Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Dawn.]

The joys of being sick.

[Kate*]

Our oven finally died and the TV is acting up. At least once it's fixed or replaced, it'll be over with. But, we now have a ton of frozen food we can't make and I don't want to think about how expensive it'll be.

[Starseeker]

Our lives make no sense whatsoever. Just admit it.

Why does it seem to be one thing after another with all these aches and pain?

[Dawn.]

I'm just so tired of being anxious all the time.

[Kate*]

You seriously need to fucking chill. And since you ended up keeping me until 10, I was technically owed the second break I never got. I really hope we're working under him tomorrow, because as much as I hate closing with him, he's easier to deal with. Much less nitpicking and nagging.

[Everglow.]

I wish I wasn't me anymore

You already pushed me away a long time ago. I'm just here to keep up appearances.

[Kate*]

I know it doesn't technically qualify as micromanaging, but I will forever hate having to constantly check in with, and respond to management while being told what to do and when I can take my breaks. I'm there, I'm doing my job, that's all you need to know. I don't need my only break less than 2 hours in if I'm staying almost 8. Or, put me in the back room, let me process and run clothes all day, and LEAVE ME ALONE

I might be getting sick, and without paid sick time, I'll have to work through it unless I'm dying.

[Dawn.]

I wish I wasn't like this all the time.

[Soda_Voxel]

I think I'll just sleep all day tomorrow. And talk to nobody. I hate myself and it's making me hate everyone else.

[Kate*]

It's not horrible, but it's not great either. Once she's gone, it'll be better, but is the one manager worth staying for through the nitpicking, micromanaging, and the pay cut?

I apologized because I needed to, not because someone had to tell me to. But, this attitude is becoming a problem.

[Dawn.]

Let's hope this feeling doesn't stay for too long...

[Kate*]

I figured it out. When I told him it was easiest to give me a task and let me go, he listened, they didn't. If you tell me to do something, you have to let me DO it. Or, I'm going to wonder why you don't just do it yourself.

You BETTER have mentioned that to everybody, but saying it and drilling it into us isn't going to do a damn thing if you don't accept that working our asses off isn't keeping up, and it not looking touched is because it's being touched and not because we aren't doing a good enough fucking job.

sore throat is a bad sign. Last time it was nothing, but being sick sucks.

[Everglow.]

I'm just so tired of it all

[Starseeker]

Maybe I will never wake up from the anaesthesia.

My body is constant snap, crackle, pop!

[Dawn.]

I'm slowly creeping towards the end of my patience.

[Kate*]

Right. Because you hadn't just seen me in the back and knew I was INCAPABLE of getting that. And thought that I didn't hear you the first 3 times you've told me. But, no. Let's make sure to say something! It's never enough is it?

[Starseeker]

If life looks like this, then I don't want to be alive.

[Dawn.]

I just want all of this to go away...

[Starseeker]

Everything is crumbling down. First he lost his job, now I am going to lose my two jobs as well. I hate my life so much, I've always hated it, I just don't see how any pleasant things in life could be so great as to outweigh the sadness and anger or... well, just the indifference.

[Starseeker]

I wish I could go back to July. I would've done some things differently. Maybe now I would hate myself a little bit less. Or maybe not.

[Everglow.]

Eugh I'm sick again.

[Starseeker]

A weekend trip should've made me relax, but it only made me even more stressed. I've been travelling so much through my whole life and I know very well that travelling plans should always be very flexible. And still I got upset that some things didn't go according to plan. Why cannot I just relax?

[Dawn.]

I really don't want to be an adult anymore. It's all getting too much.

[Kate*]

I don't know why I'm excited about this, it's not going to be fun. And with my luck, he probably won't even be there tomorrow.

[Dawn.]

I really hope it's good news tomorrow.

[Kate*]

I desperately need to go back to therapy before I lose/quit this job, or burden (the most amazing) managers. But, the receptionists leave at 4:30 and get the weekend off.

12 hours are you kidding me?! If they don't rebound, I'll be forced to start looking and I never want to leave these managers, so I better get hours back.

I don't work with him again until the 22nd. I'm not going to make it sound like I'm begging, but I will ask him if hours are going to rebound, if not to what they have been, to a reasonable amount at least.

[Dawn.]

I am so desperate to get a job in a school...

My hips and lower back hurt. I've moved around so little in the past few days and it's not helping the fibro-like symptoms.

[Kate*]

Maybe I overestimated because I didn't realize that, but add in the sympathy and it's okay.

[Dawn.]

I'm trying. I really am...

[Kate*]

I don't get paid when I call off anymore, and I took a pay cut. But, it's never worth the risk.

[Everglow.]

Three days, three deaths. Please let that be the last of the bad news.

[Dawn.]

I hate feeling like this. I'm trying so hard to work on myself.

[Kate*]

I know and hate that I do this. I think I know why, but that doesn't really help. This tendency is a real problem.

[Dawn.]

To only to be in control of my emotions...

[Dawn.]

I wish the housework did itself sometimes.

I hate that I get lost in these tangents and things that could've been but never were.