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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Yay for panic attacks. Wheee.
Also thanks for letting me know that you didn't wanna hear about it. Right now I really don't like you. I mean, I love you. But I won't lie, I don't like you right now.
Why is everyone treating me like im fucking stupid or something? its effing annoying
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
No one in this house cares about anyone else. I am literally caught in limbo. Getting out and going crazy.
I fucking hate my mother. She thinks she's the fucking greatest. Incompetent bitch.
I saw him. And I ran for it.
...I couldn't talk to him, not even for a minute, I saw him walk out and he didn't see me, and I ran for it.
I couldn't do it.
I'm scared of my best friend.
I'm scared of my best friend, the guy I love, I'm utterly terrified of him.
Worst part is? I basically only went to see him.... and he didn't see me......
I don't know what it was thar caused the argument between you and her earlier, but, based on my own experiences of you, I can presume it was you who was in the wrong.
Do you realize what you're doing to me? Even if I told you I don't think you'd care.
I am beyond failing this test and it's worth 25% of my grade. I told you it was going to be too much. Grades are starting to come in now, this is where my life starts to CRASH!
I DID that assignment, I better have a 0 in the grade book for good reason!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Bug landed on me when I was laying in the dark screamed now I can't sleep or turn off the light til it dies but I don't know where it went fuck
Sleeping in living room. Dads gonna wake me up at like 5 am and ask and then find me stupid for leaving over a bug.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Last edited by ¯|_(ツ)_|¯; July 1st 2013 at 06:43 AM.
Okay, STUPIDEST mistake EVER cost me points on the midterm. Hopefully I'm doing well enough to absorb that! I should be fine, I'm just PISSED at myself.
Please DO NOT let me get sick from eating that!
I'm starting to think that this is what the development of an eating disorder looks like and I swore I would never let this happen.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I just ate so much and I wasn't even hungry. Not even just saying that. Fat fuck.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Why do I fucking do this? One of these days I'm gonna push him away for good. I know he loves me but one of these days my personality and my fucking mood swings are gonna drive him away for good. I've already done it before and it was like my heart was being run over with a truck while simultaneously put through a shredder. I can't lose him again but how do I change?
WOW FUCK YOU TOO I POUR MY HEART OUT TO YOU AND YOU TELL ME YOU'RE GOING TO SLEEP YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE
Why the fuck do I love you? Why the fuck do I care? I honestly feel like you're in this for the wrong reasons. You're a dick.
'Best friend', i'm sorry that me being so miserable is so annoying to you and yes i will 'grow a pair' or at least that's what i'll go back to, faking a smile, faking a laugh, faking happiness, all for your benefit. You complained at me for not being honest about how i was feeling, then you go and scream at me for not being happy enough. I'll go back to a fake smile for you, for everyone.
Oh and IHTT yes, you were supposed to come and see me today, but like last time you forgot. Now i don't have any meds and you're going to complain at me for missing them. But don't worry, i'll be off your workload very soon anyway! That'll solve everyone's problems.
why the fuck do you bring my hopes up and down like its a roller coaster? i want this more than anything, and taking it away and see what happens.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Why does it matter to you three anyway? It's my problem! If I wanted help I would get it myself. I don't want help! I don't care. That doesn't mean you should. Telling Trace isn't gonna help. She hates my guts! Heck, even I hate my guts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My parents booked seats near the front of the plane. If we crash, I have a much higher chance of dying. For feck's sake, why am I overthinking this so much??!! I'm a nervous wreck...
why do i have to be the one to watch the kids everyday? Do you ask? no. they aren't my fucking kids so stop being so rude about it.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
So he writes in my yearbook, "We have to hang out this summer!" Have we? No. Will we? Probably not. Will he hang out with my sister? He has already and probably will again.
And the one time I get invited to go out with friends, my boyfriend gets jealous. For fuck's sake.
What the FUCK makes me so repulsive? At least I'm not the type of 'friend' that only hangs out with people when she's got nothing better to do, or as a last resort, or just to get away from her parents, or some other shallow ass fucking reason like that. Maybe I should be though, it seems like those are the only people that have friends these days.
Could you please stop fucking getting offended after everything I say?! Stop. Just give me space. I'm so tired of fighting with you and it just makes me want to relapse. So if you want to help, back off.
Out of the ashes I'm burning like a fire. You can save your apologies, you're nothing but a liar. I've got shame, I've got scars that I will never show. I'm a survivor in more ways than you know. 'Cause all the pain and the truth, I wear like a battle wound. So ashamed, so confused, I was broken and bruised. Now I'm a warrior.
You think you're entitled to do and say whatever you want. No one is allowed to depend on you. You're entitled to ask the world of everyone else though. You're brattier than a child. You throw more tantrums than I ever did and I'm 16 and you're 37. You're lazy as fuck. My 17 year old boyfriend has a better work ethic than you. You're fucking despicable. I hope you choke on the cigarettes you smoke every 15 minutes.
We have something so potentially beautiful together and my depression is tearing us apart. I'm so sorry my love, I never wanted it to be this way. Never doubt I will always love you. I wish I could tell you.
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
I posted a nice little blog just before the site went down. And it didn't post. Wonderful. Signs from the universe or something. Donations of duct tape and super glue for my big fat whiny mouth will be accepted.
I feel so fucking stupid. I should have known it was too good to be true.....
I just... I'm not okay....
I thought he was going to be the one and.... and now I'm friendzoned... and I don't know what I did wrong but.... gah