Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Heretic]

I'm entirely certain that you don't need to be condescending, patronizing, insulting, or an all-around cunt in order to elaborate on your preferred routines for certain events and operations, as per unofficial policy. It may shock you to know that you can educate, inform, and assist your subordinates without simultaneously belittling them. But with such a bloated ego that's been allowed to go unchecked for this many years, I know it won't stop until either you are removed from your position due to your abject incompetence, or you retire with your entirely unearned accruement of exponentially more than other people who work far harder than you ever will.

[Everglow.]

London traffic makes me want to hurt people

[Chai.]

I need sleep and a break! Well, I will settle for some more coffee! -.-

[Clarent]

Sleeping went to shit. I'm not officially back to square one. Fuck my life.

[Celyn]

I'm already triggered, the last thing I want to hear is about prison failings in the news. I don't even know what to think anymore.

[Chai.]

I can't do this anymore. I cannot deal with the stress. I just want to sit in a corner and feel safe or not feel anything at all. The panicky feeling won't go and it's hard to work around it. I am so done with adulting. I am so done with responsibilities. I am so fucking done with everything. If only someone would take the time out to understand what I am going through instead of just assuming I am fine and happy and expect things from me, it'd be nice for a change. I am so fucking fed up of pretending. I hate how just when things were settling down I am feeling all these fucked up emotions which I don't know to deal with. Urgh! Gah adulting!

[Calaer]

I hate that you act like I'm the bad guy, when I'm putting myself out on a line to help get you what you want. I'm doing all that I can, and if you can't see that, then figure it out on your own, because I'm no longer risking myself for you.

No matter what I do. I'm the bad guy.

[Everglow.]

I don't feel like today is a good day.

[Clarent]

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[Calaer]

I hate to see so many people being put down. We should be lifting others up and rallying around them to give them support. Why do we think it's a good thing, or the right thing to hurt others. This isn't how things are supposed to be.

[BreathingIn]

The entire town is mowing their lawns today and I'm ready to rip my hair out. MAKE IT STOP. The loud buzzing mowers are driving me nuts.

[Kate*]

I'm starting to remember why I didn't do that, aside from it being creepy. It's giving me a weird feeling that I don't like, making me remember good things I don't want to remember losing, and making me want something else that I'll never have.

No sleep again, awesome. At least I got a few good hours in before the depression hit; hopefully this isn't the beginning of a long slide, but I'm expecting it to be. Went back to a hobby I haven't done in about a year and realized very quickly why I stopped doing it. within 30 minutes I had fallen completely apart.

It's official, I wasn't wrong, I'll never be okay again and this pain will never go away. I want to tell you everything and have you make it okay, but it'll never happen so I'll have to move on without it unless I get a miracle. At the same time, I don't know if I could face him.

SERIOUSLY?!?! Everyone but me and everything I've been through! You'd better have a good plan because I can't take much more of this.

[Resilient]

WHY WON'T YOU HELP ME? It's just your job for Christ sake. I really, really need help with this and you go and ignore me. Why in the hell am I keeping you employed for me? Well guess what? I'm talking to another case management service tomorrow if you don't respond.

I had so much I wanted to do on summer break and now I'm probably going to be a nervous wreck. I have an article or two I want to work on. Maybe tomorrow after my doctor appointment and going to the used book store I'll consider tackling a portion of the article. At least I got the letter of recommendation from my teacher.

[jamdoughnut]

I know you are looking for a sea that lies beyond your reach
But I'm hoping my heart can stop you before you reach the beach
I know you have places to go
I know that you want the sea
But I'm hoping my heart will grow
And that you'll come back to me
I know you have places to go
I know that you want the sea
But I'm hoping my heart will grow
And that you'll come back to me

I think I'm at my wit's end with this pining and nostalgia. I just don't want to bother with it anymore! Go away, go far, far away and never return please! I'm trying to 'collect' information and I'm just like what-fucking-ever, man. What-fucking-ever. Can we not anymore?

Hate that I've been sitting here all day doing absolutely nothing. It makes me not even want to bother with getting ready to go out in a little bit. I think sitting here doing nothing for the past seven hours has caused me to be at my wit's end with the pining and nostalgia as well.

I don't want to wait another ten days for my appointment with my primary care practitioner.

Just make this pain stop.

[Calaer]

For someone who complains that their friends ditch them, and hate them all the time, you would think you'd be more considerate of people who make plans with you, but I suppose not.

