Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

Either the signs are wrong in the system (which I don't know how to fix) or people can't read signs or dates on the coupon books. There's nothing I can do about that, but you put me way behind trying to fix what wasn't broken!

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

How much longer of pretending do I have to endure?

[Tigereyes]

I'm really not okay. I've never been so far from okay for so long. I'm not sure I can ever be okay again. I need to feel the pain before I can heal from it. But the pain hurts too much. And others can't handle seeing me in so much pain. So I have to suppress it. And until I'm able to let myself feel it, I can't heal. And my inability to heal also hurts them. I'm stuck.. I don't have enough support. I need support desperately. I'm about to lose the little support I do have.

I'm feeling overwhelmed with all the work I have to get done but won't. At least I only have to be at work for 4 hours.

[DysfunctionallyFunctional]

I serious believe my school is getting me prepared for an eternity in hell.

[Everglow.]

My head is pounding. Feel like I'm gonna cry today

[Kate*]

Not really up for work today and it doesn't help that I'm exhausted, but at least I'm off tomorrow which will be a lot worse.

If you have so much to do that you can't handle it or get it all done, why don't you tell me what else needs done instead of just having me fold?!

[RORO]

Sometimes it feels all I have is my music to help me hang on. I feel so lonely at times especially when I can't get to a meeting.

[Everglow.]

This headache is killing me.

[Everglow.]

I'm so drained. I just want to curl up and cry. How do you say enough is enough when you have no other options? I'm so. Tired.

Seething happened today that made me feel unloved and uncared for and selfish.

I was busy all day but I'm home now and I want to cut and die.

If I went out, I know the perfect place to attempt. No one would know until it's too late.

[Kate*]

We were extra patient because we've always gotten good service there, but after the guy you knew got a conversation and his drink before we were even acknowledged (despite being there at least 10 minutes before him), you looked at us and walked away, only came over as we were walking out, and offered an excuse instead of an apology, we were DONE. I work customer service, I know that 9 times out of 10 the issue comes with the customer, but sometimes YOU SCREW UP! At least take responsibility when you do.

I had a dream. I cheated and I feel like a slut. I deserve death

[Everglow.]

Another bad day. May call in sick this week. Can't do it.

[Kate*]

Why do we advertise the sizes we don't have? Because we sell out of shit and have no control over the signs. Good morning to you too ass hole

Feel like there is a hole in my heart, and I don't know why.

I've mostly been in bed all day and don't care. I went to lunch but the whole time I wanted to die.

At least I only have three days of work this week and maybe they'll let us go early wednesday.

Question if I can make it till the 12th. These days off aren't good for me

[London_grace]

Feel like binge eating

I am having some major heart burn right now.

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

I can't stop fucking eating.

Jealous how some people who were once so obese are so fit now.

Like, how do you do it!

[RORO]

I can't stop fucking worrying about my weight and what I eat.

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

I want to scream.

I'm feeling so damn anxious and stressed only two and a half days left of work and then I get a break. Trying to stay normal. I'll take this over what I was feeling last night.

I had the worst nightmare.

My mom was involved and I called her out on the abuse. My dad was in it and he had DID. I'm shaking because it scared me.

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

STOP TELLING ME LIES.

Not feeling well. Feel as though I deserve to die. I wonder if there is an end to this

[Everglow.]

If I feel bad tomorrow I might call in sick to work. I feel like I really need the day off because I'm not in Thursday either and it might actually give me a break. I hate calling in sick but the stress is actually effecting me now.

I want to die.

I have to go shopping after work and that will increase my anxiety and desire to die.

I want to cut. I have to go shopping and that will increase my anxiety and make the urge worse.

Maybe I'll just cave. There are other places besides my legs and arms to cut. No one would have to know.

No one cares anyway.

It should have been me that died. It should have. I'll never get over that it should have been me.

I hate the long, dark nights. Trying to be optimistic and think the days get longer in a month from tomorrow.

I hate that anxiety hurts. Not sure how to explain what I mean other than breathing in and out makes things so hard. Please let this distraction work.

[Kate*]

The ONLY two sentences you've EVER read about me happen to be me complaining about work, so you think the solution is to say that "It sure doesn't sound like you love your job." when I explain that I do, but it sucks right now. And I'm guessing that you probably don't either. No matter what you do, there are parts of it that suck and I'm allowed to say so without being told how you think I feel when you know NOTHING about me.

[nothereanymore]

Soooo happy to be back home in my bedroom with this weird smell STILL, and having to deal with this nasty bathroom. This house is cold because for some reason the AC is on even though it’s 45 degrees outside. And this bed is lonely. I didn’t realize how badly I wanted to get out until I spent some time away.

I had a nightmare about my mom. This is the second night in a row. I'm freaking out and anxious now. Maybe I should take my anxiety medication.

People making fun of someone for having phone anxiety on the radio 'This is why people talk so much about milennials'. Obviously you have no idea what it's like to be physically and emotionally uncomfortable making a phone call. I have to do it every day at work and I freak out a little each day. It'd be nice if you all got it through your heads that we can't help what makes us anxious.

[London_grace]

Feel like crying and binge eating. Don't give into it.

And the anxiety hits!

I got about 24 hours of freedom

[Tigereyes]

This house is bad and I can't leave for a few more days

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

You fucking don't understand, okay? I don't think A N Y O N E understands. They all say they do, but then what? "It'll get better I promise." "I care."

Then show me that you care. Quit making up excuses to get me in trouble, and for once shut your goddamn mouth and see the real picture.

[Unidentified~Unicorn]

Thanksgiving was shit. Parents are fighting, brothers keep picking on me which isn't helping with my self-esteem, and my boyfriend isn't with me at the moment. Having a fucking panic attack.