Triggering: Complaint of the day

[Gwynbleidd]

The day is not long enough and most of time is taken up by bullshits

[nothereanymore]

I'm not pretty. I'm decent at best. Parts of me look nice, but most of me is unattractive. I don't look right. I don't feel right. I'm asymmetrical and lumpy and bony and childish-looking. I look twelve, not almost nineteen. I don't have what makes other girls beautiful. I don't have the right face shape or body proportions. Even my voice is ugly. I stammer so horribly on literally every other word. I'm not pretty. I'm not beautiful. I'm decent at best, and saying that's kind of a favor. Who wants decent? How can I live with decent?
I want to die. This suicidality that's been plaguing me for weeks now is not because of an outside event or another person. It's all because of me. Me and my unattractive body and ugly personality that makes me so awful to others. I'm a selfish friend and family member. Death is ten years overdue and I don't care who I inconvenience anymore.

[Calaer]

I hate that Ava and I have to get out in the cold. It snowed a tiny bit last night, and while it isn't enough to hinder us from going, I would still rather stay home where it's warm.

[Evanesco]

I can't get fall out 4 to work u_u

[Calaer]

My complaint for the day is that it's snowing, and I'm afraid that it's going to snow us out of having Friend's day today. I've been waiting for this all week, and I really want it to happen. I'm so nervous it wont. Stupid snow.

[Evanesco]

I feel so ill

[Calaer]

Jordan ate my special chocolate bar that I was going to use to make a yummy desert. I'm actually kinda sad about it.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I hate the smell of paint.

[Calaer]

I hate that Jordan has to work today. I wish he could just stay home with us while it's snowing.

[Storyteller.]

A good friend let me down in a very bad way.

[Celyn]

The one time I actually like a guy, and he likes another girl -_-

[nothereanymore]

I thought I'd come out and say hi and be social since I haven't seen you in over eighteen hours but I guess I'll be staying in my room until you get over whatever you're mad at. You do really well to push people away when you don't want them around. I guess that's actually valid if you really look at it. I didn't do anything, though, so I'm a little miffed. And of course, because I'm a melodramatic overemotional premenstrual monster, I feel like crying, but don't bitch about having to placate me like you did last time, for the love of God.

[Calaer]

I hate that Jordan has to go to work today. Thankfully it's a pretty normal day, and he will be back before it's super late. Which is nice.

[Rivière]

So the father of one of my neighbours has been chainsawing little blocks of wood on the ground for hours. You'd think he'd take a break, have a drink, do something else.. but nope. Dzzzzzrrrrrrrt. RRRRRRT. 4 hours and still going...

[MWF]

How many fucking times can I get the date wrong for the same class?

[Calaer]

My only complaint for the day is that Jordan had to drive out in the snow to go to work. I'm always worried about him getting in to an accident in these horrible conditions.

[Rivière]

I wish I didn't keep getting interrupted so much. If I can't learn to deal with interruptions and distractions now I'll not be very good during my time at university.

[jamdoughnut]

The bus is late. Again.

[MyVisionIsDying]

Can I give up now?

[Calaer]

My complaint for the day is that my house is a mess, and it isn't going to clean itself.

[MsNobleEleanor]

The time seems to be going by slow. It feels like 5 minutes has gone by but only 1 minute has gone by.
It feels like an off day today. Dislike off days.

[Calaer]

I hate that Friend's Day is over! I really miss hanging out with my friends, and I super can't wait until next week when we have Friend's day again!

[hocus pocus]

I'm sick with a fever.

[MyVisionIsDying]

I want to go home, I miss my mum.

[nothereanymore]

How can I get my life together when I can't even get my ass out of bed?
I am falling apart, I feel like I'm wasting away, and one day very soon I swear I'm gonna die

[MsNobleEleanor]

I have some sort of virus because walking or sitting up hurts. Laying down is more comfortable. Only time I feel like throwing up is when I am sitting up or walking.

[nothereanymore]

I'm not the kind of creative person I want to be. All I see are people capturing their thoughts better or having more beautiful thoughts. I'm not happy with my creativity. The one fucking thing I'm good at and I'm not even that good at it. :-)
they're not gonna remember me for the creativity I left behind. all they're gonna remember is that I was annoyingly obsessive about it.

[MsNobleEleanor]

Woke up to a painful pimple under my lip but on my chin. Wasn't able to pop it, hurt to much, had three heads on it... put cream on it.
It hurts. I hope the cream helps.

[nothereanymore]

My fucking dream just fell apart in my hands

[Clarent]

I don't want to get back to my old sleeping schedule. I hope what's happening now is just a bad phase.

[Calaer]

My complaint for the day is that it's not as warm as yesterday, and now it's raining! My entire yard is flooded! I wish all the wet gross weather would stop, so we could have some of that warm sunshine.

[nothereanymore]

No one in my family ever read the books. Not my parents, not my aunt, who saw me post about it on Facebook all the time, not my grandfather, who BOUGHT the book, and not my sister, who's a writer herself. No one in my family. My BEST FRIEND never even read it. The biggest champion I had for my writing is on the other side of the world. I've made it clear to everyone that I quit, and no one in my family has anything to say. Not my dad, not my sister, not my aunt - just my insufferable mother who wants to try to tell me, "Oh, just give it time. Don't delete anything. Just keep at it." Bitch, it's gone. It's been deleted. And who are you to tell me what to do in a way that says you don't actually care? You're so nonchalant. "Oh, just do this." You don't give a shit now and you never did.
And not one person, besides the one person on the other side of the world, has had anything to say. No one. So this was a good decision, I guess, because hardly anyone supported me in the fucking first place.

[MyVisionIsDying]

Don't want to go to work, have to find an excuse not to go.

[Calaer]

I hate how things are going right now. I wish we could find some relief.

[Coffee.]

My professor sends out a notice that everybody did poorly on the assignment and that they are disappointed and want us to redo them. My class is stretched so thin. Maybe if the school would invest more money in the students, we wouldn't all be working 20+ hours, internships, and 5-6 classes. I'm sorry, this stupid assignment wasn't my #1 concern this week. Get the fuck over it.

[nothereanymore]

Finding out I didn't make a goddamn penny from the self-publishing project <<<

Not a huge deal, because I wasn't in it for the money, but I literally have a dollar and some change to my name and I don't have a job and I don't know if I'll be getting one anytime soon so some fucking profit would've been nice :-)

[Mrs.Butterfly]

I did exactly what I was supposed to do, but it's not my fault that I got flat tire. I made the appointment as fast as I could, and was ready for the test. Why couldn't I just do it then? There was PLENTY of time.

And the hospital couldn't do the test, which is utter bs. It's a simple blood test.

I just want this dang test DONE.

I was having a good day. No anxiety, feeling hopeful and now I am overcome with depression and it all feels hopeless. I thought I was getting to a better place with my moods.

[Calaer]

I wish it was May, and I wish we were going to the beach already. I need a week long vacation to just relax and not feel so stressed.

[Coffee.]

I'm working nearly 30 hours a week while going to school full time and after rent is paid, I'll be nearly broke. This town is too expensive, this school is too expensive, and my degree is worthless. So I'm wonderful.