Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

I'm so anxious all of a sudden.
I know why but I don't think it will get better until May

Why did I listen and try that. I'm not going to get a job. It's not about that. The only reason they accept me is because I have the minimum qualifications.

Let's prepare to fail

[Lunar]

I wish I didn't have to deal with this. I wish I was healthy and able to do what you do. I always feel like a let down and a failure.

[Everglow.]

Asked at work if I ever get overwhelmed.
Yes!! Because I'm doing everything all at once! I can't cope.

I am probably going to have to take anxiety medication. At this point, I wish I had asked my doctor to fill the xanax. Not sure how I'll get through the next few weeks like this.

[Kate*]

There was another cake in the break room which makes me think the last manager I like is leaving. I already know from the last 3 times that no one is going to tell me. I'll just figure it out when he's never there anymore. I REALLY hope that's not it and there was just cake in the break room for fun.

I spent too much money because it made me feel good but now I am freaking out about it. A lot of the orders can't be refunded so that's awesome as well.

I am a failure.

[Celyn]

Everything is so loud and I'm sensitive to so many things, it's like being overloaded.

[Lunar]

I hate that you think you can treat people badly, and for no good reason at all.

[Celyn]

I hurt the two people I love the most and countless others during this episode.

Gosh damn anxiety! It hurts, the feeling in the pit of my stomach...it won't go away and it's torture. I'll be okay because it could be worse but the medication isn't working.

[Kate*]

Getting snippy with me in the last 5 minutes of my shift on an insanely busy weekend morning when I've gotten almost no sleep will NOT get you what you want and it is NOT okay. If I didn't need and like my job so much, it would get you something you definitely DON'T want. You are capable of being a decent human being, you might want to try it some time.


Stay in your lane and back the fuck off! You have NO right to judge.

[nothereanymore]

Nothing at all worth living for.

[Celyn]

Oh thats depressing

Don't feel like studying. This is the worst because I am going to have to look through the questions. I'll wait till later though. I don't want to do something that might stress me out. Need to practice remembering something over the next two days, as well.

[Lunar]

I hate the fact that it's raining. I would have loved to go to the park today. I hope that the rain stops so we might be able to this afternoon.

[Nala.]

I can't get sick right now. Please just be simple allergies.

[Mirabelle]

Pollen in the air is bad tonight.

[Celyn]

I mess things up with people all the time, and I'm so sorry.

[Celyn]

I wish I hadn't been so stupid with my mental health.

[Celyn]

I know this song....it made me think of reminders.

[Celyn]

It better not be. I'm in such big trouble.

I'm screwed,

So so screwed.

Ah crap.

This is messed up.

Seriously.

Why?

Crap.

[Mirabelle]

My stalker has joined another forum I'm on and I feel trapped.

[Kate*]

Back to work tomorrow, but at least it's not 5 days in a row this week, and I'll get my birthday off.

I'm paranoid because I rounded by 2 weeks that it's going to come back to bite me, but they have the correct information that counts and if it's all accepted in time, it'll only be 5 days before that actually happens. I'm also nervous about work tomorrow for no reason. It's times like these I'm reminded that the meds don't completely resolve the anxiety, and part of me wonders if they're going to stop working.

I wrote that in my millionth attempt at closure, I hope it works this time. It's exhausted me. In a way that's a good sign.

Please let the anxiety go away.
No coffee tomorrow. No to a lot of things so I can concentrate.

[Mirabelle]

Wish I'd brought along my iSatHub. Would have got better more reliable broadband instead of this manky internet we're lumbered with.

[Kintsukuroi.]

It’s 2 in the morning and i have to be up in a few hours. -_-

I am not sure how to distract myself. Nothing is working...

[Mirabelle]

My family and its dark history is really quite upsetting.

Anxiety, again. Not sure how to deal with this. I know the severity will pass but I don't want to deal with anyone.

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I will always be a failure. Everything I touch, breaks. I'm a burden.....

I should not have to scrape off the caked-on gunk on your dishes because you refuse to take them out of your room for weeks on end, or to even soak them. I am SICK of this. We have ALL told you this for YEARS. Get it through your fucking brain or else you can do the dishes.

I wish the surgery could hurry up and get here...

[.:PrincessZelda:.]

I'll never amount to anything. I'm the dumbest person on this planet. I'm not smart. I'm an idiot. Why should I care about anything anymore when no one cares about me and wishes I was dead? All I am is a nuisance and a burden. I have nothing.....

Prep prep prep to fail fail fail

[Kate*]

Allergies are evil and now my throat hurts.

[nothereanymore]

Thank you for telling dad what I told you without even telling me you were gonna do that you big mouth bitch

Probably need to sleep. Worried I am going to forget everything if I do. Might set my alarm for 5:30am

[Mirabelle]

Can't sleep still too hyper from the concert last night. Ahh, perchance to sleep?

[nothereanymore]

I want to be cuddled and loved on and adored but who would want me?