Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

Of course I was right again. The attitude must be a personality trait common in people at this level, because every single person I've met in those positions is like that; and I can't fucking stand it. If you get to be management, you don't get to be a condescending asshole who avoids jobs they think are "beneath" them.

Thank God this is my last one of these ever. My least favorite manager, my stomach's a mess, and I'm exhausted already, before I even fucking start. But, if he ends up being there, then I'm leaving.

[Querencia]

The lack of energy is seriously affecting me. It is so difficult to be productive.

[Dawn.]

Hopefully it comes sooner rather than later.

[Hiraeth.]

I don't understand why this isn't healing.

[Kate*]

I'm bottom of the totem pole, and I doubt it'll ever change. An amazing opportunity to network, and I was stuck where I couldn't move and talked to NO ONE. And she is MAJORLY on my nerves, but I'm pretty sure they're talking about me behind my back, so there's that too. Good thing she does that to other people too, and doesn't make the decisions.

Apparently, 3 shifts are enough to make me a morning person, 11pm and I'm already exhausted when I slept in and did nothing all day; ugh.

[Dawn.]

I just want to feel ok for one day...

[Dawn.]

I just can't wait until it's all finished.

[Kate*]

Yeah, I feel like a tattle tale and wonder if I should've said anything. But, I refuse to get blamed for his shit by people who have no right to say anything in the first place.

[Hiraeth.]

Looking forward to September already. Cooler days, sweater weather, PSL, and all that.

[Dawn.]

I no longer want to have any responsibilities.

[Kate*]

I don't want to go in if he ignores me while I spend my entire shift on the register, and have to listen to her bitch. And I have a feeling that's EXACTLY what tomorrow will be 8 hours of.

I fucking hate mornings. Dragging my ass in there super early to clean the toilets, when there are plenty of people for that, and you really need me to close. At least it's only 3 more

[Dawn.]

I don't want to constantly be lacking energy all the time...

[Kate*]

So, if I punch out late because nobody could be bothered to come and cover me within a reasonable amount of time, and I literally wasn't allowed to walk away, you're going to count that against me? You've got to be fucking kidding. At least it resets in October.

[Kate*]

Well, I've been right and wrong, so I'm extending it to Black Friday. You all swear it'll be before then, but watch me be right; again.

I'm exhausted, and even with guaranteed hours, they're still getting cut. So, I don't want to hear anything about you having a shit ton of hours unless I have more than my minimum. But, we went through this last year too.

[Dawn.]

I wish I could just resign today.

[Kate*]

So, yeah I'm a 2-year old that needs therapy. I knew that. Why the stupid rules say we have to have his bullshit schedule instead of his real one? is a mystery to me. How fucking hard is it to tell us the TRUTH about where you are?! That would fix like 90% of my problem. And he feels bad because he knows we need him, so maybe something will finally get done. We're okay until someone else goes down, and I know things you don't yet.

Supporting him while he does what he needs to to get where he wants to go is one thing. Doing his job for him, so he doesn't have to; for God knows how long, is something else entirely. We all want more, nothing wrong with that. But, I can pursue it without needing, or expecting others to pick up my slack. I can want what I know is best for him, and it can still hurt.

[Kate*]

I'm all for supporting him, but that doesn't mean you don't have to do your job! STOP DRAGGING YOUR FEET on this. You should've prepared better, and now this is your mess that we're dealing with the consequences of.

I REALLY don't want to get my hopes up, BUT could this mean what it almost certainly has to mean?!

[Hiraeth.]

I could disappear and you'd never hear from me again. But the only thing stopping me is my financial situation.

[Dawn.]

I'm just taking it one day at a time...

[Starseeker]

I'm constantly running, running, running without end. I don't know how to rest or stop but if I continue this way my whole life's just gonna go by in a flash and I won't even see it happen...

[Kate*]

Well, at least knowing makes it easier, but I'm still disappointed that I probably won't see him for at least 2 weeks. And I said from the beginning, "He goes, I go." And the more I'm there while he isn't, the more sure of that I become. I have a feeling it's coming soon too, and they'll deny it until the ink dries.

[Dawn.]

It's building up again...

[Dawn.]

Let's hope it works out in the end.

[Kate*]

I thought it would be better because she was gone, but it's worse because now it's like having 2 of her. If you're not staying to keep them under control, I'm not staying to put up with it.

[Hiraeth.]

No need to spew hate on the Internet when we already live in such a hateful reality.

[Dawn.]

I don't want to be like this anymore...

[Kate*]

I shouldn't complain, because this is what I wanted, but I will never be a morning person; so early shifts suck. Especially after closing. And, it looks like at least 2 more weeks before I see my favorite manager At least I know he's not going anywhere, but this is ridiculous.

[Dawn.]

Just taking it one day at a time...

[Kate*]

25 more days until that's finally over, and then 2-4 weeks more depending on who you believe, before he's FINALLY back where he belongs for more than 2 seconds. It shouldn't affect me this much, but it does. "It'll go by faster than you think, and I'll be here so much you'll get sick of me." And I can't wait.

[Dawn.]

I hope it all goes to plan...

[Hiraeth.]

I'm done.

[Kate*]

1 day of this shit and I already fucking can't, to the point that he has to come in when he wasn't expecting to, to deal with them. Until you get your ass back in consistently, it's taking everything in me not to punch these people. I give up, and I'm done. I know you know what learned helplessness is, and it's setting in HARD until we get back to normal. Because until then, nothing will change.

[Kate*]

I can't wait for it to finally be over. Hoping 2 more weeks, but could be up to 6 total. Considering the events of Tuesday, we're all at our breaking point.

[Kate*]

I guess it really doesn't matter, as long as he's coming back (and they've all guaranteed that after this last one, he's ours again indefinitely.) especially if I can get a hold of him while he's gone if I REALLY need to. But, I hit the management lottery, and it's changed because he's gone so much and I don't like it.

[Dawn.]

One day at a time...

[Dawn.]

I just wish I had more energy...

[Kate*]

I really wish I wasn't this excited. There's a good chance he'll be gone by the time I get there, I have a feeling he's leaving again, and the whole thing screams "unhealthy" But, at least if he does go, it's only for 2 more weeks and then it's all over. We are going over ALL the changes, sir. Because I NEED to know what's coming and prepare.

[Dawn.]

I don't know why I do this to myself...

[Kate*]

My life would be SO much easier if major adjustments like that weren't dropped on me without notice, and if she calmed the fuck down. I know this isn't sensory related, which means it's just too many unexpected things at once; most of which I don't like!

I want to (and at this point should) be high enough on the totem pole that I'm not the first, or only one interrupted to do the things no one else wants to do, and then get bitched at for getting nothing done!. If you're going to go based on hierarchy, then it needs to apply to everybody. Flexibility is one thing, but unfairness is something else.

[Dawn.]

There's lights on but no ones home...