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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 24th 2013, 04:14 PM
I hate my life. Apparently you can't get the help you want and need and also graduate on time. Withdraw again and take a semester off. Really, that's the best you can do? I forgot to ask you about that and I probably will eventually, but social phobic+that is NOT a good idea.
School has officially gone from dream to FUCKING NIGHTMARE!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 24th 2013 at 07:24 PM.
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September 24th 2013, 06:06 PM
Wow. Several people called me a burden or the equivalent yesterday. Thanks for showing me your true colors, I appreciate that. I never knew you thought that. But now that I know, don't expect any favors from me.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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September 25th 2013, 08:23 PM
Ugh, God, I can just see myself driving everyone away eventually. Why do people stay, when all I can do is hurt them? I try to be a good person, but I'm not able. I'm useless.
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September 26th 2013, 12:58 AM
Dream ending, world collapsing, walls closing in, can't stop crying, can't breathe, can't move, can't let this happen, soul crushed, life over, danger. HELP ME!!!
These little episodes are SO FUN! I'll wait at least a little while and meet with her and probably him again to see where I stand before making the decision that I don't want to make or having the absolute worst-case scenario decision made for me.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; September 26th 2013 at 01:34 AM.
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September 26th 2013, 01:40 AM
You always said you were here for me.
You always said you would come over if I needed you.
But you didn't have a car.
But you couldn't drive because you weren't sober.
But he would want to come too.
But you were in class.
But you had to get this homework done tonight.
But But But
You have a car now.
I know you were sober when I texted.
He isn't a problem anymore.
You don't have classes.
You have almost zero responsibility.
So what's your excuse tonight?
"We all have battle scars, Finn. Suck it up and build a brace for yours."
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September 26th 2013, 05:41 PM
This is not the time for me to break down; this can't happen right now.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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September 26th 2013, 11:28 PM
The anxiety attacks can stop now. They're really annoying..
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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September 29th 2013, 06:35 PM
If I could stop crying for five fucking seconds.. If I could think of her without bursting into tears, that'd be great.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Re: Screaming thread. -
September 29th 2013, 07:54 PM
TAYLOR YOU UNTALENTED LITTLE SHIT, WHY ARE YOU EVEN BOTHERING TO TRY OUT FOR THIS SOLO?! YOU HAD MICROSCOPIC CHANCES OF GETTING IT BUT NOW YOU'VE FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT UNTIL THE DAY BEFORE AND YOU DON'T KNOW IT AND ITS IN FREAKING LATIN YOU FUCKING IDIOT....
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September 30th 2013, 09:29 PM
Are you fucking serious? Go ahead, let my life fall apart. Why don't you just take everything away from me while you can, damn it? If I lose one more living thing or person in my life I'm going to go crazy. Oh, I'm already crazy. Never mind.
I'm trying to make myself breathe.. I have to breathe. To calm down, somehow. I hate it when I shake. This feeling of absolute helplessness. I have so many people who offer help, but there's so many people that I'm afraid to turn to. So I can't.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
The axe forgets, but the tree remembers
Last edited by hocus pocus; October 1st 2013 at 03:19 PM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
October 1st 2013, 08:19 PM
Couldn't find the damn building to save my life and even if I had, I can't get to it because there's fucking CONSTRUCTION EVERYWHERE!! Can I please just do my fucking assignment without having to risk getting hit by a car because you fenced off all the sidewalks?!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
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October 1st 2013, 08:49 PM
Keep quiet, you said. I'm connecting more pieces..I'm putting them together ever so slowly. And if I could stop shaking for a damned moment. If I could stop being in so much pain.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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October 2nd 2013, 12:23 AM
....I fucking go to shit therapy today and its like the hardest fucking session I've ever had and now, hours later, my mom has the nerves to be pissed at me and make shit out of me because I said to my therapist that "my mom gets on my nerves a lot, things have been hard at home with my parents"
SHE HAS THE FUCKING NERVE NOW TO CALL ME OUT AND SAY THAT IM AN UNGRATEFUL BITCH
AND NOW SHE COMES IN HERE, TRIES TO FUCKING APOLOGIZE, AND ENDS UP YELLING AT ME BECAUSE ITS OUR FAULT SHE WAS WITH KRAIG
ITS OUR FUCKING FAULT AND WE'RE THE REASON SHE LEFT AND THAT MAKES ME THE BITCH. THAT MAKES ME THE MONSTER FOR SAYING THAT SHE HURTS ME THE WAY SHE FUCKING DOES
...she comes in here... and says... and I fucking quote "if I had been getting what I deserve here at home I wouldn't have been with Kraig. Its not like I even had sex with him"
...Right
And that fucking justifies it
That poor fucking angel
I'll make her an apology pie
IM SO SORRY IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU
fucking shit
just... fuck everything
FUCK.