[Everglow.]

My hamster is sick. I don't want to do this again..

[Everglow.]

Called the vet for an emergency or life threatening situation and was told they'd call me back. They did. 2 and a half hours later. After my hamster had died.

[Celyn]

Feel sick and tired. Not done much today. Ugh, it just means more to do tomorrow.

Still in the ER. It's been five hours and there's almost no one here. What's taking so long?

[Celyn]

Got nothing done today. Still feel sick. So many things annoying me. All I want to do is cry, sleep and be hugged.

[jamdoughnut]

My god please dont let him do this.... help me...
help him....

[Kate*]

I think I got a splinter in my tongue from the ice cream bar stick.

Some days are worse than others, but I think it will always haunt me. I want your help, but there's nothing you can do. Part of me hopes it haunts them too, but I know it doesn't.

You did say to let you know if I need anything and I'm starting to think you might really mean it, but I've been burned with this before and I'm not sure this qualifies, or if I want to use a favor on it; even if you are the only one I can think of who might be able to do anything. When I pull someone else into these situations it puts them in very awkward positions. My family members are one thing, but you're different. If I do nothing, it just continues to torture me, no problem.

My head is killing me, 3 doses of medication over the last 5 hours have done almost nothing and I'm sick too.

[Calaer]

I'm kind of disappointed with how things have turned out. I sorta knew things were going to end up like this, but I was just in hopes that it wouldn't be so bad.

[Harry24]

I just can't stop feeling embarrassed. I don't know how not to feel depressed about the situations.

[Calaer]

I hate this.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I just knew it.....

No one fucking cares about me.....

I'm better off dead anyway.....

You guys will finally get your wish.....

[jamdoughnut]

~I love you but your so annoying. I'm kind of scared to see what your going to be like in the future.

~thank God your ok. Please stay that way, you don't need to hurt anyone, or yourself. Please know that. I'm here for you.

[Clarent]

There is nothing. There is nothing. There is nothing.

[Kate*]

Stupid anxiety freaking me out for no reason. They're not starting interviews until Monday, so mine is NEXT Friday, not this Friday, I know she said the 10th, not the 3rd so why am I paranoid about missing it?! I guess if I do go on the wrong day it'd be a sign. The ONE TIME I couldn't write it down and I already blew off an interview with this manager so I REALLY hope I got it right.

This is seriously going to haunt me for the rest of my life, it's getting ridiculous. I've tried all of that, I do it every day, it still isn't doing any good.

I really wish contacting you would fix this. It's haunting me and I want my old life back!!!

My self-everything is non-existent and I can't trust anyone or anything to save my life. That leaves me with one option. It's not what I want, but it's better than this life-long hell. I can't even seek help because, not only do I still dream of working from the other side of the couch, when you taught me how to be one and then revoked the possibility, it became too painful and all I learned was how to lie and get away with it.

[MyVisionIsDying]

That's not my name! You don't know me as much anymore, and I'm tired of having to share a room with you. I want my own fucking room but as always I was too fucking late to move into the spare room. Fuck you, I don't know how to feel about you anymore...

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I wish I was dead.....

[jamdoughnut]

Does every week have to be a new kind of hell? When does this end?
since February, every single week has somehow been more painful than the last. I dojt know how this happens. I thought last week was bad, with me failing everything there is to fail and not being able to get up in the morning, with this week having one of my only friends have a major crisis and almost kill himself, his dog, and others. And after dealing with this for four days straight, non stop to make sure that he doesnt hurt anyone, i have to then go report him. Ive lost his trust, he feels betrayed, and now he feels that he cant come to me anymore; by getting him the help he needed i made his life hell, and all the while people say im a hero for saving these lives. Im not. How does that make me a hero? Everyone is happy except for him, the only one who actually needed a hero. I did what anyone shouldve done, there was nothing extraordinary about it. Sadly. So while im trying to stay standing on my own two feet and fighting with teachers, im texting in class to make sure hes ok and living in fear that hes already hurt someone. And now hes probably in a hospital, and they wont tell me anything about it, so i cant ever see him again.
My god, i need help.

[NeuroBeautiful]

feeling so overwhelmed.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

Why bother trying anymore?

I'm just a burden and a nuisance.

Why am I still alive?

[jamdoughnut]

Something doesn't feel right.....
There's something very wrong here....

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I don't deserve to be alive.....

Someone kill me please.....

I want/need to die.....