Triggering (ED): AHHHH I HATE ANOREXIAAAAAAAA

[Eerie In Wonderland]

I'M GONNA LOSE MY MINDDDDDDDD
BRAIN JUST LET ME EAT APPLESAUCE IN PEACE
IT'S LIKE 90 CALORIES IT'S OE THING OF APPLESAUCE
I NEED FOOD BUT I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE SHIIITTTTTTT

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hi, I'm sorry you are having a hard time and I really hope that you will be okay soon.

[Eerie In Wonderland]

Originally Posted by Arabesque- golfing girl.

Hi, I'm sorry you are having a hard time and I really hope that you will be okay soon.

Yeah I hope that too. I mean I haven't been to the studio in almost three weeks, and I'm never able to dance again anyways, and I'm just gonna start teaching fully, so why do I still hate my body. If I'm gonna be a teacher all the time I need to fix myself so I can be good to my students and avoid giving them more ballet trauma.

[Proud90sKid]

Anorexia can kill you and even damage your brain. I would get help for this immediately. If you are worried about an apple sauce, are you even eating enough to remain healthy? Do you feel light headed or have a racing heart? If you arent eating, at least take vitamins (especially B vitamins) and drink coconut water for potassium and traditional electrolyte drinks for sodium. You can die if your potassium and/or sodium gets too low.

[Eerie In Wonderland]

Originally Posted by Proud90sKid

Anorexia can kill you and even damage your brain. I would get help for this immediately. If you are worried about an apple sauce, are you even eating enough to remain healthy? Do you feel light headed or have a racing heart? If you arent eating, at least take vitamins (especially B vitamins) and drink coconut water for potassium and traditional electrolyte drinks for sodium. You can die if your potassium and/or sodium gets too low.

I'm definitely not eating enough, I'm getting really underweight. I've tried getting help and everyone tells me to toughen up so I don't know what to do. I'm always lightheaded because I have NCS (Neurocardial Syncope) and I don't have a racing heart, I've got the opposite, ridiculously low blood pressure.
Thanks for the advice. /gen

[Proud90sKid]

Originally Posted by Eerie In Wonderland

I'm definitely not eating enough, I'm getting really underweight. I've tried getting help and everyone tells me to toughen up so I don't know what to do. I'm always lightheaded because I have NCS (Neurocardial Syncope) and I don't have a racing heart, I've got the opposite, ridiculously low blood pressure.
Thanks for the advice. /gen

May need to address it in a similar way to an addiction unfortunately. Try going to some sort of eating disorder recovery group or even a rehab type place. It is as serious as a drug addiction to be starving yourself. Unless you have another plan to address the triggers. It sounds like therapy hasnt worked. Have you tried just letting yourself eat as much as you want for a week? I bet you will feel much better physically and have a lot more energy.

[Eerie In Wonderland]

Originally Posted by Proud90sKid

May need to address it in a similar way to an addiction unfortunately. Try going to some sort of eating disorder recovery group or even a rehab type place. It is as serious as a drug addiction to be starving yourself. Unless you have another plan to address the triggers. It sounds like therapy hasnt worked. Have you tried just letting yourself eat as much as you want for a week? I bet you will feel much better physically and have a lot more energy.

I've practically grown up in psych wards/rehab type facilities. And because of American Healthcare any proper treatment will put an immense financial burden on me and my family. I would feel better physically perhaps, but mentally it will cause issues that could lead to a relapse on other negative behaviors. Along with major consequences from my parents and ballet teachers (Despite not being able to walk I'm still teaching and still expected to maintain that unhealthy figure)

[Mindfulness.]

Hi Eerie,

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through at the moment.

Is there someone that you are able to speak to in regard to your anorexia such as a doctor, specialist and/or dietician? They may be able to help you overcome this and will support you along the way as it can impact your physical health if you are not getting the right amount of nutrition's.

If you ever need anything, feel free to message me.