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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 23rd 2013, 09:11 PM
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Allergies. Yuck.
When he leaves the room my stomach hurts... so my stomach hurts like crazy right now
I can't help but feel like I was made to be this way. I'm programmed to be so depressed and my future is just death.
I feel like a trainwreck.... maybe I am one. I'm a mistake. A waste of fucking air.
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 23rd 2013, 09:50 PM
One of the school administrators made me change out of my shorts into my jeans, because they were an inch too short for dress code (they're supposed to be finger-tip length). Besides the fact that she was extremely RUDE about it, and that I felt like I was about to cry (I'm a really sensitive person), I noticed a group of girls walking by with shirts the same length as mine. They also were wearing spaghetti-strap tops and those shirts that show off your belly (both against dress code as well). She sees them, makes an expression on her face, and doesn't even stop them. Why? Probably because they're skinny....I'm not overweight...but I'm not considered thin either...I'm "thick". I believe kids should wear clothes that flatter their body, and I thought I looked totally fine in those shorts...they covered my butt AND had three inches more of fabric covering my upper thigh. None of my teachers cared, kids have worn worse in school, but the lady who resembles that slug woman from Monsters Inc stopped me in the hall, when there were two more hours left of school, because the shorts on me were inappropriate, but the shorts on the other girls (some the same length as mine, some shorter) were totally fine.
I know, it's the rules and I should follow them. I'm just a wild stallion that cannot be tamed. It was also just an honest mistake; I thought that they were long enough.
But honestly..if you're going to stop me, please stop them as well.
I was already self conscious about my legs and weight. This was the first time I've worn shorts to school in two years.
And the administrator just made everything feel worse.
Sorry for the long rant.
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 24th 2013, 01:43 AM
~Is underage drinking, smoking, and doing drugs the norm now? Like, seriously? Does everyone do it? I feel like I'm the only one that stays clean.
~You should have handled this situation better. I know you want to be the cool teacher, but still. Kids smoked pot in your room. Smoking in general, as well as on school property, is illegal. If it were me, I would have reported them in a heartbeat. I know they're your favorite students, but still. They've done it multiple times. I think it's time you put a stop to it.
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 24th 2013, 12:54 PM
As soon as I came back from shopping in town, I was casually showing my mum what I'd bought and then she was all, "Did you get hot chocolate!?" "Did you get this!?" "Did you get that!?" Despite me handing the things to her and physically showing her, she'd forgotten what I'd just given her and she was all over me with questions, "How much did it all cost in total!?" Like geez, I just got home lady! Let me add it all up and then I can tell you!
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 24th 2013, 01:44 PM
Do you have to pull this shit right when I get up? You're not kidding with me, you're making me feel like shit.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 25th 2013, 11:07 PM
I said goodbye to her 2 1/2 months ago, and I got closure. Yet I'm still on her blog and I can't seem to let that go. I don't want her in my life but I can't stop thinking about her. I don't miss our toxic friendship. I don't need to see her continuing to destroy herself. So why do I keep checking up on her?
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 26th 2013, 03:30 AM
I want to cut.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 02:46 AM
Why the hell are we even having school in this heat???
My cuts are so... they're never enough and I don't know if I'm getting re-hooked but I almost... miss it.
I have to please everyone and help everyone else in their states of "hardship" and no one cares about me anymore, what I'm going through, when I'm only getting worse.
Everyone else has to be fine first, then I start to matter. JUST KIDDING.
I don't matter.
I'm a waste of air.
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 08:19 AM
I don't want any more lightning storms. No more storms. I'm too fucking scared, it cannot storm anymore. It's fucking ARIZONA for God's sake! IT DOESN'T FUCKING RAIN HERE!
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 03:21 PM
First day of school is tomorrow and I'm just so nervous.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 04:52 PM
My left hand seems to have these weird muscle spasm-things and it feels like I've hit my funny bone but not, it's really weird and annoying to have in my hand.
I also have something in my eye, again, and it's making everything all blurry and horrible.
My mum gave me some face moisturiser which I put on earlier today and I had an allergic reaction to it so not only did I look like I'd been sunburnt on a very cloudy day, my face felt like someone was skinning me alive. Yay.
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 05:45 PM
It still is not here and I leave tomorrow morning.
I still have a lot of packing to do.
I'm exhausted.
"i don't care your intentions. I just want you to know my self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go. At the end of the day...I can pick at the pain but I can't cut it away."
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 28th 2013, 06:28 PM
"Are you really okay? What's been going on?" I'm slipping away. "I'm good, thanks!" I changed the subject right after.
I've been having really bad body image lately. Back to losing weight.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 29th 2013, 12:04 AM
First class of a very long day and I don't understand a thing. So tired and I just want to go back to bed but I can't because I have hours left of class and I need to pass my subjects.
Re: Complaint of the day -
August 29th 2013, 02:11 AM
There is no AC in the school.
It is 90 degrees out.
I am drowning in my own sweat.
Can't wear shorts even an inch about finger-tip length--
Would be "Too distracting."
You know what's too distracting?
This heat and the fact the my clothes are stuck to my skin thanks to sweat.
Thank you, top school in the state for not having any dang AC.
Stupid triggers.
I've never loved my mom, and don't think I ever will.
Two tests tomorrow.
It's still a long time, but...he's leaving for college in a year.
And he'll probably never feel the way I feel about him.
Why.
Just..
Why.
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan