Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[MWF]

I swear one of my roommates is a fucking sociopath.

[Everglow.]

Such a stupid mistake. I knew I'd mess up such a simple job. I really am a useless human being.

[Kate*]

If my schedule stays at 4 days a week instead of 5, I might have to start looking for somewhere that it won't do that. It looked like it was going back to normal and then was cut again. The only reason I qualified for better insurance is because I'm estimated to make a certain amount which I won't if you keep this up! I paid my dues as the new employee, cut the latest hire's hours first!

I guess it's technically fine through the end of the year, but if it doesn't pick up after the normal slow time next year, I'm nagging, and if that doesn't work, I'll start looking.

You're alienating your fan base over a fucking vaccine.
Either get the damn shot, or cancel the tour. FINALLY got a show after 20 YEARS, and it'll probably get postponed for a 3rd year.

[Soda_Voxel]

Ugh. I'm so tired of not doing anything, of not having the fucking energy to do anything. I want to go out, do things, see things, talk to people, do fucking anything at all. But no. I just sit in my bed all day. Is it worth living like this?

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm not living, I'm surviving. Sitting around all day and just watching other people do the things I can't is killing me. Why should I have to live like that?

[Dawn.]

I just want to not be so busy all the time.

[Starseeker]

Too many thoughts, too many worries.

[Dawn.]

Lets hope it all goes to plan.

[Kate*]

And because I can't have everything work out at once, I'm once again considering quitting the job that allowed me to qualify for the new amazing insurance.

Maybe if you realized the problem is your management style, and not our attitude, and constantly shoving documents with standards on them wasn't going to do a damn thing except drive us away, things would actually get better. We were the top performing store under him for a REASON. He didn't have to pester us with rules and standards because he demonstrated them and made us WANT to work with the culture he created. That's what's changed, it's you, not us.

[Dawn.]

I'm just of working and studying all the time.

[Kate*]

Okay asshole. But thats why I disclose early. Good to know a man of such strong faith isn't okay with a disabled woman. I want to admire you for being that upfront, but it kind of just makes you an ass. And I'm not "sorry"

[Dawn.]

I have to learn to not feel so guilty all the time.

[Kate*]

That was the last straw, I'm quitting. I will NOT be fucked with like this anymore. I deserve better.

And I'm more than tempted to guve up on sleep and/or call off. Between that and the fact that I'm completely fucking exhausted. I fell asleep at like 6:30 and it's been nonstop noise since before 9. Plus, once I put in my 2 weeks, I lose the paid sick time I have a TON of.

I'm mentally icky and judged even though they aren't like that, so it's not on purpose. And I know part of it is because I'm exhausted. Changing jobs is the right decision, but its coming with a very strong physical stress reaction, on top of no sleep and hormones, I'm kind of miserable.

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm tired of worrying about giant, entire-world problems that I can't fix. I wish they'd all just go away. I'm tired of living my life in fear.

[Everglow.]

I'm not doing well tonight. I'm so tired but I dont think I'm going to sleep well...

[Kate*]

And I just realized her hiring coincided suspiciously with my vacation. Bad timing or not, it looks horrible, especially considering you didn't bother to tell me until I confronted you. Yeah, I can't wait to get out now

Of course I wasn't honest with you. You are not safe. It saddens me that you are my partner but you are not safe to open up to. Through your words and actions, you've made it known that you can't accept this part of me, and by default, you can never truly accept me. I am so sad about that.

I'm so stressed

[Kate*]

I'm tempted to cancel, not because of the normal mental health crap, but because I don't want the job and do want my normal day off/routine unaffected. Like, even if nothing changes at work, I still wouldn't want it.

[Dawn.]

When will this stop?

[Kate*]

Depending how you respond, I'm tempted not to give my 2 weeks. I know better, but 2 weeks is a courtesy. And if you handle this the wrong way, it's one you don't deserve.

This is the second time I've been screwed. Is this all my life is going to be? A never-ending series of getting screwed over and taken advantage of?

[Dawn.]

I really hope my schedule isn't always this jam packed all the time.

I have to at least go in tomorrow and Wednesday. There's a few things I need to wrap up and get taken care of. I can do this.

[Kate*]

So, everything I said still stands. You'll work me over my allotted hours and ignore my "limited" availability when it suits you until you find somebody better who you will then hire behind my back. And, not even have the decency to TELL me that it's happening or why, then claim that my being upset about it is "having an attitude that won't get me anywhere." Because "I make the decisions and I don't have to tell you anything." But, if I decide to be a "team player" you'll see what you can do. Yeah bitch, I'm out. My attitude isn't the problem, yours is. And just because you don't HAVE to tell someone something doesn't mean you SHOULDN'T tell them. That's called common decency and is part of good management. I am DONE being treated like shit by authority because they're authority. And you wonder why everyone who was there for DECADES under the previous manager has jumped ship since you took over in the last 6 months.

[Dawn.]

I need to stress less...literally.

[Kate*]

The job market isn't as amazing right now as some would have you believe. At least not for me, I might be stuck with this shitty manager for awhile. Unless I leave with no job lined up which is a bad move, but it is an option.

This week I actually get the hours, I'm using my days off for interviews which means I don't get the recovery time I need, and surprise, my dad's showing up on 3 days notice. Because this week wasn't stressful enough.

I don't want either of those things to happen tomorrow, or to go back to work the day after, but it's happening that way, and I don't have much choice.

WHY are there fruit flies in my hospital room?!?!?!!

[MWF]

God I just want to move on with my life. It's going absolutely nowhere.

They aren't giving me my pain meds like they were before.

[Dawn.]

I really hate Maths.

[Kate*]

I remember now why I limited it so much. I couldn't make plans to save my life! If I knew I'd still have a reasonably predictable consistent schedule, I'll come in any time you want!

It's bad to say I hope she leaves since she had nothing to do with it. But, there's so much turn over, it's entirely possible. But, I know I just want things back to the way they were and I don't think that's possible anymore.

I unintentionally self harmed and want to do it again but worse. It'd be easy to play it off as a mistake.

What the heck is wrong with me

[Kate*]

I have to get up for this tomorrow, and I REALLY don't want to.

[Starseeker]

I'm overthinking everything

I'm suicidal but not. I am constantly thinking of self harm and I want to do it again but I have to wait till Sunday or Monday.

[Dawn.]

I'm just so tired from feeling like this.

Just remember this is temporary

[Dawn.]

I just want my schedule to calm down a bit.

[Kate*]

I'm going to regret picking up the Sunday shift. Black Friday is going to take longer to recover from than I expected based on how bad today was. And the friend who took me to work has a really bad cold. So, I probably caught that just in time to make work worse and Thanksgiving miserable. Perfect.

I want the holiday season to be over with so I can get back to my never-ending job search.