Triggering: Mental Health

[Mindfulness.]

Over the past couple of days, my mental health has taken a hit. This past couple of years has been difficult for me in a few ways. From Covid to my Grandmother passing away to working several jobs at once to studying and planning a wedding all at once, I feel like I'm just feeling extremely overwhelmed and anxious. Because of this, my motivation levels have dropped significantly as well as my energy. All I want to do is sleep and just lie around. I really haven't been looking after myself.

This past month, I have resigned from my bartending and tutoring job. Because I left the tutoring position, I have lost a friend because I had to leave abruptly due to my mental health and I was starting my new job on Monday. I was severally burnt out and still am. The reason why I left so quickly was because I felt like I was no use to anyone because of how I was. My friend ran a tutoring business and I worked for her. Thankfully, things worked out on her end in terms but that doesn't excuse my behavior.

All I have been thinking about is how my past will come to bite me in the backside even though there is no evidence that I have done anything wrong. However, I am continuously thinking that I have without doing so and I have hurt someone or I will get in trouble for it.

These past couple of days since I have reduced my work hours have been wonderful. I have taken the time to catch up on the much needed rest and to be able to do what I want to do. Yet at the same time, I still feel so down and I thought by now that I would be recovered. Obviously, this is going to take a lot more time to get back to where I need to be.

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It sounds like you have a lot going on! It makes sense that your mental health may be a little iffy right now with everything you have on your plate, and you're right that it can take some time for things to kind of even out again and to get back to where you need to be. I think once everything cools down for you and you get into the swing of things at your new job, things will start to fall into place for you a little more.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hello,

I am so sorry that you are having a hard time with all of this and I hope that you will be okay soon. When we have a lot going on it can be hard to be okay with everything and make ourselves happy and feel better. When you can, try to find something that makes you feel happy, going for a walk or watching a movie or drawing or painting or listening to music or something else that you enjoy doing. I hope that you will be okay soon and everything calms down soon for you.

[Mindfulness.]

Thank you for your replies.

I have taken a lot of time just by myself to rest as much as possible and doing what I want.