Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Rivière]

I'm really trying to motivate myself to do this last programme. I just need to do this last one and tie up some bits and the assignment is all finished. I wish I could push myself a bit more.

I'm gonna fail at my job and school and life. I can't breath. I'm panicking. I want to die. I want to cut. I want it all to stop

[Everglow.]

Worked a 10 hour shift today with only 20 minutes break. Been shaking all day. I feel so weak. I'm so anxious about uni I feel like I'm going to cry. I hate my life. I wish I knew that the hell I was going to do with it.

My head hurts. Woke up with this headache and can't get back to sleep

[Kate*]

I don't know when they sent their's but I just sent you another one. THIS is why I plan ahead for these refills, because withdrawal is a possibility and apparently, you have to be told multiple times!

[Everglow.]

Stomach hurts and I'm so tired. Everything is scaring me. Little noises making me jump which is making me feel sick because I'm panicking. Feeling guilty for not doing the work for uni, but doing the work doesn't make it any easier to understand. Going to fail. Everything is useless.

[jujubi]

I wish people would talk to me. I wish I didn't feel isolated all the time.
I wish I had a family. home to go to. I wish it wasn't this way.

Today haas been a struggle

I miss the old days when there was more activity around here.

[Kate*]

You'd better leave me alone tomorrow, because I am about to fucking screw you. I'm at the end of my rope and the LAST thing I need is to to deal with your bullshit.

Sometimes sadness consunes me

[jujubi]

I have you so fucking much and I can't wait to say it to your face. have at least a shred of decency your daughter lives here.

[jujubi]

i dont feel safe anymore

I'm so stressed out

Fuck! I am consumed by pain. It’s like a nine on the medical pain scale. Took meds to help. Can’t let her know I did it again.

I'm not good at this

Please don't judge me. This is hard enough as it is.

I want to go to bed so badly, but I am feeling worked up.

I am freaking out and I don't know how to cope. So scared I am going to lose everything.



Death would be great but I can't seem to actually die.

I'm so anxious about today.

[Celyn]

Keep getting distracted. Can't concentrate. Not done anything today. Ugh.

[Odyne]

Gonna miss my bf this weekend.

[jujubi]

I'm so hungry

I'm so tired of worrying

[MWF]

It took me forever to find a girlfriend... now I have one and she's depressed as hell and living on the other side of the country. I'm locked in until at least January because she bought tickets to come to my brothers wedding.
Long distance is horrible. What on earth was I thinking? I won't be out there until at LEAST May.

[jujubi]

I want a hug. fucking human affection.

I'm worried I said too much and I am paranoid about it

I wish I hadn't gone out. I have to make it through a week and than it will be okay.

[Odyne]

I miss my boyfriend. Cant wait to see him tomorrow.

I don't feel valued

[Odyne]

Everything seems hopeless. My ED is mad.

[Starseeker]

The person that reappeared in my life out of nowhere suddenly became the most important one, and it's killing me how little time together we get compared to how much we're apart. I miss him so much. I wish I had him by my side.

[jujubi]

fucking fuck I wish there was literally anything else for the people in this town to do except smoke I can't sit outside without getting cancer

[jujubi]

even when they tell me they're going to change I won't believe it. I don't think I'll be able to.

also remembering a time where I was at a retreat and i got a letter from you, after all that had happened had died down. I thought it was an apology. I open it and it's the most generic 'trust in God' thing you could muster up to send me. I cried because of that.

[Kate*]

No matter what I do, I'm "possibly eligible for Medicaid" even though I've already been denied for making the same amount of money and they are so fucked up that I'd rather pay than deal with them and their bullshit.

[Thegoodguy]

I'm not even mad at you I'm mad at myself for being so foolish to think you actually cared it lasted 10 minutes then i was back alone again. So I made my own fun that night I danced all alone without a care in the fucken world. Then when you where hurt I asked you if you where ok but you still talked about him, he didn't even bother to go,you out of all people know how much I fucken hate that place but I went back.I told you that day going back in made me feel sick but I went back for you... I just want you to see me like you see him. But I guess I'm done trying this journey of ours is over not because you left me alone that night,not because I wasted my time,not even because fuck I'm so hurt I can't even finish this shit, your own friend who I didn't even fucken know had to console me after you literally ran from me. Luckly I'm used to being cut short. I wanted to leave so bad am I so terrible that you acted like I wasn't there the whole night. Thank goodness Nat was there she made my whole night yeah I was a bit fucked up but the only reason why I got that way was because I was hurting. I wouldn't wish what you did on my worst enemy. I'm not gonna lie I had a great night that day I just wish you could've been a part of it. But like why? Why would you ask me to go with you if you where gonna ignore me the whole night? Did you have second thoughts? Do I even matter at all? Why did you keep me around this whole time? Yeah I texted you that night to make sure you got home safe but that's it I was gonna talk to you more but I knew that in the end none of it mattered cuz obviously I'm not good enough and maybe I never will be but there's no one i'd rather be than me. You missed out on a great person

[Odyne]

Bwaaaah it’s cold

I am fat and i deserve to die.

Wish I could go back to starvation

[jujubi]

everything hurts

[Tigereyes]

Something feels wrong. I don't know what, just that it does. Perhap it's all the emotions I've been burying over the past couple years trying to resurface once again. But if I give in to my mind, I'll never have to know.

[Odyne]

I have a headache