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The excitement and emotions I have fade so fast. I wish I could be excited about things for longer before I start worrying about something else.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
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I. Am. So. Fucking. Stupid.
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December 16th 2013, 06:28 PM
It was there and now it's not, and that's not the one I deleted PLEASE FIX IT before I need it. Unless this is a sign.
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December 16th 2013, 07:23 PM
My mom is going to drive me insane. At this point I won't make it to Florida.
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December 17th 2013, 04:01 AM
GOD THEY'RE SO... GAH! Ignore me for weeks, and then all of the sudden want to hug me and actually acknowledge my existence just so you can tell me: you hate me, want to kill me, hope I stop destroying myself but won't care if I don't, you hate Pat, and your lives suck more than mine.
Thanks Matt. Thanks Cody.
Fuck you both. What "friends" you are.
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December 17th 2013, 04:24 AM
I really need to cut. I think I'm going to relapse soon. I just want it all to stop. I don't know. I'm aching for the blade. And everything is adding up and I can't help but want to. I'm in denial. Maybe I'm insane. And I fucking hate myself for being like this.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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December 17th 2013, 04:28 AM
Why can't I just let go of all this and be normal for once?
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December 17th 2013, 05:37 AM
I'm so fucking stupid, I keep thinking that i'm alright and doing better then something happens and i go back down and want to cut again. I can't handle the ups and downs anymore.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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December 17th 2013, 12:00 PM
Am I trying to convince people I'm fine or just convince myself?
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December 17th 2013, 06:33 PM
I'm starting to think your controlling nature is quite disturbing. Can't wait to leave 
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December 17th 2013, 08:45 PM
Kill me already.
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December 17th 2013, 08:53 PM
Most people I come into contact with, including you, make me feel completely fucking worthless; You ask what you can do to help me, I ask you to focus on what I do right and convince me that I'm not completely incompetent and you tell me that that's my job not yours. Then when I tell you I'm seriously considering quitting because I have NO confidence in my ability to do this, you have the NERVE to tell me that I put myself in that position. I can't fucking believe this!!! Take responsibility for what you said and stop acting like you had nothing to do with it.
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December 18th 2013, 04:19 AM
Really a 2.8 gpa. i'm just so fucking stupid and i'm never gonna get anywhere....
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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December 18th 2013, 05:23 AM
My head hurts. I did it to myself. My makeup wouldn't cover the black and blue. I deserve it.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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December 18th 2013, 07:54 AM
I honestly don't even freaking get it. You never deserved me and you still don't deserve me now. What you are too damn stupid to see is that I am still hopelessly in love with you while you GET OVER ME in a MONTH and fall for some other stupid girl that I happen to KNOW. Oh wait. That's the worst part. You KNOW I am still in love with you. Wow. Just wow. I hate your freaking guts. Oh wait. That's the problem. I'm still in love with you. I can't even believe you... I just can't even believe you. And now here I am.. unable to sleep after a complete nervous breakdown....brilliant. Aren't you happy now?
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December 20th 2013, 05:20 AM
I'm in danger from myself. So anxious. Can't stop shaking. I hate body memories. Triggered.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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I'm as sane as I ever was.
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December 20th 2013, 07:15 AM
Stop trying to leave. Please. I need you.
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December 20th 2013, 11:23 AM
Three hours of sleep.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
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December 21st 2013, 08:40 PM
Where are you? 
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December 22nd 2013, 07:31 PM
So fucking fat, ugly, and disgusting. Everybody fucking hates my guts.
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December 23rd 2013, 06:59 AM
Two in the morning and I can't sleep. This is just wonderful.
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December 23rd 2013, 08:12 PM
You're not a real man. A real man would drive hours to keep her company. I real man would be willing to take off work to stay home while she's sick. A real man wouldn't neglect her, her thoughts or her feelings. A real man would treat her with respect, and with an endless amount of love.
You're someone who gives men a bad name. You're not a man, you're a boy.
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December 25th 2013, 04:53 AM
This time of year is so incredibly triggering. It was like clockwork, every year. I'm ashamed. An ashamed slut. Just make it January already. 
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
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December 25th 2013, 06:01 AM
Oh, just be quiet already!!! Why can't you be proud of me! I manage to get scholarships and get into a good college! More than you ever did!! And what do I hear 'oh maybe if you got excellent grades, like your friend Desiree, may be you can actually do something that will be good for you.' What the hell!!! Just because I know I can be just as smartas dezy doesnt mean I want to. I want to enjou my life as it comes not study myself to no end. And I already gave up on what Iwwanted to do and chose an other career and yet your still not happy!?!?! I dont want to be a doctor or a lawyer like you always nag me to be!! I want to sing! But you said no, so I went to technology. But no!! JUST SHUT UP ALREADY!
