with it.
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April 24th 2010, 04:03 PM
I wish the dreams would stop because then I would be able to move on.
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April 28th 2010, 06:44 AM
I wish that I would waste away, like a dying swan. I want to be thin so badly, Im willing to die for perfection. I hate food, but I am obsessed with it. How it tastes, feels going down, chewing it throughly, taking a sip of drink after every bite, and wasting my time eating it because it comes back up any way. I need it and despise it, I fear and crave it. I dont control myself anymore, the food controls me.
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April 29th 2010, 12:32 AM
I actually like some rap music.
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April 29th 2010, 10:06 AM
I want Miss jones to know about my eating...maybe she can help or just give me support, because, honestly..I'm scaring myself now!
"Friends are like stars; you don't always see them but you know they are always there"
"It gives me hope. I love you so much. You give me a reason to breathe. Its something for me to not kill myself for" >>> means so much :')
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April 29th 2010, 11:31 PM
I just had amazing sex with a guy, who I barely know and who I got caught giving head to at the baseball field before school.
I plan on hooking up with two more guys this weekend making my total 5, I am 16.
I want to kill myself so bad, but I am afarid of what my dead realtives would say and my mom and baby sister couldn't take it.
I am on muscle relazers 90% of the time.
I love work, I can excape from reality...thanks K-mart.
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May 1st 2010, 06:09 AM
Nobody will ever truly understand how much you took from me. You may have been the guy to take my true virginity, and the guy who I fell in love with. You're also the guy who reminded me why there is no point in being happy if everything will just hurt again in the end.
But what nobody, even you, even a higher power, even my soon-to-be fiance...will never know...is just how damaged I will always be because you drained my heart of all excitement and want for life.
After you broke my heart, you continued to rub it in over and over, blaming me for your cheating, for your fears that I always comforted.
You stole my soul and left me with an empty heart. I barely feel excitement. I rarely feel confident in any relationship.
I listen to you now, whining about how lonely you are...how sad you are you let me go.
But the saddest part about all of this...is that it was never ME you wanted, just SOMEone...anyone. I wasted my soul and very being on someone who didn't care for ME...
I'm living for my family and boyfriend. Will a child give me more reason? Or...or will I just not feel toward it either?
...I'm going to cut even though I've been free for months now...and I've been starving myself...not exactly on purpose...but its the only damn thing I can control anymore  yet I know it's controlling ME...there's no way to win...
I'm giving in
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May 1st 2010, 06:15 AM
I'm sorry but I don't love you. You're not the one for me.
Yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers
But everything that lives is born to die
And so I say to you that nothing really matters
And all you do is stand and cry.
Music is life. Start living.
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May 1st 2010, 06:30 AM
youll never know; but i hate you. but ill always be here for you
i wish i could jsut sit down and cry my heart out, and then when i got up my problems will all go away
i'm scared of being an average person
i'm scared that if i kill myself, that people will care and the said people will somehow change because of me. that's why i stay. that why i won't kill myself, i'm scared of the ripples it may or may not cause. but still i will always have that thought.
" One day at a time, this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering. "
i wonder when i'll finally jsut start accepting myself, when i'll stop saying i wish i could be like that person.
i have facebook, and myspace. and you can ask for it. :P
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May 1st 2010, 07:17 AM
I did it, and it didn't hurt/help. very dissapointing... I guess I'm stuck like this.
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"But the unfortunate truth is that, while being different from everyone else can be exciting at first, ultimately it can get a little lonely."
"The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no further."
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May 1st 2010, 09:20 AM
i'm embrassed and ashamed of what we did. but knowing you were really drunk, too, makes me feel a bit better. i can at least pretend that you didn't mean for it to happen and that i wasn't an intentional "one night stand"
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May 1st 2010, 10:22 AM
i have some nice fetishes 
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May 1st 2010, 10:52 PM
I have a Masterbation addicition -_-
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May 2nd 2010, 03:45 PM
It still hasn't really hit me that I'm going out with you...I feel a bit weird about it. But I know I want to (:
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago ..... I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door ... ... Níl a shíltear mar a bhítear. Things are not always what they seem.
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May 2nd 2010, 07:49 PM
I met your ex. We have a scary amount of things in common. And much as she's really nice and cool, she's also WAY prettier than me. I don't care if you broke up ages ago, or that she's been with her boyfriend for over a year, I still envy that she's prettier :S
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May 2nd 2010, 08:08 PM
I thought you were the biggest dickhead when we first started talking, but the first time we slept together, things completely changed, you spoke about relationships, i freaked out, and said i just wanted things to be simple, but now our roles have reversed, and it really annoys me. When i slept with the other guy i didn't expect to feel THIS guilty. i just wish you would open up to meeeee.
I relapsed after 15 months the other day but im not even bothered by it =z
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May 9th 2010, 11:35 PM
I'd rather miss out then have to meet her.
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May 10th 2010, 01:02 AM
i think about killing myself every night
I just want somebody to say they care.I
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May 10th 2010, 09:06 PM
I love him
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May 12th 2010, 12:15 PM
Im ashamed that I am unable to perform 'under the sheets'.
I wake up every morning regretting my life and existence.
I wish I knew what having parents really meant. Sadly I won't know in time probably, as I will be a parent someday in the near future.
