Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Starseeker]

ill never have a boyfriend if i push everyone away.

[IronButterflyWings]

Stupid, freaking landlord.

STOP showing the upstairs to people with multiple kids!!! Please. I need a good tenant, that ISN'T loud and causing me extra panic and stress. I may be a stay at home mom, but it DOES NOT mean that I can handle extra stess....good freaking grief. STOP IT.

I hope my appointment isn't cancelled tomorrow! I'll be really upset if it is, been waiting for this procedure for a while now.

So annoyed

[Tigereyes]

What's the point of sobriety if every minute sober sucks, even over a year and a half later?

[London_grace]

Gave in to the feeling to binge eat.

It's weird how anxiety randomly calms down. I still hate all that I'm going to have to do today but I think I'll be okay. If not I have pills I can take.

[Everglow.]

I overslept this morning and had to get an uber, so I've wasted money. I'm drained.

[Kate*]

Your office was locked, so I was forced to leave the radio in the cart and I'm assuming someone put it in the cage instead of where it belongs. It took me over a year to get the damn thing, I'm sick of it disappearing!

[Tigereyes]

It doesn't get better. Only haven't relapsed or killed myself because I'm too exhausted right now.

[Tigereyes]

Woke up at least a dozen times during my 8 attempted hours of sleep last night. Zero energy and packed day that I can't miss . Will probably fail this exam too.

I'm overwhelmed and don't want to do this.

[Celyn]

I just can't concentrate. Didn't sleep much and obsessed with over-analysing things.

I'm starting to scare myself.

Wonder if I'll have the courage to tell my psychiatrist that.

My anxiety kicked in full swing. Not sure if I should take a pill or not.

Get me out of here.

[Mismatched Socks]

What am I doing with my life? This is not how it was supposed to be.

Here I am wishing I was dead dead dead

[Everglow.]

Having a bad day. Nothing to keep me busy and nobody to talk to. Struggling.

[Tigereyes]

I know you're smoking again because of me.. I'm sorry for having negative emotions.

This sadness is so overwhelming. I need write about this.

I'm tired of this anxiety and worry.
Can't handle it

[Kintsukuroi.]

Ugh so much to do.

Let's add extreme sadness to the goddamn anxiety.

[London_grace]

Don't feel well.

Saying goodbye hurts. But I should be feeling nothing.

I can't help but feel no one would care if I died. It might not be true but that's what the voice in my head is telling me.

Maybe I'm going to lose this fight after all

I hate agony and anxiety that comes with Mondays.

I wish I were dead.

Really hate how crying knocks all the energy out of you.

[Everglow.]

There was an electrical fire in the lift and the whole block of flats were evacuated. Feel like I'm not going to sleep tonight. What if it happens again and we can't get out??
No power all night either. Feel panicky.

And there is the anxiety...had a good day, mostly, now I just want to die.

[Tigereyes]

Stop fucking lying to me

I wish I had an idgaf attitude for work. It seems like most the people in my training class and most the people in my unit are that way.

Maybe if I stopped caring things wouldn't be so stressful.

One of these days, I am going to be able to say it.

There goes the feeling of wanting to die! Should I take a pill or should I ride it out. Wednesday cannot come soon enough as I need to see my doctor and get on something else to help with the anxiety. I should probably start taking xanax but I don't know that I trust myself with it.

So sick of the crappy weather.

Ready for Thanksgiving break.

Headache and struggling to breath because of the fires.

Only have four more hours left of work though. Hopefully these next few hours go by quickly. It should, mostly.

[Everglow.]

Barely slept last night. Every time there was a noise I thought there was going to be a fire. Every time a light flickers I think the powers going to go again. Really don't want to go to work tomorrow. I'm so tired.

I feel trapped and it's not a great feeling to have. Leads me thinking death would be better. Might go home and cut.

If I cut my legs no one has to know.