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SHOW THEM THAT WHAT THEY DO IS NOT GOING TO STOP YOU
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December 25th 2013, 04:02 PM
Why do you have to remind me how ugly I am EVERY SINGLE DAY?
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December 26th 2013, 12:07 AM
Honestly I'd walk to see you.
Thanks a lot, mom, for taking me away from him...
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December 26th 2013, 01:03 AM
I just wish today was over with already. Today has just been the worst day ever.
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December 26th 2013, 04:21 AM
For once, I want to hear you say it back.
Just once.
"I love you too."
Just.
Once.
So dance if it moves you,
and jump in the fire, if it burns you.
I'll throw my arms around you darlin',
and we'll turn to ashes.
Kinda like the way you tell me,
"Baby, please come home. I need you here right now.
I'm crying underwater so you don't hear the sound."
What if I can't forget you?
I'll burn your name into my throat.
I'll be the fire that'll catch you.
What's so good about picking up the pieces?
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December 26th 2013, 04:28 AM
This picture shows exactly how I feel about you. You got mad at me for the same thing you're doing, yet it's okay when you do it. Then, you didn't tell me about her, lied to me, lied to HER, AND you expected me to be your backup while you went to try and date her. I'm not yours anymore, so leave me alone. Haven't you done enough already?
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December 26th 2013, 04:48 AM
Thanks for agreeing that i'm fucked up, its really nice of you...
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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December 26th 2013, 09:23 AM
I feel like I don't have the right to love someone.
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December 26th 2013, 04:44 PM
I feel gross in general. And moody.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
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December 26th 2013, 06:40 PM
You're so full of shit.
I just wanted to be liked. But you're just as unaccepting as the real world.
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December 27th 2013, 12:13 AM
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Headache.
Plus my mum was all, "It's probably because you've been in bed too long"
No.
It's because if you remember that time I went to the doctors they said I have a damaged neck muscle.
Sleeping in certain positions now produces headache upon waking.
Sigh.
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December 27th 2013, 01:59 PM
Well, weighing myself this morning was a mistake. I even underestimated how fat I am. So, I've set goals for daily calorie intake and the weight I eventually want to be, I'll get there in no time. Fuck off, Mam, I don't want lunch. Or dinner later. Cheers. Let me be. I want to cut the shit out of myself. Look at the state of me. So big and fat and ugly. I wish I could slash my thighs into pieces and cut all the fucking fat out of them. I'm so worthless. The numbers need to be lower. I need to look better. I should be better. But it's impossible. Why can't I just die already?
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December 27th 2013, 05:31 PM
I finally get the fuck to sleep but have a nightmare anyway. It's only twelve thirty. It should be later than that. Damn it. I wish I could take a remote and fast forward through time. I wish you fucking cared. But don't worry, there's no need to pretend to even care!
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
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December 27th 2013, 05:54 PM
Why am I such a hypocrite?!
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December 27th 2013, 07:35 PM
You are in the office for another 45 minutes so I got your voice mail because...
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December 28th 2013, 03:18 AM
I can't fucking take it!
I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I DON'T THINK I CAN LIVE THIS LIFE ANYMORE BEING SO SCARED AND RECKLESS AND WORTHLESS.
I just can't fight this fight.
My leg hurts from cutting again after I thought I was going to last. I have a perfect boyfriend and my family is all in town and I was doing pretty good, 1 Month self harm free and then fuck it I can't even make it through one silly trigger and bam I have to talk myself out of sawing my arm off or putting a fucking rope around my neck!
Why can't I just be happy! It was just Christmas! I got a phone and some beats and a lot of band merch and my family is in town and my boyfriend might actually like me but honestly it's too dark in my head to let any of that stuff matter.
Matthew wants me dead. Mimi doesn't want me to be her friend anymore. Jack and Cody and god knows who else hate me. My parents are fighting more than ever. My boyfriend is talking to me less and less and I'm scared I'm losing him. My family doesn't understand, my friends don't, hell I'm not even sure TeenHelp understands me anymore because here I am complaining when I should just. Be. Happy.
I hate myself every single second and actually want to leave this life behind. I don't think I deserve love, or happiness, or the air I'm breathing anymore. I just don't give a shit what happens to me, if I die tomorrow I don't want anyone to care or cry or even notice that I'm gone. I just want to hide under my bed and never come out because I know no one will miss me. I'd be doing this world a favor because really I'm such a piece of shit that I'm too worthless for anything above existence.
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December 28th 2013, 04:18 PM
Thanks. Thanks, assholes. It's always my goddamned fault, right? So you all snap at me and make me feel like shit. I was dreading this stupid lunch to begin with so thanks for making it a whole hell of a lot worse! I'm so fucking fed up with you people. I don't even know you anymore. So don't go around acting like you know me because you barely know anything about my life.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
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