Triggering: WHY

WHY did 7 year old me have the cops called on her
WHY did 9 year old me get raped by my best friend
WHY did 10 year old me run away from home
WHY did 10 year old me have DCF over 10 times.
WHY did 10 year old me start self-harming
WHY did 10 year old me almost get murdered twice
WHY did 10 year old me get sexually abused by a teacher
WHY did 11 year old me get physically abused by a kid in school
WHY did 11 year old me try to kill herself
WHY did 11 year old me go inpatient
WHY did 11 year old me develop an eating disorder
WHY did 11 year old me develop physical illnesses
WHY did 11 year old me get diagnosed with chronic joint pain
WHY did 12 year old me go inpatient twice
WHY did 12 year old me have to get over 10 welfare checks done but only 6 sending me to the ER.
WHY did 12 year old me try to overdose
WHY.
JUST FUCKING WHY.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Sorry about all of this, hope you are doing okay.

I'm so sorry all these things have happened in your short life! It sounds like a burden to be carrying these traumatic memories, especially at such a young age. I would strongly suggest finding a mental health therapist that you can talk through these traumas with. They can help you find a way to cope safely, heal these wounds, and move on with your life. Especially if they're no longer things you are dealing with at the moment; nobody should be holding on to these things as if they've just happened. You deserve to move on, let those wounds become healed scars, and live your life.

Wishing you nothing but the best of luck.

[Mindfulness.]

Hi there,

I am so sorry to hear that you have had to experience so much trauma at a young age. I can't imagine what you must be going through and how you are feeling.

I agree with speaking to a mental health professional in order for them to help you talk about your past. I understand that it can be a little scary opening up to someone, but it can help quite a lot if you find the right psychologist to speak to. I recently started seeing a mental health professional and I was quite anxious as well as nervous about opening up to a stranger, but that it what they are there for and it wasn't until the second session that I believed it started to help speaking to someone.

If you ever need anything, feel free to message me.