Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Everglow.]

I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open. It's been a long week.

[Mindfulness.]

I just want to be able to stop feeling like this.

[Mindfulness.]

What a world we live in today...

[Starseeker]

What the fuck have I done to deserve this?

[Rivière]

PLEASE STOP APPROACHING ME WHILE I'M BUSY EXERCISING. Don't look at me. Don't try and yell for my attention. Don't Stand in front of me being weird and creepy. Don't kick or tap my foot to get my attention. Don't lay your hands on me. Just stay away from me!

[Kate*]

She came back and there are 2 amazing coworkers left. That's the only reason I haven't walked out and I would take them all with me if I could. But, I'm SO OVER work that I don't even want to go anymore. No matter how many days off I've had, or how few there are until I work again, I have to drag myself in there every damn shift.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want to always feel this anymore.

[Starseeker]

I hate my life, I hate myself. For the past weeks my boyfriend had been my only sense of life, and now I broke up with him, and I cannot see any single light in my life.

I'm having a pretty big urge to self harm. I'm heck of tempted to buy tools to do my preferred method... Not sure this is the best place to be but oh well

[Mindfulness.]

I don't know why I did this to myself.

[Starseeker]

Why does it have to be this way, why, why, why?

[Mindfulness.]

And just like that, another one bites the dust.

[Kate*]

I was USING the full cart you emptied and stole

No, I DON'T have time to look through every single clearance item for you. You are perfectly capable of doing that yourself.

No, I didn't know the answer to your question. That didn't give you the right to be a total bitch about it. You need to fucking chill, I deal with people like you all G-D damned day.

I HATE people so FUCKING much

I feel pretty suicidal tonight. I'm hoping sleep will help so I can actually enjoy time with my husband because this is the first day off where we don't have a ton of obligations

[Kate*]

One more day of this shit and I literally can't deal with ONE more asshole.

Would it be better if I just died

[Mindfulness.]

I hope this is only temporary.

[Mindfulness.]

I hate being paranoid about everything.

[Mindfulness.]

I was hoping my life wasn't as busy as it is.

[Kate*]

2 more days, then 2 days off and an 8-hour New Year's Eve shift. Then things finally slow down. My mental health will appreciate it, but my wallet will NOT. I'm so sick of being jerked around and screwed over by these people. I need to get out.

It wasn't on purpose, I tried to replace it, but couldn't. And if you KNOW people take things out of there when they aren't supposed to WHY WASN'T IT LABELLED?!

[Mindfulness.]

I'm literally surrounded by Covid-19.

[Starseeker]

Can't figure out my fucking feelings

[Mindfulness.]

This is just so exhausting.

[Starseeker]

My dog is sick. I don't have the energy to take care of him.

[Everglow.]

There's covid literally everywhere and despite the office being closed until new year, I have to go in on Friday because my manager is pedantic. I can literally do my job from home so why?

[Kate*]

I hope this is short-lived because I don't want to give up, but it seems like the logical option. If I'm not going to get anything I wanted out of life because of something unchosen and unchangeable, and that same thing is going to make everything I try to do either difficult or impossible, why bother? She would say "You don't know what will happen." Except I have 33 years of life that proves this. Why would the rest be any different? As always I want things I can't have. I assume it would be much less intense, so better chances, but no guarantees. And I don't know if I could handle a repeat on any level.

[Mindfulness.]

Covid-19 has ruined everything.

I am tired of being alive. I am tired of being a burden.

[Kate*]

10 HOURS, What the fuck is that?! You know I have bills and shit to pay, right?! We get cut temporarily every year, but it's usually still a livable paycheck. This is ridiculous! And don't think I don't know it's partly because of the new hire you brought on behind my back. You think you don't need me, watch what happens when I quit. I was already thinking about it, but if I hadn't been, this would've sealed it! Plus, apparently you can't schedule for shit. You messed up SO MANY people's schedules, and then happened to get the holiday off. How does that even happen?!

I didn't expect you to know I had one, but I expected you to know that I DON'T FUCKING DECIDE THAT! It's your decision, not mine.

[Starseeker]

I don't want to have anything more to do with you. Leave me the fuck alone!!!!!!

[Kate*]

I need a new hobby or I'm going to get bored real quick. and I understand hormones, but would love for these symptoms to calm down.

[Starseeker]

I don't speak to him, I miss him. I speak to him, I immediately get annoyed and unkind to him. What's wrong with me?

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm a horrible person.

[Mindfulness.]

Still riding this Covid rollercoaster...

[Kate*]

Let's see if I sleep tonight, last night was rough.

Waking up before 6am is getting really old! Especially on days where the sunrise is after 7am!

[Soda_Voxel]

i thought it was finally getting better

[Kate*]

You can blame the yearly slow time all you want, but the hours were always reasonable regardless. This is in no small part due to your poor management decisions, not to mention your shitty attitude. My availability was almost completely ignored for years and I was worked past my hour limit as long as I was your only option. Until you could use it as an excuse not to promote me and then not even tell me to my face! You are losing me after forcing me out of my own department. And it's again, a direct result of your management. I deserve better and you have only yourself to blame.

Every time I've somehow known something wasn't going to happen or fall apart for me, I've been right. This will probably be the same. Cant predict the future my ass.

[Mindfulness.]

It's just getting higher and higher everyday...

[MsNobleEleanor]

I am not sure why I am awake this early. I feel restless. I might watch something and fall asleep to it.