Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

[Odyne]

I’m soooo tired.

[Soda_Voxel]

I want a good night's sleep. I want to not need naps all the time. I want to not have ugly eye bags under my eyes. I want actual energy and the desire to be productive and then to actually do it.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't know how much more I can take of that place.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

[Mindfulness.]

My anxiety and depression has reared it's ugly head again today.

[Mindfulness.]

I really don't want to go to work tomorrow.

[Everglow.]

The upstairs neighbours have flooded their kitchen and now we cant use any lights because they have water pouring through them. I cannot wait to not have upstairs neighbours any more.

[Mindfulness.]

I'm just so tired today.

[Mindfulness.]

I just want to be able to not be so busy all the time.

[Mindfulness.]

I feel like I am surrounded by Covid-19.

[Soda_Voxel]

I wish it wasn't so easy to just accept the self-hating thoughts.

[Soda_Voxel]

I don't know about you Mum, but I don't really think it's funny for you to use my autism as an excuse to get things I or we want. I don't want to use my autism as a victim card. I'm not a victim. Just because it's got me some cool things easier doesn't mean I'm proud of it. I don't find it something to laugh about.

[Mindfulness.]

I'm just exhausted today.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want to go back to work tomorrow.

[Mindfulness.]

I just hate lazy staff.

[Mindfulness.]

I hate feeling like this.

[Soda_Voxel]

I don't actually want therapy. Just accepting my fate would be so much easier. I'm just trying to improve because everyone else wants it, since I can't decide what to do with my own life.

I got my groceries today and the grocery store brought me a large tub of yogurt that expires on September 30th. Seriously? That's only a few days away. Guess I am having yogurt for breakfast every day. I hate to let food go to waste.

[Mindfulness.]

All it takes is one thing to switch.

[Soda_Voxel]

Why do people call me ableist slurs when I'm being polite and trying to help people? Am I really such a horrible person for trying to be kind and inclusive?

There is definitely something wrong with my toilet. The water in it bubbles when the upstairs neighbor runs their shower. It wasn't doing that until yesterday. However, the maintenance man couldn't find anything wrong with it. I am anxious because the last time it bubbled like that it ended up being incredibly clogged and they had to snake all the drains. Let's hope he's right that it's no big deal.

[Mindfulness.]

I really don't know what to do...

[Soda_Voxel]

Can I please stop feeling tired? I have naps or go back to sleep 1, 2, even 3 times a day, and I'm still exhausted. Naps are nice, but I don't want to sleep constantly.

It's 6pm and already feeling so dark out. It's raining, but still.

[Mindfulness.]

I really wish I didn't get myself into these situations.

Can't think of the English equivalent of a word used in American Sign Language.

I wish I could read. No audiobooks sound good either

[Mindfulness.]

I really wish I just could keep my mouth shut.

[Soda_Voxel]

My therapy session was rescheduled again. Yes, I'm nervous for it and kinda don't wanna do it, but I also really need it, so...

[Mindfulness.]

I feel like I'm falling deeper into this darkness.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want to feel this guilty all the time anymore.

[Soda_Voxel]

My COVID jab got rescheduled. Everything is rescheduled...

This is the same clinic that refused to meet with a mentor, and she died a year and some months later from cancer.

Anxiety is the absolute worst

Why does my body have to crash after doing the most simplest thing?

[Mindfulness.]

I hate being like this.

[Soda_Voxel]

The beginning of my life is such a scary thing to imagine. I was just in a black void, then there would be a memory, then blackness again, and then another memory, blackness...this went on for a few memories and then suddenly I was just...sentient. I distinctly remember the first time I saw my face in the mirror. Not a figure of speech btw. It just perturbs me. Why couldnt it just be like,,, normal??? Even the start of my life was strange, let's not even think about what goes on now...

I feel my good mood slipping away because I know who I am going to have to see tomorrow.

[Mindfulness.]

I'm just so tired all the time.

[Soda_Voxel]

Im such a failure in life. I dont go to school, have a job, or do anything productive. I havent gone to school in years. I am a waste of oxygen and shouldnt be here