Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[THE FAPMAN]

I tried. I didnt make it.
People just dont like me.
I give up. Fuck you everyone.

[Em.]

Maths exam today and my stomach is going to rumble

[johnpatric]

Don't ever mistake my silence. for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance and my kindness for weakness..

[THE FAPMAN]

Will you stop shitting on me you fuck.
Terorising the entire fucking family because youre fucking bored in your little retarded world. Fuck you. Fuck. You.

[Forging Galaxies]

Oh no... no, fuck!

This can't be happening.

[kodz]

It hurts and it sucks but I have no other choice, I'll have to find a way to deal with it.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I just want to fucking want to disappear forever, be 6 feet under, or at least hurt. I can't fucking handle this. I'm. Not. Strong. Enough. Too many fucking thoughts, too much going on. I fucking give up. I give up, they win.

[Tigerlily.]

I thought I could trust you, I'm sorry for being me, I'm sorry you took things the wrong way, but that gave you no right to do what you did, especially when you thought I was fucking sleeping in the first place you piece of shit!

[Forging Galaxies]

Why is this day so fucking shit?

I can't function...

[Lumos.]

I really don't want to see you at school again. You told me that you cared about me and that we'd talk and you've ignored me, again.

[Kate*]

Now I need to pass the test and hope that the faculty decide to give me clients because I DESERVE them and to deny me that now, unless I fail the test would be unbelievably cruel.

[Adam the Fish]

We could have been friends. But oh no, you have a sting in your tail, so you have to hurt me.

I am, incidentally, referring to a bee. So the friends thing probably doesn't work.

[Everglow.]

Ugh I feel terrible. Just want to sleep. Literally all the damn time, it's all I can think about doing.

[Forging Galaxies]

Please... don't fucking come, please don't fucking come or I'll rip everything out!!

[Em.]

You know what?

You were the one person who I trusted and now look we are basically strangers.
And the other wasn't even bothered about me anyway you know I'm hurting

I just wanna tie a rope round my neck and kick the chair. Maybe I should

[Forging Galaxies]

No... not again.

[KymPerson]

I am so irresponsible. So. Fucking. Irresponsible. I like the internet more than cleaning, and that has made everyone hate me. I am a failure of a humanoid, and everyone who doubted me was right.

[Catharsis.]

TRIG: Complete disillusionment.

It's strange how things can seem so certain, and then fall apart within days. Everything is so transient.

In general, the actual world around you doesn't change. It's as shit as it ever was. I'm fucking sick of looking around me and seeing nothing but bleakness and injustice everywhere. Shit things happen to good people and good things happen to shit people. Rich countries blow up kids and hoard wealth from large sections of their own populations. Everyone I see on the streets of my hometown is slowly dying a painful death, not just from the disease and deprivation we have in abundance here, but from the weight of living in general. Belief in karma is comfort for the despairing, but not for me, as all I ever see is the reverse.

However, the more subtle things that really create the bigger picture, they fucking change too quick. Nothing shapes the world more than its inhabitants. The wool can't be kept over your eyes for a few minutes or you're out of touch. It's why I should never depend on anything good lasting long. Because the mat can and will be pulled from under my feet and I'll fall rapidly. All the good things I actually came close to believing about myself and this life, they turn out to be lies.

All my life, I've just been something people could do without. Something people wanted to distance themselves from. Something people rightly detested and feared being like. They were bloody well right all the fucking way along.

[Koharuchan]

You are such a bitch. Don't even start with me, after what you did to me today, I was ready to just walk right out the front door. I'm so sick of living here. I swear when my fiancé comes home from basic training next summer, I'm out of here the day he gets back.

[Kate*]

I still have to pass this test and I am NOT ready for it And even if I do, they can still decide that I can't see clients and if that happens, it's all over I will be forced to walk away after getting as close to my dream as possible without ever realizing it and that would be my breaking point.

I understand that that takes awhile, but they are making the decision in 3 weeks and I still have no report from you containing the accommodations that could keep my dream alive in the event that they decide to give up on me. Please get them to me ASAP because to get them too late would be too much for me to handle.

If you would CLEAN THE FING LITTERBOX he wouldn't do that!

[Doodle.]

I have hives again >____< I have no idea why. They're so itchy >____< I'm sick of my body.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I have fucking tried my best. I didn't succeed. I give up with trying, what's stopping me from leaving tonight? Nothing. Everyone will be okay eventually. I just want to fucking leave and be gone buried 6 feet under. I can't do this. It's too fucking hard. I just want to leave. I hate my fucking thoughts, the stupid memories and certain people in my fucking life. I am so done. Just want all this to go away. Ugh.
Now fucking time to put on my "I'm okay face" and play pretend till I can go home and cry and numb the fucking pain or better yet sleep forever.

