Triggering: Complaint of the Day 2

I spent a bit more on my nails. I didn't go over my budget but it would have been nice to be under.

I also found out my subscription box won't be shipping till the 30th so that means that it won't be here till May. That's the one thing I was looking to get me through the next week.

[Storyteller.]

I'm pretty sure I have a chest infection, which at least partly explains why I've felt so lousy lately.

I gave myself anxiety for no reason!

My anxiety is bad and it's making it hard to concentrate or breath. I try telling people but they don't know what to do. My boyfriend talks to me about it. Everyone else just ignores it and expects me to be fine.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I am so exhausted but have so much to do. I've been up since just before four this morning (not on purpose) after being woken up at one because someone set off our alarm.

I am struggling with how open I have been lately. It's not safe.

[Celyn]

Originally Posted by ~Abibliophobe~

I am struggling with how open I have been lately. It's not safe.

The same lol

[Tigereyes]

I really want to get high right now... everything is constantly too much.

[Everglow.]

Human beings are literally the worst. Keep your mouth closed if it doesn't hurt or concern you and stop making people feel like shit for nothing. Literally making life harder for people. You don't know their story and not everyone needs you to be a warrior for them at other people's expense.

[Nala.]

Not feeling good physically. Allergies suck.

Anxiety is the worst. Everything is surreal

[Kintsukuroi.]

So not ready for this final today.

I have no desire to do what I need too because anxiety.

[Tigereyes]

No one understands my experiences yet they judge me for it, and I'm so sick of dealing with this shit. I just want to drop out of college, but it's too late. Will there ever be a day that college doesn't make me want to die?

I don't feel prepared in the least. I did my best while dealing with anxiety.

[Nala.]

Being sick sucks.

The gardener is here and the loud noises are triggering me. It's usually not this bad but I've been on edge all day and now it's worse.

[fairyviolet75]

I really hate my little sister. She's always taking it out on me whenever she is in a bad mood or whenever she feels like it. What the f? It's not my fault you're such a little bitch. I should a join a group named "Everyone with annoying little sisters" or something

[Tigereyes]

I'm too worn out to do homework, and finals week essentially starts next week. Caffeine isn't helping enough. How am I supposed to do all this work and study? My body is quitting on me. Will I end up in the hospital because of college again? Hopefully not 'til after finals are over.

Have stuff to do and not feeling good. Feel sick to my stomach and have a headache. Might have to go lie back down

Every step I take forward leaves me further behind. It's frustrating the hell out of me, and I'm losing my patience. I can't deal with this right now.

Slept in and wish I could sleep in some more.

It's not a huge thing but I ordered some used books online and the companies shipped a lot of them out separately.

The mail man is going to hate me and think I ordered them one at a time. I didn't.

I only got 3-4 hours of sleep last night.

[Tigereyes]

Finals week has only just begun, but I'm already struggling

I triggered my anxiety

Having some trouble breathing. I hate this time of year due to the breathing issues I am having.

[Nala.]

I'm so sleepy.

Got great news yesterday but my anxiety is causing me to freak out. Yay for anxiety!

[Tigereyes]

This is too much to handle. I want to get high, but I can't do that right now because it's finals week.

[Tigereyes]

Been taking benadryl to sleep, and I think it's fucking with my memory.

I still have a bit of cleaning left to do which is always frustrating.

[Tigereyes]

I know it's not my business if you're talking about me or not, and I know you said it's not bad things about me, but I'm so paranoid about that, and it doesn't go away. I'm pretending not to be anxious and paranoid with not knowing what you did or didn't say about me to someone I don't trust, but I'm not sure I'm okay with it. But I want to do whatever is best for you, whatever that means for me. And I won't ask you again because that went badly last time, so I'll just let this anxiety consume me and learn how to put on a face to say everything's fine. I'm sorry..

Headache and cannot breath!

I would prefer not going shopping today but I need to try.

[Tigereyes]

Took one final and now my brain and body are completely shutting down. But there's still two more to go...

[Tigereyes]

No one can handle my shit. That's okay, neither can I.

I am struggling so much.
It will be okay.
My mind will stop racing!

Being a perfectionist is killing me. I stayed up late, I studied so much, I did all the assignments. I thought I understood the material and I worked so hard in this class but I still ended up with an A-. I needed the final to raise my grade by 1%, instead, it decreased by grade by 3%. I'm barely holding on to the A-. My GPA will drop to 3.9 because of this. This isn't the end of the world. My future career is not lost because I have a less-than-perfect GPA. My scholarship is not gone because I'm no longer at a 4.0. Everything is going to turn out fine, but I can't eat. If I can't have perfect grades, I can control my body. I'll be fine. I can do this.

[Tigereyes]

Anxiety about this final exam is so bad that I can't study for the exam I'm anxious about