I hate relationships... a lot... I regret the past relationships I've had. Honestly... I hate romance... although I'm addicted to it in literature and TV.
I hate my 'other self'.
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May 12th 2010, 12:23 PM
I wish we spoke more.
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May 16th 2010, 01:01 AM
I don't know if I can give that much to someone. 
01 // 10 // 11
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May 17th 2010, 09:47 PM
Sometimes I keep quiet to avoid awkward moments.
Unfortunately, those are the moments I need you the most.
You'll never know unless I tell you. I'm going to try.
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May 17th 2010, 11:43 PM
i hate the word rape. and even thouhg people ahjve tolkd me thats what it is.. i will never blieeve its not my fault. im also an alcoholic. and i know it
Floating, falling, sweet intoxication
Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation
let the dream begin let your darker side give in
to the power of the music that I write
The power of the music of the night
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May 18th 2010, 03:07 PM
I do get very jealous, I just try to hide it.
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May 18th 2010, 06:45 PM
dirty lil secret=sometimes i take my best friends fone and pretend to be him so i can have gay sex with his friends
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May 18th 2010, 06:49 PM
i cant forgive her
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May 19th 2010, 01:20 AM
I LOVE you, more then anything, more then words could ever explain, your amazing, you've made my life since I've known you easier, and I feel terrible that despite all that I'm still planning to leave you alone, without me, I only lasted this long because of you, and I wish every day that I could keep it going that way, but you cant take away my pain, people say, 'it's been such a long time' but to be honest, it actually hasnt. Everyone wants to know why I dont go and see my family, because whilst I'm down there I mostly bump into him and he hurts me, again and again..
I never told, due to the agreement I made with him. Wrong I know, but he promised never to touch my sisters if I didnt tell, I dont have the heart to risk them in such a way, he can continue ruining my life but I wont let him have theres.
But I still want to die, I have everything I need, I just hope its all enough, I'm sorry, I dont expect to be forgiven, but I'd like it if I could be.
Despite us falling out for a while, things are great, I'll be honest, when we first became friends again I wasnt sure if I'd ever trust you again, but it all feels amazing, just like you never left my life.
[x] Even though I'm the sacrifice, You wont try for me, not now, Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone,
Isn't something missing? Isnt someone missing me [x]
Baby, i want you to be my superman.
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May 19th 2010, 01:29 AM
after talking to him today;
i ran down the hall dancing and screaming when i was sure they were out of ear shot (;
When you can't find your way home, and when life gets too hard to face on your own. I will stand as a light through the darkness unknown, I will walk with you, so you're never alone.
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May 20th 2010, 05:19 PM
I think this is round two.
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May 20th 2010, 11:51 PM
i have sooooo many secrets to get outtt ;
so here it goessssssssss ;
i think my new youth group leader is cute.
i accidently led his friend on without knowing.
sometimes i think about trading places with kimmie and emily.
i want to know what it's like for matthew to hold me.
although taylor's been dating kristina for almost a year, i still think about what it would be like to be with him although i don't like him anymore.
matthew makes the world make sense.
When you can't find your way home, and when life gets too hard to face on your own. I will stand as a light through the darkness unknown, I will walk with you, so you're never alone.
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May 21st 2010, 09:28 AM
I sleep with a rag elephant. It helps me when I wake up during the night because of my nightmares, I can hold her tight and think I'm not really alone.
"There are invisible suicides. You stay alive for pure diplomacy, you drink, you eat, you walk. The others always fall into the trick, but we know, with an inner laugh, that they're wrong, that we are dead."
"Remember...whatever...it seems like forever ago.."
I still hope. My hope is a frail, pale, sweet creature, and is slowly dying. Hanging by a thread. Just like me, after all.
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May 24th 2010, 01:06 AM
I hate my friends' boyfriends and my friends know that I don't....
"I'm not a piece of cake for you to just discard
While you walk away with the frosting of my heart
So I'm taking back what's mine, you'll miss
The slice of heaven that I gave to you last night." - "Cake" by Melanie Martinez
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May 26th 2010, 10:25 PM
i to end it all daily. I hate my life. I SI and relapsed out of 7 or 8 months of not... I havent told anyone excpet Em and Kay. Im so screwed up and not getting better all its kinda scary but no one cares anyways
"Others say there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I just say Crud, there isn't... I'm stuck in this stupid revolving door..." -Me
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May 27th 2010, 03:36 AM
I hate you so much. And every day my anger and hate grows more and more. You don't even fucking see what you are doing to me and that is what kills me the most. The funny thing, no matter how many times I tell myself I will be okay I don't know if I believe it because I keep letting you disappoint me. Why do I do it?
I think getting a job and getting my own life would be the best thing but I am scared shitless.
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May 27th 2010, 03:42 AM
I still love you to pieces and you still have my heart, dont drop that shit, it WILL break, I still have your heart too see, it's right here next to mine, we were ment to be together like this, it was destiny that has us meet and I love you lots.
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May 28th 2010, 01:50 AM
I am too afraid of my parents reaction if I tell them I have a boyfriend. 
I have thought about trying SH many times lately.
I'd rather be with my friend or alone then with my family.
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May 28th 2010, 03:03 AM
I didn't believe any of what you had to say the other day.
I know what the truth is.
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