Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

This is the SECOND time I have registered myself for the section of a class NOT taught by a doc student and have been SWITCHED against my will and I am NOT HAPPY! What part of LEAVE MY FUCKING SCHEDULE ALONE don't you understand!!??!!?

That will show you I switched myself back and the guy IS a DOCTOR. Unless she is co-teaching with him I will be staying in this section or I will be SCREAMING at you.

[Chris]

No, I am not willing to drive you 30 miles to downtown.Drive yourself.

[hocus pocus]

I have no idea what the next couple of days are going to bring. No fucking idea. I'll have to be in bed early and that's going to suck. I didn't want to leave but now I don't want to go back there; I don't need to relive it. What the hell do I want? I'm afraid that this is really going to trigger me. I don't need to cut, I'll be fine. I'm fine.

[Lumos.]

yeah, thanks dad. I must really be a fucking liar. I didn't hear you and you automatically call me a liar. Thanks for making me feel even more shitty than i already did.
Oh, and of course you make me walk back up the hill because i forgot something, because you didn't want to fucking do it yourself.

[cookiesamilk]

I wish you would see how stupid you're being. You're both fucking idiots and it's making me crazy. Grow the fuck up, assholes. You're triggering me.

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I'm so far behind. I haven't made any progress today and will never finish this all on time because I'm just that far behind and ugh.

[Kate*]

Thank you for leaving my schedule alone, but now I'm paranoid that this woman that I CAN NOT STAND will show up as a co-instructor and I'll be stuck with her AGAIN and unable to switch back. If he told the registrar to keep me away from her and he did it when he told me he did that was a week ago. It wouldn't take a week for them to do that, plus they've done this random schedule swapping s*** to me twice before for no reason. Even if it worked the second time, it backfired miserably the first time so I have real reason to be concerned here. How about you LIST THE F***ING COURSE ASSISTANTS ON THE SCHEDULE

Stupid Amazon, I just had to cancel and reorder 1 order and change the payment method on 2 orders because your payment method somehow DEFAULTED and was set on a GIFT CARD that WAS NOT going to cover the cost! Thanks a lot for the F***ING PANIC ATTACK!!!

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Forget it. Can we just go home?

[Chris]

It really took you 4 years to tell me the truth? 4 years to finally let go of my heart? I'm just speechless.

[hocus pocus]

You're going to die, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. I'm so sorry. I'll miss you.

[nothereanymore]

Some people just don't wanna take responsibility for anything. Everything is always someone else's fault. I'm tired of living with fucking idiots like that.

[Everglow.]

My back hurts so much today. Painkillers don't help anymore.

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I'm totally getting sick on the worst possible day. Time to sleep all day and hope this fuzzy sick feel goes.

[Chris]

You still mean alot to me and you act like you never met me. Why are you doing this?

[nothereanymore]

I don't know why I try. With anyone irl, with anyone on here. I'm friendless and I will be for a while. So fuck trying, I'd rather be dead. Better than facing the constant reminder that no one gives a shit.

[hocus pocus]

I really want to tell you. But I don't know if I can.

[Chris]

No, I do not want to go shopping with you. Your a big boy, you can handle it.

[hocus pocus]

Both of you. You treat me like shit and expect me to still want to be around you. I was happy until you said what you did. I still felt the need to cut, but I was happy. Now I'm suicidal and alone. You, telling me what you think about me. You know what I think? I fucking think that I don't want to hear your opinion and you should shut the fuck up.

[mindflower]

TH was down while I needed it.... I'm so scared...terrified of what's happening... what will happen....

[blurryface]

are you kidding me. are you fucking kidding me.
you have friends you're pretty much out with them all the time wtf fhsidbfgwif

[nothereanymore]

Yeah, that was exactly what I wanted to wake up to. Someone telling me I'm wrong. Thanks.

[Kate*]

This is going to be a f***ing NIGHTMARE!

And YES I'm still pissed as hell about that. She gets to move on with her life like nothing happened, no consequences and I'm the one left paying the price because my life is f***ed up completely.

I so need therapy, too bad it's not accessible even if it's free, if it were I would've jumped on it instantly.

[Chris]

Why do you need to make the process so hard? Why can't you just make things easy on people? Unbelievable.

[Thereishope]

I really don't wanna go through this. It'd be so much easier to jut not care and give up trying to fix this. I know it's for the best to work on it but its just too much.

[cherrypie36]

what happens when I still try to move on from ex scarlett? Life kicks my ass and makes sure I don't.

I'm in the clothing store picking out bra's and so i pick out 2 bras.
the next day, I pick out one of the bras and I absolutely love it but What's the name of the brand? Take a wild guess. you'll never fucking believe it.

