Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

8 hours every shift and maybe some early mornings (wonder if I can negotiate to overnights instead) And maybe get some weekend time off. Of course I'm not even sure I want it and it's not like they're going to hand it to me.

You were supposed to protect me and you didn't and you don't. I don't want to hate you but I do.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

If I die, not a single person would care.

Don't let them get to you.
Don't let them get to you.
Don't let them get to you.
You have no choice but to keep doing this because you'll be without medical insurance if you fuck up.
You're a failure and they see it.

Don't let them get to you because that's probably what they want.

[Kate*]

8 hour shift in 5 hours and I'm wide awake. Maybe I shouldn't have applied for her job, but they're going to hire and train somebody anyway, it may as well be one of us who already has a clue. And, it doesn't mean I'll get it, but at least I'll get to talk to them about it, unless the assessment screwed me.

I can't and won't do what I haven't been taught, so no complaining when it doesn't get done.

[Thinking]

i am pissed. I would have finished the exam if only i had wrote them faster..

Now i lost my chance on a scholarship again because of this failure. i am stupid

[nothereanymore]

I just want to be able to lay comfortably and sleep at night

[Celyn]

Headache again. It's like I can't do anything without ending up with a headache -_-

[Fanatic]

I totally feel screwed over right now by my own college. Life is unfair. I want to die.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'm a nobody and will always be a nobody. Why should I stay alive when no one wants me around? I have absolutely no one. Everyone wants me dead. If I disappeared, not a single person would care or even wondered what happened to me. Maybe it would be better if I just died.

[London_grace]

Everything is just crazy and I don't know what to do.

[Tigereyes]

What the fuck?

What if all this coffee is just decaf! I wish my Keurig machine worked! I need a new one and don't know how to get it. ugh.

I don't know that I can do this. I always make the wrong decisions.

I should have gone to bed at a more normal time last night. Didn't wake up until close to 11.

I'm feeling irritated with everyone and everything.

Already feeling anxiety this will be an epic fail.

[TraitorBaby]

I want a drink

I am struggling with urges and I don't know how to be safe. Might go read but IDK. I know the book will be sad but right now I need a sad book.

[Kate*]

I wasn't made for full-time retail. I still have 2 shifts before I FINALLY get 1 day off. We need to replace her, I don't know how long I can do this.

I am worthless. I am terrible. I am a bitch

[Kate*]

I love when people ask stupid questions. The answers are in HUGE print on the GIANT sign.

I feel really broken and upset. I feel unworthy. I feel like I'm a waste of space.

Not sure what to do with these feelings

[Tigereyes]

I can't call. I'm just going to get yelled at if I do. Maybe I do deserve this. Also I neve r want to ask for help again because all it does is make everything so much worse.

[Everglow.]

Must be me. Everyone eventually loses interest and finds people they like more, so it MUST be me.

[Kate*]

So much for 31.5 hours of pay. 28.5 will have to do. Good thing I've been perfectly reliable in my entire 10 months because that was the worst conversation with a manager I've had yet. I was terrified of catching something that would make me throw up and needed to get out of there ASAP.

I keep thinking that it wouldn't matter if I lived or died. Not too many people would care.


Maybe it is a selfish thought. I don't know how to make it seem less true.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I don't belong anywhere.

[Everglow.]

Already hating today.

I wish I could disappear. It will be okay.

Some people are horrible, vile, and completely ignorant.

I'm not going to pass. I'm going to fail. I'm a failure.

What is the world coming to? I'm scared to wake up tomorrow.

I'm not good enough. I'll never be good enough.

[Kate*]

This is why my generation hates systems. You have to cooperate and play along. Even when they try to or do fuck you over and do horrible things. They can do whatever they want and victimize you with no consequences. I was NOT responsible for it, I did not deserve it, and just because they've gotten away with it, for who knows how long, doesn't mean that it's okay. It's not.

I feel exceptionally sad.

Can we just please not? I don't want to. I don't like cooking. It leaves too much in the sink, I need to empty the dishwasher, and I am scared I am going to cancel out the couple pounds I've lost over the past few weeks. I'm too anxious to eat too, feel like throwing up even though I have nothing in me.

Apparently I am going to freak out about getting fired for a year. I probably will get fired eventually because I am a failure

[Kate*]

If I can't tell which thing you're looking for, I won't be able to help you find it or look it up.

Haven't been feeling work lately and I still have crazy hours until next week.

How am I going to deal with this all weekend? How am I going to gather the courage to do what I must on Monday?