Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

[Fanatic]

In a while, I haven't self-harmed but I ended up doing it after starting seeing someone again and not feeling like it helped. Is it really possible to get any proper treatment or something that will feel this void? It all feels hopeless.

No matter who I talk to in real life, I feel judged and misunderstood.

[MWF]

Jesus Christ... I think my roommates dropping hints that he might be gay for me. He has a girlfriend.
Or maybe I just look into things too much.

[Storyteller.]

The smell of cleaning supplies is making me feel really sick but there's no way to avoid it.

[Chris]

Having split off days really is wearing on me as the weeks go by!

Some of the items I ordered came damaged. I have to hear back from one site because they totally misrepresented the item. One was labeled very good and was, maybe, acceptable. While two items that were labeled 'good' came in very good/like new condition.

I did get one of the damaged items from Amazon though and they are replacing it today. So I think I'm going to have to keep going through them.

[daisy_jam]

My ED is resurfacing after a couple of years I'm going back to my old ways and I'm stuck once again.

Still no word and I am tired of the uncertainty. Just want to know so I can move on

[Storyteller.]

I don't know what this feeling is but it doesn't sit well with me and I don't know how to fix it.

I don't belong

Anorexia isn’t going to let me eat today.

[Tigereyes]

This semester might actually kill me, but I can't take time off or reduce workload. I feel trapped, and the only options seem to be drop out or die, but it's too late to drop out.

I am really frustrated. I feel like I have spent the last few years (maybe 3) being used and unappreciated.

My time might be coming to an end because I shouldn't continue dedicating so much of myself to a place that I am not appreciated.

It makes me sad. I won't react too quickly or anything but sometimes you have to know WHEN to stop letting people treat you like a doormat.

I have been treated like one for far too long.

I think I might be getting a cold since my throat is hurting but it might just be drainage.

[Fanatic]

Everything hurts. Help..

I'm anxious and sad and have no desire to do the things I need to

[Chris]

I really have to start doing things on my todo-list.

I have a headache and I feel super depressed. I REALLY shouldn't though and I hate that I do. I have so much going on that is good!

Another Failure.
I am not super disappointed.
Mostly just scared.

I feel overly anxious
I have another bad headache
Paranoia is kicking in

(I hate mental illness because it randomly decides to get *bad* again ... it always decides to do so at the worst possible times too)

[Celyn]

I'm so freaking jumpy. Struggling to concentrate. I just want things to magically get better. But it won't.

[Lionheart]

So I have so much left to do, have my whole day packed and still not sure if I can make it and now my roommate decided to dump her dog on. Well fuck you. Its no like I don't have anything to do and am an anxious stressed mess already.
Fuck you!

Woke up with a headache. Can't seem to get back to sleep! Was going to try and go out with my boyfriend today since we've been unable to do so all week.

Now I'm not so sure that will happen!

I know it’s not possible that I actually gained X lbs in a day, but that’s what the scale says so today is a no food day. No food. No food. If I eat, I’ll get fatter. I shouldn’t have binged last night, not when I knew I couldn’t purge. I hate myself.

[Storyteller.]

I finally thought of something I feel like eating, but I don't have one of the ingredients and I don't have the energy to go buy it. There goes that idea then.

[Fanatic]

I feel empty. I want to die and run away from my responsibilities that are right now.

My throat is feeling irritated. I hate allergies.

Committed to something for this evening...wish I hadn't.

I can probably get away with leaving early though which I might do? Not sure. It depends who all ends up being there. The one friend who'd make it a bit easier to be social is not going to be there.

I have another headache and I have to go do something at 3pm that will require concentration.

Oh well, it probably won't take too long.

[daisy_jam]

5am and I'm falling asleep. Here's to another fucked up sleeping pattern

[Tigereyes]

Life is ironic sometimes. I have multiple life crises going on right now, and it's too much to deal with--too painful.. I just want to feel numb and escape the pain. So naturally my bio class lectures align with all this so that we have an entire 75 minute lecture on my drug of choice right now. Let me just hyper-focus on learning everything about my drug of choice when that's what I'm trying to avoid doing to escape this pain.

I'm not feeling good, at all.
Hope I'm not getting sick?

[Tigereyes]

Can life just chill for a day? Please? I need some time to recovery and get caught up in everything and process death and trauma

I am tired of having a headache. I also don't want to have to call the counselor tomorrow but I have no choice.

[Kintsukuroi.]

Where did this wind come from? It was starting to feel like spring with the tulips starting to sprout and now it cooled down with a cold wind.

I feel so irritated.
I think I need a break.

[Rivière]

My 'friend' doesn't deal with stress well and has been taking her problems out on me.

[SkyFall]

No work for the next week or so or until my bruise on my face disappears

What a horrible day!

My anxiety has been so annoying lately. It went away, almost completely, last year but it is coming back. It is getting to the point where I am anxious every day. I am not anxious all day like I was in 2016 but I am terrified it is going to get to that point again...with me trying to find work (which will lead to a job) I cannot afford to be anxious EVERY single day!

I can discuss it with my psychiatrist if need be. He knows that my anxiety is coming back. I accepted a prescription for xanax but I told him I don't feel like it's at a point that I need to be overly worried quite yet.

We are going to keep an eye on it ... but I can't stand this ...