Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Dawn.]

What a fucking day.

[Soda_Voxel]

I don't feel safe. I'm going to do it soon, I can feel it. I don't know if I'm ready from the weight of having to hide it from people, the pressure of knowing I've done it. But it just feels...inevitable. If I don't do it, I'm going to do something worse.

[Dawn.]

Lol this is just craziness.

Lady, I get that this may be your only laundry day of the week, but it's pretty fucking inconsiderate to take up three washers out of the six that work. For the entire complex. On a Saturday. Not to mention you took up three dryers out of eight, at least two of which were already occupied, so now for those of us who JUST started our washing we have to wait for dryers if you're not on top of your laundry. Maybe you should think of others a little bit next time.

[Kate*]

I celebrated too soon, less than a week until vacation and my laptop is completely dead. Hopefully they can fix it quick for relatively cheap. Because if I order another one it'll be a waste of money since it was price gouged and it's less than 2, and take months to get here. From what I can find, it's probably one of 3 things. Two of them are easy fixes, I e been without it for one night, and I'm already bored. So, hopefully, I'll have it back for vacation.

My apartment now smells like literal feces. I kept telling maintenance that it's not my toilet that's clogged; it's whatever they did to the plumbing upstairs. Now the problem is seemingly at a critical point, all because they didn't listen. I hope they figure this out today, because I think something really bad might happen if they don't, like flooding or something.

[Kate*]

Stop calling me autistic ignorant neurotypicals!

[Dawn.]

I really hope I'm not always this busy.

[Everglow.]

I really don't want to go to this pop up talk tomorrow for work. I honestly can't think of anything more uncomfortable.

[Dawn.]

The joys of being an adult.

Hoping to get new hearing aids soon but insurance are such buttheads.

[Kate*]

Even if I had given you my last name, I doubt you would've known me by it. Not sure how to feel about that. But, it's done.

Maybe I'm less fine than I thought... the excess caffeine isn't helping, but still. I need this to be the permanent fix and for that to be nothing.
I can survive a few weeks, but I'm not ready to live without her.

[Dawn.]

Lol some people are so crazy.

[Kate*]

I'm not as okay as I thought. Thank God you can get almost anything delivered. At least I know I can get food and my meds that way until she can drive again.

Wide awake at midnight. At least I got to shower

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm so glad I'm getting coaching, but I feel like every time I feel sad or hate myself a little, I'm failing everyone around me and I have to push those thoughts away as quickly as possible or everyone will be disappointed

Anxiety and I'm not coping

[Kate*]

She was wrong, it wasn't the same spot, they looked for more, I hope they didn't miss any because I can't have her go through this every 6 months.

Thank God for grocery delivery. Yes, there are extra fees, and I don't blame you for the emergency, but if you had gone to the store sooner, I wouldn't have been stuck here for days with literally NOTHING in the house and no other way to get it besides bothering relatives who are over an hour away. I did what I had to do, and did a pretty damn good job for a first time by myself, so you don't get to be mad.

[Soda_Voxel]

Do you, or don't you? You leading me on like this gives me false hope. You don't even like women. So why do you do this to me? Do you find it entertaining to stir my heart up and make me feel for you? Do you know? I love you, and these things make me feel all fuzzy, but...I know it isn't good for me.

My anxiety is the worst. See my psychiatrist tomorrow and night talk to him about taking leave in november

[Dawn.]

I'm just so tired all the time and it's all down to that place.

[Kate*]

I got up and you were ASLEEP, and I knew better than to wake you up. How the hell was I supposed to know you waited for me?! But, if you want to be mad and throw an epic, and obvious tantrum over it instead of ASKING FOR or TELLING me you need something, that's fine. Not to mention, you know better than anybody that I may need to be VERBALLY told. But, whatever!
And if that's just proof that they were right, and that I should set my desire for a relationship aside in the interest of public safety because I am clearly not capable of maintaining any kind of human relationship, then so fucking be it.

[Dawn.]

I'm just so tired all the time. I want to be able to properly rest.

[Dawn.]

Wishing I could have a normal life.

Wishing I weren't so stressed out

[Dawn.]

I just wish I wasn't so busy all the time.

[Kate*]

I'm not out of vacation mode yet. I wasn't ready to go back to work and I still don't want to go back.

[Dawn.]

I just hate overthinking everything.

[Soda_Voxel]

I so badly just want to succumb to the self hating thoughts. It's so easy. Getting better is so much work.

[Dawn.]

I wish I wasn't such a helicopter fur Mum.

[Dawn.]

I wonder how long this will last for.

[Everglow.]

I just feel like everything I do is annoying or stupid. I feel like I'm the butt of every joke. I hate myself.

[Kate*]

If that were the first time it happened, I'd be a lot more paranoid. Either it's some kind of glitch, he has some kind of filter set up, or he deleted it. I'll leave it to fate. If it were meant to be there, it still would be.

[Dawn.]

I really hope they give me a chance.

I hate that I'm suicidal

[Kate*]

I don't think that's going to be enough, but it's all I have because Medicaid is fucking stupid so I don't HAVE documentation because they never SENT any. I got raises, I make more money now, THAT'S why it looks weird. I don't know what else to tell you.

[Dawn.]

I just really hope they give me a chance.

[Astro04]

Only 11 AM and I already want to kill someone.

[Dawn.]

It's just one thing after the other...

[Kate*]

Between the garbage and recycling trucks, the leaf collection, and the chainsawing, I haven't gotten a full night of uninterrupted sleep in days. Some people work 2nd or 3rd shift, for the love of God SHUT UP!