Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Tigereyes]

I hope tomorrow never comes. I'm almost at the point where 6 months ago, I said that if life was still that bad, I am allowed to finally kill myself. I've had a solid plan for months. Years? Over 2 years of forcing myself to stay alive for no reason. Yeah well, it only keeps getting worse. Only a few weeks 'til I'm allowed to finally release myself from this hell life. Just a few more weeks, and I doubt anything can change my mind. The only comfort people can offer is saying I can do it/it'll get better. Fucking bullshit. It's been 15 years of worsening hell now. I'm done. Give me 3 concrete reasons it's worth staying alive for, and maybe I'll reconsider. But no one can. All they can do is say "it gets better!" When they don't understand a quarter of what I've been through.

I hope I don't get my heart broken, yet again.

You didn't fucking fight for us at all, yet look at how you are with her. I'm beginning to think you love her more than you ever loved me, and that is such a hard pill to swallow.

[Kate*]

Okay, but we still won, and you're not going to defend EVERYTHING, it's just not going to happen.

[Everglow.]

Havent slept again. So anxious. Hate this job. Slipping again.

[Celyn]

I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind?

[Everglow.]

Been bitten to shit by something. I'm so damn itchy.

[Dawn.]

I'm so stressed out with everything that's going on right now. I shouldn't have to be constantly nagging people to do stuff.

[Kate*]

I will never understand this. It seems very shallow, materialistic, and stuck up. There are SO many more important things to focus and spend money on.

[Dawn.]

Urgh, I don't want to go to work tomorrow.

[Everglow.]

Nobody likes me

[Tigereyes]

It still keeps getting fucking worse..... I think it's time for a final countdown 'til I can go.

[Everglow.]

Now I feel like a fool because obviously you guys have already spoken about this when I wasn't there. I'm the last to know because I'm on the outside.
why can't I ever stop feeling jealous when anyone new comes into things? why can't i just connect with other peoplelike a normal human being?

[Tigereyes]

Have been severely suicidal for half a year and almost no one said happy birthday to me. Remind me again why I should force myself to stay alive?

[Tigereyes]

Finally made it to the last month

If I'd been exposed to more cultural things and peoples as a child, I wouldn't feel like I am stuck here for the rest of my life.

[Everglow.]

An hour and a half to travel three miles. You have got to be kidding me. It's not even worth it.

[Tigereyes]

Don't know that I can wait to kill myself. My life ends in the very near future. I can't do it.

[Tigereyes]

I need to die before this weekend.

[Everglow.]

So anxious. At least I have tomorrow off, even though I'll spend the whole day feeling anxious about work this weekend.

[Tigereyes]

EDITED No one's going to stop me. It's best for everyone if I leave anyway. A few people will be hurt, but they'll be able to survive without me now. I don't want to go, but I just can't handle the pain and lack of support anymore. It's only getting worse. No it won't get better soon. It's actually going to get much worse very soon. Death is the only option. I'm sorry. I have to put myself first now, and sometimes that means suicide.

[Dawn.]

I really wish someone would give me the chance.

I'm really tired of not sleeping. Have a long day tomorrow too

[Everglow.]

My back and head are killing me. I feel weak and tired. It feels like how the flu starts and now my mind is racing.

[Everglow.]

Please let this pass. I feel awful tonight and cant work out if I'm shivering because it's cold or if it's something more. Please let me be ok.

[Everglow.]

Had a rubbish night and my back is killing me. Feel hot but woke up under two blankets. Cant work out if it's a symptom.

[Kate*]

Never thought Medicaid would be the good news of the day. If I'm approved, I'm covered, and if I'm denied after open enrollment ends because it takes them FORFUCKINGEVER then I get a special enrollment period and can pay for my own coverage so I don't lose it because people don't do their fucking jobs.

[Everglow.]

Officially have a temperature. I'm fucking scared.

I'm tired of not sleeping I got two hours last night and then 2 hour nap in the afternoon. I'm surprised I'm functioning

[Dawn.]

Hopefully, things won't be as bad as I may it out to be.

[Everglow.]

Three staff are off including me. Try to tell me we're covid secure now. We have no way to let our customers know because you ignored me request for track and trace. My head is pounding and theres a high chance I'm positive. This is really scary.

[Everglow.]

I thought I was doing the right thing. Now I just feel like shit and I'm sorry.

[Everglow.]

I'm not really doing okay tonight.

[Kate*]

Obviously I'm not paying that until I absolutely have to. Depending on what happens, that could change drastically.

[Starseeker]

I miss my ex...

I think I broke my fucking hand. I don't know what's going to happen now.

[Everglow.]

So anxious all the time. Any time I see your name my heart is in my throat.

[Rivière]

I can't believe gyms will be closing again. Like... come on... really?

I'm really pissed off

I can't tell what you're thinking, but when you look at me like that it just feels like I am the biggest fucking disappointment you've ever come across.