Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

I'm having anxiety pretty bad right now.

Exhausted but don't want to sleep.

Got five hours of sleep unmedicated last night. Can I do it again?

Scared two days without one of my meds will bring out the mania even more.

I'm anxious about talking to my boss.

[Tigereyes]

If I don't finish this schoolwork, I'm going to end it. Guess tonight's the night to make it or die. Fuck this. I'm done.

My boyfriend is working overtime. It's more money but he's been working overtime most of the week. We won't even have Saturday together.

Oh well, I guess

I'm having bad anxiety right now. Feels like it's a 7 or an 8 and I have to get through work. Today might be okay though. I have things to keep me busy.

[Tigereyes]

Why must online classes have weekend only exams that are meant to take WAY longer than normal exams? Like I don't normally have lots of homework to do over the weekend.

I have to see the movies by myself. I don't mind except my boyfriend and I have been planning this all year.

Would appreciate it if Fox Sports stopped with those referendum campaigns.

"Vote No on X" Well I am going to vote YES!
"Vote Yes on Y" Well I am going to vote NO!

Just... can it with the politics. You're supposed to be a network geared towards sports.

I really wish ABC, CBS, or NBC broadcast these games.

I can't believe I just missed what could be the best play of the game!

[Rivière]

I feel so stressed.

I have a computer game to write in just 1 week.
I have 4 reports to complete by next Sunday.
I have an essay due in 2 weeks that I still haven't really started.
I have another essay I sort of did research for but nothing else.
I still have my dissertation to write.
I feel like due to my mess up on Tuesday I've really lost him.
I really want to see him more but I have to do my work.
I'm trying so hard not to think of him or I won't work.
I promised myself I wouldn't message him first until Monday.
I'm trying to think of the situation logically and that he still does care, just that like me he's very stressed and busy.
I keep thinking of scenarios where we finally open up properly to one another but it will never happen.
I realised he doesn't love me nearly as much as I love him and it hurts so much.
I wish I'd never kissed him back that at that party so nothing would have started between us.
I worry this pill is giving me mood swings.
I'm still waiting for this fake period to arrive.
I've lost so much weight because I'm that stressed I barely eat.
I've been hiding how I feel from everybody but the internet.
I've been pretending to everyone in my life I'm ok when I'm not.
I've been hiding how I feel and what's been going on from my mother because she doesn't even know I've been seeing a guy.
I can't tell my mother about anything that's been going on with this guy because she won't approve and I don't want her to be ashamed of me.
I don't want my mother to tell me I 'lied' to her about being gay again. Not like I can help how brain chemicals work and who I fall in love with. Not like I wanted to fall in love with a guy who clearly has no time for me, doesn't care about me that much and treats me like crap.
Speaking of that, I wish I wouldn't let him treat me the way he does, but I do and I just keep getting hurt.
I'm so tired.

[Tigereyes]

Accidentally gave myself an anxiety attack right before this timed exam, and I have really bad test anxiety.

I must be going crazy. Clearly that thing never even existed. Just my mind going all floopy on me.

This day is taking forever to end

Oh, no. Not this again. Please.

Woke up at two and not sure I'll get back to bed

I wish it weren't Sunday. Have to go to work tomorrow

These violent, borderline homicidal, thoughts I get scare me.

I'm tired of being treated like shit.

[Tigereyes]

If these grades don't work out after everything I've done, I'm giving up on life.

[Tigereyes]

It's Halloween, and you know what's scary? All these major assignments and exams that are all fucking due!

I need the day to end. It hasn't even started. I havent wanted to be here all week and today is worse.

I hope this improves because usually I'm not this frustrated about work or this nervous about working on things.

A certain pop-country song is playing very faintly in my mind. Was hoping that wouldn't happen today.

I hate that it's seven in the morning and barely light out!

He has to work this weekend. Dad is out of town. I am going to be all alone and it's slightly creepy.

[Imii]

I love you and I still think a lot about you. You matter so much to me. I wanna see you happy and smiling all the time. I wish you were mine but I know that’s not possible. Life is hard and I hate myself for loving you so much.

I am so exhausted, haven't been getting a good night's sleep in days now.

Also, I hope I'm not getting a cold otherwise I won't be able to have my procedure tomorrow.

[Tigereyes]

I really want to get high so I can feel better for once

I woke up extremely anxious. To the point that I wanted to call in sick to work. I didn't. I'm here and in about 20 minutes I have to go in a be a productive worker.

Stressed out about some stuff I have to do today. Hopefully it won't be as bad as I am imagining it being.

Ready to go home. So done with this.

[Rivière]

There's a person who has been playing what seems to be the exact same song over and over since 8 AM this morning. 5 hours later and it's STILL going. They must really love that song!

My heart is totally breaking right now.

Wish my memory wasn't so splotchy.

Need to stop giving my all to people who won't repricoate.

I'm feeling overly depressed today. I was okay this morning except for the anxiety. Now I really just want to die and I'm contemplating cutting

So sick of being tired all the time.

The anxiety induced difficulty breathing has begun. Yay! Another day at that dreaded place

The rain isn't helping that dread I am feeling about going to work.

My body is still an hour off, and daylight savings ended ten days ago.

Pretty sure my body decided to get sick. Puts a damper on everything and I have to try and figure out how to get to urgent care