Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

I so don't want to do this anymore. On top of that I got all of 3 hours of sleep last night and I have a presentation today and I get to walk across campus in the dark and the freezing cold and it may not even make a difference.

[Chris]

You aren't above the law. Just because you're late for a meeting doesn't mean you can speed, drive reckless, and endanger pedestrians.

[nothereanymore]

Do you really have to open your mouth every time you walk into a room?

[Kindred]

I'm so, so worried. Please be okay.

[nothereanymore]

Could you act less like you care?
Done with today. Already.

[hocus pocus]

Please, stop. I had just calmed down and now I'm about to cry because of you. I just want respect. I don't ask for much.

[Storyteller.]

Okay, if there's any other parts of my body that would like to muck up, now would be a great time. Let's just have everything screw up at once so I can have a miserable weekend and then get over it.

[Kindred]

Well, he was okay. But in the process of panicking about him I lost his anniversary present and now need to order a new one. xD

[hocus pocus]

I'm putting it together, figuring out why things were the way that they were. It hurts. Badly. I guess my sense of numbness is gone, or is it?

[Lumos.]

I wish i wasn't so pathetic that all i can seemingly do is cry.

[mindflower]

Taylor pull your head out of your ass and stop being such a stupid pathetic slut.
I mean really. Stop. Give up.
Fuck up.

[Catharsis.]

Please be okay. Please. You're all I have.
Shaking.

[Kindred]

Poking fun at me is one thing. Laughing with me about it is another. But full on, proper probing when you can see it's bothering me is just fucking bitchy and I'm not putting up with your shit.

Want him here. :/

[Kate*]

SO want to be done working for today, I put 2 hours in, but I only got about a paragraph done. I guess I could consider that a section. She did say we'd be using the book for that part anyway.

You all find people's strengths for a living and none of you can identify any of mine. All I ever get from you is what I do wrong even when I ASK for what I've done right.That must mean I don't have any strengths in which case WHAT AM I DOING HERE?!

[Phantom_Girl]

I mean this in the nicest way possible. Please stop being so negative and seeing the glass as half empty. Do you realize this is a great opportunity for you and us as well? We're better off than most people so be grateful, and stop crying every time you talk about it. Ty.

[Ral.]

You, my friend, are lucky I can restrain myself now. You're lucky you didn't start making unknowing comments last year, otherwise my actions would have been much different.

You have NO FUCKING IDEA about anything you talk about, so please, stop making these comments you moronic, immature, child.

I'll finish this later, need to go.

[blurryface]

i'm sick of what's going on with the skin on my hands
i wish i had nice eyebrows
i wish something about my face was nice
i wish i had nicer hair
i want more tattoos and piercings already
i want to cut
i want these scars to go away
i don't wanna be around her anymore
i don't wanna leave my best friends
i really hate waiting
i'm still stuck in the middle and i think i need to be on different meds
i miss my dad, my stepmom, my grandma
i wanna go home i wanna go home i wanna go home
it doesn't matter if i've taken residence here for seven and a half years
i wanna go home

but the fucking moment i open my mouth to just release how fucking frustrated i am, every single person in this house flips their shit. i'm a human being. i get i'm not perfect, you don't have to keep rubbing it in my face...

[Ral.]

Who the fuck do you think you are?

You are SO lucky that I'm not the person I used to be. If you ever talk to - like that again then I will make you wish you were dead. I will turn your whole world around, pull out the foundations of your life and rip them apart. We'll see how long you can stay up without crumbling, eh?

I am not someone you want to mess with, dear. Believe me. If you untie the demons I tied up long ago then I assure you that you will not want to see what happens when I get mad.

This isn't much of a vent, just know what you've done to -, you've made - cry, you've made - hurt herself before. And I will make you regret that, I put that on everyone I care about's lives.

Get ready to regret the day you were born, bitch.

[Astrophile.]

I need this feeling to go away. It's kinda scaring me.

[hocus pocus]

I need to stop trying to find myself,
I can never be found.

I typed up a blog post but deleted it. There's no point anymore. I can't handle this. I don't know what to do. Things are out of my control and they're getting worse. I want to give up, just lock myself in my room and hibernate. I think I'm going to listen to music and cry myself to sleep like the pathetic little self centered bitch that I am.