[Em.]

why would you ask a girl how long she lasted and ask her loads of questions about her having sex when im right here..

[Lumos.]

so fucking triggered, really want to relapse

[Nightblood.]

Holy fucking nightmare

[Kintsukuroi.]

Everything I do is wrong. I fucking piss everyone off in some way shape or form. I'm sorry I'm such a freaking pain in the ass, that I'm such a bother. Just leave, everyone does at some point. I get that, I'm not important, nor am I useful. I guess I'm nothing but a stupid worthless annoying bitch. Don't worry, I'll save you the burden. Goddammit. I have had enough.

Don't worry S.. I will leave you alone. Thanks for proving that I really am worthless. Oh and fucking next time you're going to talk about me, MAKE SURE YOU DON"T TEXT THE MESSAGE TO ME IDIOT.

I'm done thinking that anyone care. No one cares. No one.

[Kate*]

Please tell me that I'm not going to get side effects like crazy with these like I did with the other ones. They are my only option.

[Twinge]

PUT IT ON PAPER, PUT IT ON PAPER, PUT YOUR THOUGHTS ON PAPER...
WHY DO YOU KEEP FORGETTING THOUGHTS...
WHY FREAKING WHY...

I thought having your forehead grow taller is a good thing but omg girl, obtain your skills right!!

[Em.]

no no no please no please

if you do cancel drama, the only fucking thing keeping me going

I will walk out that meeting

jump off the bridge.

[Kate*]

[font="Arial"]I NEED this report to stay in this, please send it ASAP

You are the second person in 6 months to tell me that. WHY DID IT TAKE 26 YEARS TO FIGURE OUT??!![/FONT

Please don't let this "Different learning path" be the end of the career I've wanted for more than half of my life. I know you said that you saying that didn't mean that I would have to delay it again, but it does kind of confirm my fear that being confident that I'm ready doesn't mean that it's not going to fall apart. I want to believe and focus on what you said, but history is making me paranoid that you were sugarcoating something else. The tendency to misinterpret may be caused by the same thing that put me on a "different learning path" and not just "my own stuff."

[Kintsukuroi.]

What is the fucking point. I give up. No one freaking gives a crap. Everything is falling apart.

Oh. And I would appreciate if you would fucking shut your stupid mouth douchbag. Thanks.

[Kindred]

One mistake will haunt you your entire life. Be warned.

[Astrophile.]

For fuck's sake.

[Kate*]

There is NO WAY IN HELL that my IQ is that low and these accommodations are obsolete so this was pointless and I am doomed to fail at life so I should give up now. Also doesn't help that I have a test in 2 days that even if I passed, would do me no good since my career is going to fall apart anyway.

Okay, so my IQ score has more to do with what the test is measuring than my actual intelligence, so it's NOT that low, there is just a big difference between scores on the two types of measurements so I feel much better about that, but the rest of this stands.

[mindflower]

YOU LIED TO ME GODDAMNIT YOU STILL LOVE HER AND YOU SCREWED ME OVER.
YOU LIED.
YOU DID USE ME, THAT'S ALL THERE IS TO IT.
GOD. WHAT DOES SHE HAVE THAT I DON'T ANYWAYS?!? SPIT IT OUT! WHAT'S SO BAD ABOUT ME???
besides everything.

You are a swine.
You are a swine.
And you are a swine too.

[¯|_(ツ)_|¯]

FUCK I hate everything. Why do I even fucking bother. :/ So frustrated and done with college and I haven't even started.

[Forging Galaxies]

Maybe I'm just a loser...

I always ruin everything!
I'll tell you why, because I'm ugly, pathetic and shit.

[Kate*]

PLEASE tell me I'm ready for this test tomorrow because
1. I've heard it's really easy and
2. I just can't study anymore

Even passing doesn't guarantee continuation of my program because I am BRAIN DAMAGED yet mostly "average" and I still HAVE to pass this.

I saw today that the grade change was approved so WHY is my grade still the SAME??!!

[Forging Galaxies]

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Jordioa18]

The reason my days are all behind a laptop, is because THERE AIN'T MUCH SHIT TO DO OUTDOORS EXCEPT FOR WORK! I really fucking wish summer is over so that I can make new friends and have a new life in college!

Brittany, how in the fuck did you get grounded? It's been a week already, if you're using it as a excuse to cheat, I'm leaving your ass on the spot! And I'ma follow through on that!