Scarlet. Maybe not with 2 "T"'s but definitely just the name.....really? fucking really? trying to not think of your ex and now you have to wear a bra named after her.

Congratulations Meris. Just fucking great

[Chris]

Wow - no, I don't 'understand'. You are going to lose alot of friends if you keep acting the way you are.

[blurryface]

i get butterflies just by thinking about you so imagine how i'm gonna be in real life when i see you tomorrow and i wish you would just stop because you will never feel the same way i do and it kills me because i just want you so fuckin bad but you probably couldn't care less

[Lumos.]

I really don't know what i fucking want anymore. I keep thinking this was the right decision, but now i don't know.

[hocus pocus]

I can barely keep myself up. It's been sketchy since yesterday. I complain a lot about it on here but I never talk about it in person, ever. I hate night. I fucking hate it. The blade seems quite appealing right now.

[Rivière]

As much as I love my mum right now I'm so angry and frustrated with her. Over teabags. Yeah sounds really mature of me. We're skimping for money, barely having enough to pay off the bills, the mortgage and all the rest of it. We have 5 teabags left. She knows I'm going to town anyway tomorrow for my counselling session. I said to her she can have the last of the teabags and I'll get some in town tomorrow as I can get a huge box really cheap and save us money which we desperately need and instead she's all, "I drink this many cups one after another so I'll get a box from up the road when I go and get the lottery. I don't want to be messing around" What!? WHAT!? So you're happy to spent £1.35 for just 40 Yorkshire Tea teabags...when I could get a box of 240 from town for £3.99!? Sure that might save time but it sure doesn't save money. Let's see, 40 teabags for £1.35 X 6, that's £8.10. We could save £4.11 just by waiting a little longer and me going to town tomorrow when she's out anyway! She's happy to start drinking coffee when we've had no teabags before but just because she wants her cup of tea now...nope gonna spend all the money we don't actually have because well y'know, we're broke and all that. I feel so damn petty by getting irritated by this but it's a matter of logic. Maybe I'm stupid but it's more logical to let me go to town tomorrow which I have to do anyway and buy teabags using that £1.35 to help buy 6 times as many for just a little extra.

[mindflower]

Everything was FINE! FINE. JUST. FINE. I actually, you know, hugged you today. The hardest thing I think I've ever had to do, and the scariest, and I could barely enjoy it because my thoughts were racing a mile a second and I was choking on depression and worry, but no. You asked for a hug. And I gave you one.
Everything was fine. And then I find out that like, right after I fucking hugged you and faced my fears and got to feel you again after MONTHS... you tell my ex-boyfriend that you and I like, almost had sex.
Great. Great. Thanks a lot.
*hyperventilates and dies* just when I thought maybe I wasn't so scared of you.... I'm going backwards here. More scared than ever now.
.....I love you and I can't love you
.....why the HELL did you have to tell him that we did that?!?!?!

[nothereanymore]

The day you graduate will be the happiest day of my life. One more year and then damned if I ever see you again.

[Reign.]

Relapsed.
Broke up with the guy I love cause of the distance.
Lonely.
Sad.
Suicidal.

[hocus pocus]

You say you know how this feels, so please don't throw it back in my face. I don't tell you nearly anything that goes on.

[Chris]

Trust is something that is supposed to be shared between two people, and you have proven time and time again that you're not worthy of my trust.

[Evanesco]

I'm such a fuck up and I fuck everything up. I don't know why you're not my friend anymore but it really, really hurts. I don't know what I've done.

[Jocasta]

Originally Posted by Broken Constellation

No, friend, I'm not fine. I've been cutting for years, I feel so lost and depressed. Besides, I haven't even told my best friend, and I only just met you at the beginning of the school year. You just love talking to me during one class, but completely ignore me in the other, especially when I'm trying to talk to you. What makes you think I'm going to tell you?
I'm not going to, because you'll never look the same way at me again. So, "I'm fine. Everything is just fine."

That is so damn true for so many people! It's always:"I'm fine." <- not a rant but i fell like its super important

[Fenzy]

Am I not attractive or something? Guys never look at me. Like, never.

[nothereanymore]

Kill me. Seriously.

[Jocasta]

Gods it hurts like nothing should ever hurt! So much pain! It is a hundred pound chain wrapped around my heart. Why is it so much worse tonight? I cant remember what she sounded like! what she smells like! I have so much hate in me! hate of me! how dare i try to move on! its not fucking fair!! i loved her with all my being, she was the best of us and now its just me, this junkie, this shit poet, this bitch roiling in her own silent rage until she comes apart at the seams.