Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Soda_Voxel]

My doctor said "see if it gets worse". If I get worse, there is a high chance I will attempt self harm or suicide. Please don't do this to me.

[Dawn.]

I don't know how much more of this I can take.

[Starseeker]

Depression strikes again. How wonderful.

Why am I missing you? I feel sick that I am giving you a single thought.

[Kate*]

I need a day off SO BAD

And it looks like I'm back to working Saturdays. I hate people so much

Oh my fucking god why does NO ONE take Medicaid?!

I'm feeling overwhelmed by the world, this pandemic, the antivax community, the people who've turned it political. Will it ever end?

[Kate*]

Back to wearing a mask at work despite being fully vaccinated because of stupid people who don't give a shit about anybody but themselves. I hate people so fucking much!

[Dawn.]

Originally Posted by .:Bibliophile:.

I'm feeling overwhelmed by the world, this pandemic, the antivax community, the people who've turned it political. Will it ever end?

Exactly how I feel.

[Soda_Voxel]

Fuck you for not letting me be home alone because I have self harm/suicidal thoughts. I should do what I want to do. If I choose to do that stuff, it's my fault, not anyone elses. I cant have a break. I'm forced to talk to people, forced to put on a smile, forced to always be okay. When behind the screen I want to rip my arms off.

[Dawn.]

Because of this lockdown, I can't even see my Mother tomorrow for her birthday.

My anxiety is the absolute worst.

[Kate*]

You asked if it was back there, I found it, and brought you one, but it was heavier than I thought and I struggled, even dropped it. You NEVER said you wanted more, and NOBODY even offered help. The fuck is that?!

[Dawn.]

I don't want to feel like this anymore.

[Everglow.]

I wish I believed in myself more.

[Dawn.]

I hate not being able to decide.

[Everglow.]

I just really didn't want to go out for one day this week so I could relax a bit. I didn't want to be volunteered to go shopping but now I'd feel bad not doing it.

[Dawn.]

I always seem to regret my decisions.

[Kate*]

Looks like I'm back to working Saturdays indefinitely

[Everglow.]

Really trying to be patient with myself but also can't stop thinking that I'm an idiot and that I hate myself.

[Starseeker]

I'm afraid of life, afraid of the future. I realised all my beloved fantasy worlds that are an escape for me now have always been my escape. Ever since I fell in love with fantasy as a small kid. It's terrifying. I'm not suited for this world.

[Dawn.]

I just hate being this tired all the time.

[Kate*]

My mind went where it shouldn't have, and now I'm SO fucking awkward around him and I'm sure he can tell, UGH

[Dawn.]

I feel awful mentally and emotionally.

[Dawn.]

I didn't think it would effect me this much.

[Everglow.]

Anxiety is paying me a visit tonight. Not good.

[Dawn.]

Let's hope it all works out in the end.

[Everglow.]

Aaaaaand it's back into isolation I go. For the third time in 2 months.

[Soda_Voxel]

I'm supposed to be happy. I'm doing something so cool I've only done once before. But noooo, I still want to die

[Dawn.]

I hate hearing about the vaccines and the virus.

[Kate*]

It's only Monday (and not even a bad one), and I already can't.

If this fruit fly problem doesn't get remedied soon I am going to fucking lose it. I can tell I am already approaching my breaking point.

[Kate*]

Proof that people don't leave bad jobs, they leave bad managers. We achieved above and beyond the metrics and experience with him, you are what changed, most of the good ones fled, and if your nitpicking and barking management style continues and reflects itself in review or interaction, I'll be next. I have years of experience you can't take away from me, and I deserve better.

[Everglow.]

I just really feel like you dont like me.

[Soda_Voxel]

On the 2 year anniversary of me meeting you for the first time, you, far away in another country, see my other friend. How can you expect me to not be jealous? I wish you loved me. But no. I'll always be just a person, a friend, and every time I'm not included or with you, my heart will break all over again.

[Kate*]

I don't care if you have a disability or not, you need to FUCKING CHILL

[Kate*]

I've been here 4 years, I know when someone is ringing the fucking bell. How about you CHECK before snapping at me over the radio that no one is there because they're supposed to call. It's not my fault he didn't follow the rules!

And you, I'm on my BREAK and you've been told 3 FUCKING times, no one is here to do that. GO AWAY!

Even if I request vacation immediately, I have to give A MONTH of notice and then wait a month. I could quit, but I'll just have to get another retail job and continue putting up with shit like this while I can't afford to retire. And I'm back to working Saturdays.

[Dawn.]

I don't want to go back to work next week.

I've got an excruciating headache that's making sleep impossible. Plus anxiety and paranoia

[Dawn.]

I really just want all of this to stop. I miss my old life and freedom.