Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[London_grace]

What a crazy day today.

I feel so damn weird right now.

I wish I could tell the voices in my head to shut up.

I'm tired of being me
Struggling to see the point in going on

[Everglow.]

Part of my parents Christmas present is gone. What a waste of money. Christmas is goin to be crap this year anyway

[Kate*]

10 more work hours until I get a break, but holy hell are they going to be rough! And I have to do laundry tomorrow too.

Want to cut
Was given more clarity about what I can do to help with any future interviews. Will also be nailing down a closing statement of some sort.

I'm struggling so much today.
Maybe I'll get up and go run the errands

[Kate*]

You screwed up the laundry and then took forever to get ready, so I was late for work!

This is how you piss me off: Wait until the last 5 minutes of my 5 hour shift to have someone come and tell me you're looking for me because there's something I need to do that will take me at least an hour! I was there for 5 HOURS, I saw you at least that many times, and walked by that area at least 3. So I have a right to snap at the people you sent to come get me! Don't wait so fucking long, come and get me yourself (you knew where I was the whole time), bring it to me or have someone else do it. Do NOT think that you can cop attitude because you have unrealistic expectations and are management!

I have another headache.
I probably need to schedule an appointment with the doctor in the new year to try and get some treatment for this...just can't stand the doctors!

[London_grace]

I'm tired today.

[nothereanymore]

You’re a real high maintenance opinionated bitch sometimes.

I wonder if my life will always feel this damn incomplete...If I'll always be this much of a failure?

[Everglow.]

Christmas just doesn't feel the same anymore. Everywhere I look someone is suffering or having a tough time and not even I can find any Christmas spirit now. Let's cancel the whole thing and go back to bed.

[nothereanymore]

Love when planning my future goes from exciting to ‘fuck that, I wish I was dead’.
See, the reason I haven’t started LIVING yet... is because I’m horribly depressed and suicidal. Wrap your head around that.

Can't stand people who continually act stupid and continually feel sorry for themselves instead of taking action.

Absolutely love the holidays

[Kate*]

If you're the reason he's allowed to do shit, you're not allowed to complain about it.

Having slight anxiety. Went to get gas tonight and someone was smoking by the pumps... Than he picked a pump up so he could get gas. He still had a cigarette in his hand and I was right in the middle of getting gas.

I know it is likely for anything to happen, necessarily, but they warn against that.

I'll calm down eventually.

[Kate*]

We need to stop with this whole "Your disability shouldn't limit you" crap and be more realistic because it DOES. In a perfect world it wouldn't, because it wouldn't even EXIST. He needs to have success or to at least enjoy himself and if it causes him to struggle enough that he has neither of those, why push him just because it "shouldn't happen"?!

I can't breath. Not sure if I should take anxiety meds or not. Make it stop.

[nothereanymore]

Eight months later I still can’t believe you were able to drop me so easily. For your stupid fucking selfish girlfriend. Like I meant nothing to you.

[nothereanymore]

I wish I was dead. I cannot fucking stand this. I wasn’t meant for this.

I don't feel that great today. Mostly just a headache which I've been getting more of this past week.

Hope it goes away by tonight!

[nothereanymore]

Feel like a brat. I asked for too much. I didn’t deserve anything. I’ve overstated my welcome.

Sometimes I feel like I need to/have to apologize to everyone for being me. It's like this every where I turn and it makes me question why I keep going on.

[Kate*]

I got 12 hours of sleep and I feel fine so, why am I so tired?!

[Kate*]

Boo fucking Hoo! You do NOT need someone here for that. You are NOT A GODDAMN VICTIM. If either of us is, it's me and I'm not dependent and throwing shit fits about it am I?! Can't fucking wait. And not sorry because it will probably be your own fucking fault!

[Everglow.]

Hasn't felt like christmas at all today. Wish I could shake this feeling. It won't go away.

Everyone can go ahead and screw off.
This was the perfect thing to have happen at the holidays

[Kate*]

Elderly: You have to accept them, they'll never change.

Young: Gets read the riot act for any behavior resembling that that is acceptable from the elderly.

No, I didn't do it and now I can't because you barricaded half of the back room so I can't get to the tape or put the cart where it belongs. Good fucking job.

Don't want to utilize your services but currently have no choice.

That's awesome.

You are acting like I'm being difficult and someone that used to work for you and has heard what is going on says it's inappropriate even if I'm not 'participating' which I am.

I didn't just trigger the hell out of myself.

I wish our Christmas plans had backfired.

So tired, and I hate being tired. Not during this time of the year.

[nothereanymore]

Thanks for confirming that I’m selfish when I said I was struggling with feeling selfish. Didn’t need that.

[Everglow.]

And back to work. Back to the same boring routine that's literally taking any excitement out of my life.

[Everglow.]

Customer is making a complaint on Google reviews about me. Might as well fucking hurt myself because I'm no good for anything and I wish I wasn't here.

I'm anxious but it will work out.

[Kate*]

It is what it is, changing my view will change NOTHING my feelings are valid, even if I'm the only one who says so!

I don't want to deal with you, why can't you get that?! And you sure as fuck don't act like it and I want you to leave me alone. We haven't gotten to how to deal with you yet, but my decision to limit you is supported.

[London_grace]

Not myself today or right now.

I want to give up but I have to move forward. Don't have anyone I can rely on but myself.

[Kate*]

Not feeling work tomorrow, but at least it's only 3 shifts and then I get 3 days off and 4 short shifts. And my friend can pick me up so my aunt doesn't have to drive forever just to take me home so Mom can still have a life.