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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
I am tired of having to deal with all this. I am tired of being overlooked. Wish I could leave but I know I wouldn't be able too. I'll just have to sit back and deal with it all.
Just when I think I've moved on, it hits me again. I knew that it would never fully go away, but I was hoping it would eventually stop hurting this badly.
And a few hours later, I'm feeling ridiculously empowered. I REALLY hope this is normal because it's super weird!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I feel really bad about not caring about your class in high school. It still really bothers me to this day. Mostly because I was actually really good at it. I think I’m mad mostly at myself for being difficult, fucking up, using every excuse in the book to fuck up things for everyone else. I really wish I could go back and change things, try harder, and commit. I’m so sorry. Maybe we could have succeeded if I had just tried harder. It’s my one biggest regrets in life and I honestly don’t know why it still bothers me.
There is suddenly a sore spot in my throat when I swallow. If the entitled sick bitch who threw my stuff everywhere got me sick, I give up on humanity.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
One of my rats died Last night.
And the only person home is my brother who didn't even stay out his room long enough for me to take him out the cage.
I hate life i fucking hate it
How can you already be demanding that I come back? I can't handle being at the house again for a while, and not that long--or did you somehow fail to see that when I had to leave early last week?
"Just open your eyes and see that life is beautiful..." ~Sixx:A.M.
I could pay this off now, and leave myself with almost no money, or I can wait. I HATE the fact that I could, but I don't have enough cushion to actually do it.
And it may be considered "good" by professionals, but after I went through I want it off my back. Nothing "good" resulted from it. It was all wasted.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I don't love my job anymore. I can't tell if it's the management changes, the fact that it's getting repetitive as hell (which I used to not mind), if there's a medication issue, if we're getting busier, or if the novelty has just worn off. And I'm back to 6 hour shifts next week after dealing with her on Monday, which means it doesn't count as a day off. At least if I was forced to work it, I'd get away from her and get paid time and a half.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I'm really anxious about going to the pub tonight. But it was my fucking idea. Only I thought about it two weeks ago, within a safe distance from the date itself. Dumb.
The more I hear about this, the more I want to avoid it, and I didn't want to go in the first place. I'd love to get out of it, or refuse to go, but is it worth the yelling I know you'll do?
Melatonin failed me last night, ugh.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I almost gave up being self harm free. So close to 2 years. Not certain what caused the urge other then seeing a tool I could use. Please let me make it to two years!
I hate the fact that you refuse to help me with anything. I understand that sometimes life gets in the way, but I go out of my way to help you sometimes, and I'll I'm asking for in return is a little help fixing something and you avoid me like I'd give you the flu.
Back to 6 hour shifts tomorrow and all of next week. The upside is more money, but it's really not that much more, especially after taxes. It doesn't help that I'm nauseous and getting a headache now. And my favorite manager is gone.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I feel so unworthy of anyone’s time. That’s why everyone keeps canceling their plans with me, right? I’m not worthy of their time. They keep canceling last minute. This is the third time in less than 24 hours
Someone actually looked me in the face tonight and said “you just need to take better care of yourself”... because it’s just that simple. my identical twin sister died just over four months ago when an impaired driver ran her over while she was walking on the sidewalk and I was forced to get a full-time job and become self-sufficient because my dad can do that, so I can too, right? my health is suffering because this shit is stressful, and because I’m actually suffering, not because I’m not taking care of myself. And when I take care of myself poorly, don’t you think I have a pretty damn good reason to?