No motivation.

I've got no motivation to do anything. I keep seeing this thing on my Facebook feed, one of those "suggested for you" thing, and it only serves to remind me of how much I wish I could go back to 2017. In 2017, I did not dream of a pandemic or having that be the perfect excuse to get laid off. In 2017, the world was scary with Trump being president and my niece having cancer; but yet it still felt very much different. I still had dreams and ambitions them; I was excited to do things and get things done.

But now I have no motivation to do anything. I'm still searching for a job — even though I've had a job for several months now — and nothing shows up that I am qualified for. Most of the time, they either require a driver's license, a college degree, full time; and neither of which I have or am able to do. I've started to see a new therapist a month and half ago; but I find her to be incredibly unhelpful. She's focusing on the one thing that I have already dealt with and it's bringing me down.

I can't help but wonder if I'm not worth anything, if I shouldn't bother trying to reignite my dreams and ambition. I can't help but wonder if I'm meant to be a fragile broken snowflake with unresolved traumas inflicted upon me both long ago and in recent times.

I hate feeling this way.

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Hi,

I am sorry that you are having a hard time with this and I hope that you will be okay soon.

It is alright to think about the past and wish we could still be doing what we used to be doing before everything changed for us. When something changes for the good, not so good and it's okay, this can be hard to deal with. Sometimes we have to go through this and see how it goes and what is going to happen. It would be amazing if we could see the good, the not so good and the okay of things that are going to happen, it would be helpful because we know when they are coming and it would be a lot easier for us to deal with them. You said that you do not have a lot of motivation, when you are feeling like this, would you be able to think of things that you need to get done and try doing one or two of them and then if you need to take a break from this you can and then try again. When we feel like this, try to make a list of everything that you need to get done and look at what is going to get done the fastest and try to do them first and when you are done after look at what you have finished and keep thinking in your head that you can do this and what a great job you are doing. I hope that you will be okay soon.

[Dawn.]

Hi there,

I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I'm the same. There are some days that I have so much motivation and others, I struggle to get out of bed. The only thing that motivates me is my routine and my long term goals that make me progress with the day.

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