Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Starseeker]

I cannot concentrate I cannot concentrate I cannot concentrate

[Soda_Voxel]

Nothing makes me truly happy anymore

[Soda_Voxel]

I am so tired I am so tired I am so tired I am so tired All I want to do is sleep all day all the time constantly I just want to sleep all day long
Dreams are more interesting than real life anyways

[Soda_Voxel]

I let my cat scratch me on purpose earlier

[Soda_Voxel]

"just tired" "just tired" "Just tired" "Just tired" "Just tired" "just tired" "just tired" "just tired" "Just tired" "JUST TIRED"

[Kate*]

We have SO much proof that's not true. STOP SAYING IT!

You obviously have the hours. The fact that you don't want to pay me is not my problem. Give me them back or I'll find someone who will.
And I can almost guarantee that they'll treat me better.

[Soda_Voxel]

Isn't it funny? I'm really hoping that doesn't count, even though I've been saying for so long I want to do it. But now I've gotten close, and technically have started, I'm all scared. What an idiot

[Dawn.]

Urgh, decision after decision. The joys of being an adult.

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm so scared for tomorrow. I'm going to be so awkward. I'll ruin it.

[Dawn.]

It's just one thing after the other with me.

[Kate*]

I don't know why I want to try that again I've already failed to get it at least 3 times. But, it would solve the income issue and I know I can handle it.

If I were sure that were true, I'd quit in solidarity. It just serves as further proof of how far from grace the place has fallen because of you.

[Dawn.]

I don't want to feel like this anymore. It's too much.

[Dawn.]

My life has become evolved around work and it's become hard to break free from the chains...

[Soda_Voxel]

It's funny. When I did it, I was sobbing and hyperventilating with regret. But now. only a few days later, I want to do it again. I'm so strange

[Dawn.]

I have never felt so mentally, physically and emotionally tired in such a long time.

[Kate*]

This is just my brain doing what it does. Part genuine concern, part coping mechanism. Kind of wish it wouldn't, but it's done worse.

[Dawn.]

Let's hope it's the outcome I want.

[Soda_Voxel]

I want to hurt myself so badly. It's scary how much I like looking at and feeling the scratch I made from before. It only took me a day after doing it to stop regretting it.

[Dawn.]

I cannot wait to have some time off even if it's only two days.

[Soda_Voxel]

All this anger and nowhere to put it...getting quite dangerous...

I'm stressed to the max

[Kate*]

This headache is insane. I'm about to schedule an appointment for them. Enough is enough.

Today was ROUGH for some reason. Then I walked off with the radio, almost forgot to sign the tax form before mailing it, and can't remember if I put the flag up on the mailbox! And now it's 4am and raining and I'm tempted to go out in my pajamas and check, UGH

[Soda_Voxel]

It's so selfish of me. i cant keep being jealous like this when what i want is physically impossible

[Dawn.]

I really hope this will benefit me in the future.

[Soda_Voxel]

the marks are going away. i miss them. why do i miss them? this is stupid. i want to make new ones

[Kate*]

I really wanted to have that sandwich for my birthday, and it doesn't look like they have it anymore.

[Dawn.]

I really don't want to go back to work tomorrow.

[Everglow.]

What on earth is this day turning into

[Kate*]

I literally couldn't care less anymore. Part of me hopes I get to quit just to get out. And part of me hopes I get it because I deserve to, everyone knows it, and if I don't, there won't be a valid excuse.

[Dawn.]

Hopefully it doesn't turn out that way.

[Soda_Voxel]

As much as the logical part of me wants it to be, I don't think it's going to be a one-time thing...with the disappointment growing the more it fades, I think I understand why people get addicted.

[Kate*]

The 13 hours between shifts SUCKS. The fact that tomorrow is an early and 8-hour weekend shift where I potentially get into it with my manager... I'm NOT looking forward to this.

I realize I'm being paranoid, but someone had been there and I don't know who it could've been. And I know there's a good chance I'll be replaced behind my back again. None of this makes sense and the only thing I can think is that you are hell-bent on screwing me.

[Dawn.]

I'm dreading how busy it will be at work tomorrow.

[Kate*]

I want to let my guard down, but I can't. Anxiety is gone, but if I relax, I could end up blindsided again. And if that happens I want to be mad. I refuse to give them the satisfaction of seeing me cry.

Part of me wants the decision over with and part of me is afraid it's not going to be the one I want, and my entire life will change again in a matter of seconds. At least this time, I'll be able to walk away with my head held high knowing that I am 100% innocent.

And I have it, and I was right, and there was ONE reason I didn't walk.

[Dawn.]

Of course I had to over do things today. I always do.

[Dawn.]

It seems to become more of a struggle each day.

[Dawn.]

I don't know how much more of this I can push through.

[Dawn.]

I am absolutely shattered in every way possible.

[Kate*]

Can I stick it out long enough to get the money I'm owed, or at this point does it not matter enough? I'm looking at at least another month, and I don't know if I can hold on that long.

What in the actual F**k is this?