[Ral.]

Originally Posted by Enchantment

I need to stop trying to find myself,
I can never be found.

I typed up a blog post but deleted it. There's no point anymore. I can't handle this. I don't know what to do. Things are out of my control and they're getting worse. I want to give up, just lock myself in my room and hibernate. I think I'm going to listen to music and cry myself to sleep like the pathetic little self centered bitch that I am.

I don't think you're pathetic, I think you're quite amazing, actually.

OT: WHY AM I SO ANGRY.

[Lumos.]

I can't handle the faking anymore, even the people who know i'm in a bad place don't even know how bad i am. I have to fake with them too. I just want to end it all, no one would care anyways. i don't know what the fuck to do...

[hocus pocus]

Originally Posted by Ralpanda

I don't think you're pathetic, I think you're quite amazing, actually.

OT: WHY AM I SO ANGRY.

Aw, thanks. <3

My anxiety is making me sick. It won't stop. I need to let go of the past. He can't hurt me anymore.

[Kate*]

Now I don't know what to do, I almost have to go with the coordinator on this, he's never steered me wrong, but Mom means well. I don't see this working and if it doesn't, I'm the one who suffers. I'd ask for a sign, but I think I've gotten it already and the last time I went against it, it was the beginning of this nightmare. I'd love a session right now, but they never called back and I doubt I'd get one on the 4 days I'm available until the semester's over. If only there was a way to get an instructor for that class who respected me, told me what I did right and HELPED when I asked for it, without me having to deal with the people who DON'T do that. Sounds like I need a miracle.

[Konohana Sakuya]

I am a motherfucking hideous living creature, and I always will be. I wonder why a fucking painful red blemish has to exist. Yes, I am talking to you, acne. You are both a pain in the ass and ugly. You don't even deserve to be in the universe because you've ruined most people.

[Lumos.]

another fucking panic attack.... i thought they were gone.

[~fallenangelsflyagain~]

I really don't fucking want to exist. I don't want to have to deal with any of this.
Selfish, yes. But I honestly am finished caring.

[hocus pocus]

What? Why am I just finding out about this? Whatever. You're an asshole. And I might not ever forgive you.

[nothereanymore]

Thanks for making home a happy place to be, bitch. You take and take and take and take. You want everything just so someone else can't have it.

[DanTheMan :P]

Why cant I be someone else? And why are people so ignorant?????

[Kate*]

Fall semester is 2 weeks too long, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE Especially with all this program drama. I just want to be DONE NOW!!

I would REALLY like to get to and from both of my finals WITHOUT getting hit by a car! They had to make them later than normal so I have to go both ways in the dark when I'm NIGHT-BLIND

[Catharsis.]

I'm a fucking idiot. What have I done? What a stupid response. Stupid stupid stupid. Now I've made both of us sad. Both of us will be more upset now because of me. I should just let it be. I was never helpful, supportive or anything. I've been a bully. An emotionally abusive bully. I hate what I've become.

[Ral.]

Why do I need to come home to your shit? Is everything really my fault? I'll think about that next time.

[~fallenangelsflyagain~]

I look like shit and I feel like shit and I swear to fucking god, if this doesn't work out, I am screwed.

[Adam the Fish]

Are you fucking serious!?

[Pirouette]

Stop it. You are no idea how annoying you are.

[nothereanymore]

You're really gonna get upset like this isn't what you wanted?

Alright, Mom, I'll leave you alone. I'll just stay in my room, out of your way, not bothering you, not annoying you, nothing. Rude ass bitch.

[~fallenangelsflyagain~]

You are such a great role model.
Note the fucking sarcasm.
And you wonder why I have an eating disorder?

[hocus pocus]

I don't want to be associated or talked to anymore. No one should even bother. Is there even a reason to be around me? All I am is a waste of breath. Shit, I really fucked up. I'm worried now.

[Ral.]

Ugh, I feel like shit and I'm sick of hiding it. I'm not going to be able to last much longer, my blood feels like it's boiling, I need to find some sort of relief.

Why does this have to be so fucking hard?