Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Everglow.]

Started the day off by dropping coffee all down myself. Another reason why I'm a failure. I just wish I was somebody else.

[Kate*]

Any time I start to regret the way it went down and the possible consequences, I remember that it was basically my only option.

Just one more way society is fucked up. You very clearly and purposefully force out one of your best long-term employees and ruin their reputation and standing with the company in the process. With ZERO BASIS. But, if we tell the truth in interviews it looks bad, even if we're right. If we tell them not to contact you, it's a red flag, but if they do, you bash us. I'm moving to Colorado. My rights to my own body are protected, as are my employee rights, and bonus, pot is legal.

[Dawn.]

I don't know why I keep doing this...

[Everglow.]

It's just one thing after another at the moment

[Everglow.]

I'm so tired of being so clumsy all the time.

[Kate*]

It's a long shot anyway. But, if I get a chance at it, I hope it's not too far, because that would be a good one.

It's REALLY starting to feel like I'm never going to work again.

[Dawn.]

Lets hope it comes back positive.

[Starseeker]

Why cannot I learn this? Why? Why does everybody know how to do it and I DON'T???!!!

[Kate*]

I don't want to do these, they never get easier. But, the alternative is unemployment. I have a feeling tomorrow would be a better fit unless I'm doing math. The "fast-paced call center" concept sounds like a nightmare.

[Dawn.]

I don't know much more of this I can take...

[Kate*]

I see where you got that now. It's conservative right-wing bullshit. Unless that logic also applies to my abortion rights, you're just a hypocrite.

WHY the fuck would you send me a message suggesting I apply for your job, then IMMEDIATELY REJECT me from said job?! That was just STUPID.

[Dawn.]

All it takes is one trigger to spiral downwards. Now I'm overthinking as usual.

[Kate*]

I'd give up, but I can't afford to. I'm never going to work again, am I?

And yes, I blame you. If not for you getting rid of me on purpose for no reason, I'd be gainfully employed and making plenty.

[Dawn.]

I hate being so indecisive all the time.

[Soda_Voxel]

I hate change. I know it's unhealthy. But I don't care. I even hate positive change. I want everything to be the exact same until I die

[Dawn.]

I hate being a stress head.

[Kate*]

That was 3 weeks, not 2 months, it only feels like it. WHY didn't I just tell her no and walk away. I'll definitely be cancelling that.

[Dawn.]

I hope I don't buckle under the pressure.

[Soda_Voxel]

I think I should never try to talk to anyone ever again. I am so bad at communicating and my opinion is worthless.

[Dawn.]

I don't know how much more of it I can take.

[Kate*]

THIS is why I think they're bashing me. I give availability for an interview when asked, and they just ignore me.

If I got an offer, it would be too good to pass up, but I'd definitely be out of my element. The other one would be better, but they might want me to train at the next closest store which isn't close.

[Soda_Voxel]

Why should I have to treat myself with kindness when self hatred and self harm is far easier?

[Kate*]

Can't remember if I took my meds or not, and counting them revealed that I'm missing 2 which is no help. I don't remember taking it for the life of me, but the withdrawal should be worse than this if I didn't..

[Dawn.]

I'm just so exhausted - mentally, physically and emotionally.

[Dawn.]

I'm just so tired all the time.

[Kate*]

This had better be the last one, because I am legitimately out of options. Even if I don't stay as long, it's easier to get one with one, and I can use my money to move on once I know I have more coming in.

Got a headache with multiple sources.

[Soda_Voxel]

I can't live like this anymore. I want to hide away from everyone forever. I never want to see anybody ever again.

[Soda_Voxel]

I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't

[Dawn.]

I'm hoping this doesn't stay.

My stomach hurts right now.

[Kate*]

Repeated rejection is taking a toll on me. I can usually move on within a few days or be totally fine not getting one. But, if I lose out on this last one, I will be very disappointed.

I got it, but they're already pulling the bait and switch, so I'll be watching very carefully and will probably keep looking.

[Everglow.]

I''m in such a mood today and I cant snap out of it

[Soda_Voxel]

IT'S ALL TOO MUCH

I wish I am able to sit down for a while and actually concentrate on what I need to get done without getting distracted.

[Kate*]

Anxiety and having to be there at the crack of dawn (for me) tomorrow will make for a fun night tonight. But, at least I know everything on my end is done, the other email never came. I'm sensing a few red flags, but at least it'll be easier to get another job, if needed once I'm hired. And I can reward myself with the rest of the day worth of my new obsession to calm down.

[Dawn.]

I don't know why I keep doing this to myself...

It's feeling very December, not so much September. I am freaking exhausted and it's already dark out!

[Dawn.]

That place is so toxic.

[Soda_Voxel]

Stop making me false promises!! I'm tired of getting excited for nothing!