Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[nothereanymore]

Why can’t you just be happy for me? Why do you have to jump down my throat and compare me to my brother first? Fucking bitch.

I am tired of having to deal with all this. I am tired of being overlooked. Wish I could leave but I know I wouldn't be able too. I'll just have to sit back and deal with it all.

[London_grace]

Everyone is still fighting!

I hate myself. I hate this all so much. So much good stuff going on for me and I still can't be happy or stop hating myself.

[Kate*]

Just when I think I've moved on, it hits me again. I knew that it would never fully go away, but I was hoping it would eventually stop hurting this badly.

And a few hours later, I'm feeling ridiculously empowered. I REALLY hope this is normal because it's super weird!

I am having anxiety and I feel like I am an absolute failure.

[Tigereyes]

Fuck recovery bullshit. It doesn't work. I'll never get better. I don't want to try anymore.

Had a ton of stuff I wanted to get done and now my head is killing me. I think it might be an stress headache but cannot be certain.

[Tigereyes]

Today was a very shitty day. You really hurt me, and I'm really not okay.

[Phantom_Girl]

I feel really bad about not caring about your class in high school. It still really bothers me to this day. Mostly because I was actually really good at it. I think I’m mad mostly at myself for being difficult, fucking up, using every excuse in the book to fuck up things for everyone else. I really wish I could go back and change things, try harder, and commit. I’m so sorry. Maybe we could have succeeded if I had just tried harder. It’s my one biggest regrets in life and I honestly don’t know why it still bothers me.

[Kate*]

There is suddenly a sore spot in my throat when I swallow. If the entitled sick bitch who threw my stuff everywhere got me sick, I give up on humanity.

[Everglow.]

One of my rats died Last night.
And the only person home is my brother who didn't even stay out his room long enough for me to take him out the cage.
I hate life i fucking hate it

[Tigereyes]

How can you already be demanding that I come back? I can't handle being at the house again for a while, and not that long--or did you somehow fail to see that when I had to leave early last week?

[Everglow.]

Urges keeping me up.
Struggling tonight.
Want to make you proud but I'm going to end up nowhere.
I need help.
Nowhere to go

[Kate*]

I could pay this off now, and leave myself with almost no money, or I can wait. I HATE the fact that I could, but I don't have enough cushion to actually do it.
And it may be considered "good" by professionals, but after I went through I want it off my back. Nothing "good" resulted from it. It was all wasted.

[TraitorBaby]

My brothers an asshole. My feet STILL hurt.

[Kate*]

Fully aware,world doesn't revolve around me, but sick to DEATH of mine revolving around HER

[TraitorBaby]

Wish I was drunk. Would love some vodka

[Everglow.]

Idk what's wrong with me today. Can't shake the feeling that somethings wrong.

[Kate*]

I don't love my job anymore. I can't tell if it's the management changes, the fact that it's getting repetitive as hell (which I used to not mind), if there's a medication issue, if we're getting busier, or if the novelty has just worn off. And I'm back to 6 hour shifts next week after dealing with her on Monday, which means it doesn't count as a day off. At least if I was forced to work it, I'd get away from her and get paid time and a half.

Woke up due to a nightmare and probably won't fall back asleep. It's 4am...

[Starseeker]

I'm really anxious about going to the pub tonight. But it was my fucking idea. Only I thought about it two weeks ago, within a safe distance from the date itself. Dumb.

I don't see the fucking point

[Lunar]

I hate you.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

My own friends didn't even wish me happy birthday.....

[Kate*]

The more I hear about this, the more I want to avoid it, and I didn't want to go in the first place. I'd love to get out of it, or refuse to go, but is it worth the yelling I know you'll do?

Melatonin failed me last night, ugh.

[Tigereyes]

I can't fucking take this anymore. I'm sorry for having emotions and that I'm not good enough at completely suppressing them.

[Lunar]

I can't stand how you treat me. I've had enough.

I almost gave up being self harm free. So close to 2 years. Not certain what caused the urge other then seeing a tool I could use. Please let me make it to two years!

[Tigereyes]

Why the fuck do my neighbors always have to smoke weed into the vents so it gets into my room and bathroom?? And why always when I want drugs?

[Lunar]

I hate the fact that you refuse to help me with anything. I understand that sometimes life gets in the way, but I go out of my way to help you sometimes, and I'll I'm asking for in return is a little help fixing something and you avoid me like I'd give you the flu.

My headaches have been bad this week and that's not good since I start working in a week. Going to lie down and hope that helps this one.

[Kate*]

Back to 6 hour shifts tomorrow and all of next week. The upside is more money, but it's really not that much more, especially after taxes. It doesn't help that I'm nauseous and getting a headache now. And my favorite manager is gone.

[TraitorBaby]

It took everything i had to shower and shave and not use the razor for something else.

At least I know he's gone now...

Anxiety woke me up. Not sure I'll be able to get back to sleep.

[Everglow.]

I'm literally so sick of constantly being unhappy and exhausted.

[Lunar]

Forget you and everything you think is okay to say to people when it isn't.

I feel so unworthy of anyone’s time. That’s why everyone keeps canceling their plans with me, right? I’m not worthy of their time. They keep canceling last minute. This is the third time in less than 24 hours

I am not sure what I am feeling right now...I just feel unsafe?

[nothereanymore]

Someone actually looked me in the face tonight and said “you just need to take better care of yourself”... because it’s just that simple. my identical twin sister died just over four months ago when an impaired driver ran her over while she was walking on the sidewalk and I was forced to get a full-time job and become self-sufficient because my dad can do that, so I can too, right? my health is suffering because this shit is stressful, and because I’m actually suffering, not because I’m not taking care of myself. And when I take care of myself poorly, don’t you think I have a pretty damn good reason to?