HER.
SERIOUSLY I'M JUST... I'M LIKE.... I'M SUFFOCATING ON WHAT SHE JUST FUCKING PULLED.
I JUST...I wanna fucking leave.
....god sorry, I didn't mean to lose it or swear that much.....
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October 2nd 2013, 09:03 AM
I have no idea if I like you or if I just find you annoying.
First you steal Kez.
Then Courtney whenever she's around us. You don't even understand that Courtney is my only friend who actually knows everything . . . when you steal her that just leaves me alone, with no one. Or worse - flippin third wheeling!
Now Maddie. I always thought you didn't really like her. Why suddenly has that changed? Arghhhh
The four of us are a group! Why do you steal my 3 friends and forget about me? What is it about me that you don't like?
Honestly if I make any more friends then you'll just steal them I know it.
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October 2nd 2013, 06:31 PM
The dissociation won't stop. I feel like I have no one to turn to but myself.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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October 3rd 2013, 06:45 PM
My mom's cousin loses her son in an accident the day before my cousin and his wife have their daughter. And I thought needing a new laptop was the worst thing that could happen.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
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October 4th 2013, 04:06 AM
Thanks for ruining my happiness. What a short lived feeling of accomplishment. I really don't deserve to be happy, do I? All I do is open my fat mouth and piss you off. Love you too. Now you're asleep and you didn't say a single word to me. Thanks. You're awesome.
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October 6th 2013, 06:39 PM
You're getting on my last fucking nerve. Do you treat everyone like that?
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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October 7th 2013, 01:56 AM
i just really hate you and wish i could just fucking move out because i'll find a place to live faster than you ever have. I won't be fucking homeless
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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October 7th 2013, 02:18 AM
No one really likes me but I really don't like them? The guy that does like me won't fucking admit it yet fucks me around so much I should start charging for it. I sleep around because I'm so fucking lonely. My "best friend" I fucking hate, a deluded little girl that is staying with a guy who just wants her fucking pussy and is embarrassed to admit he likes her because she's a fucking riot. My course is too hard and I'm drowning in it 6 weeks in and have an exam tomorrow, fuck my life.
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October 7th 2013, 05:13 AM
Okay, so apparently we need cars with mandatory seat belts that don't run if the driver is intoxicated or distracted because we can't make these decisions for ourselves! Rest in Peace T.
Today is bad and I don't even know why. This is NOT the day for this class (not that there ever is a good day for it). I can still feel my life's dream slipping away. Part of me wants to drop out, runaway screaming, and never come back. The rational part knows that if I can pull it off and stick it out, I can have the type of job I've always wanted. My life is a mess, but at least I have a life to make a mess of.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; October 8th 2013 at 02:30 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
October 7th 2013, 07:36 PM
I'm actually happy! But I'm screaming because I still want to cut, despite my happiness.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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October 7th 2013, 09:30 PM
You gave up on me. Why? Did I treat you badly? Did I hurt you? Am I not what you wanted? Am I not good enough? Did I hug you too tightly? Did I hug you less than I should have? Tell me why.
"You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.”
— Malala Yousafzai
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October 7th 2013, 11:55 PM
I'm never going to drag myself out of this hole. Never. Half of me cares so much and half of me cares not enough and it depends on the time of day which side wins.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Re: Screaming thread. -
October 8th 2013, 01:47 AM
i told my friend that we'd get through this together but i don't think i can even make it another day..
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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October 8th 2013, 06:31 PM
Today marks one year.
If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?
Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
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October 8th 2013, 07:16 PM
SERIOUSLY??!! How hard is it to find a FUCKING BUILDING?? I'll ask someone else for directions and then ask the instructor because this is absolutely ridiculous! I only need to find it once, but I need to do it soon.
All I want this weekend is a working dryer and a chance to meet and hold the new baby. I really don't think that's too much to ask
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; October 9th 2013 at 01:56 AM.
Re: Screaming thread. -
October 9th 2013, 11:33 AM
I want to frikking punch you in the face. Thank you for being a completely selfish and stupid.
Frkking hell. Wait make that kick you in the balls. Do you not know how much I care?
I will kill you next time I see you. Slowly and painfully.
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October 9th 2013, 07:26 PM
Please stop acting like an idiot. You ask too many damn questions, you chew your food too loudly, you overreact to everything, and you totally stress me out. I hate living with you.
Anna's Personal Keys to Happiness 1. Do what you want within the bounds of reason, whenever you want to, and regret nothing. 2. If you have an opinion, don't beat around the bush, or there isn't a point in saying it. 3. Don't keep the company of anyone who won't like you and will try to change you.